basement so I put her to bed.

Then I walked upstairs and past my mother's room.  See our father was an international businessman so he was gone for months at a time and my mother was all alone.  Her door was slightly cracked open and I stood there for a sec and peeked in to see her masturbating agressively with a vibrator and her hand.  She was pumping the pink vibrator in and out and some of her pussy juices were dripping off of it when she turned her head and noticed me. 

I crept out into the hallway hoping she didn't but I only got a few steps when she called me in to her room.  I came back in and thankfully she had a sheet over her but she asked if I liked what I saw.  I was shocked that my mother would ask that question but truthfully turned on by her forwardness.  I sheepishly told her "A little."  She said that was all right and it was a natural feeling at my age.  She patted her bed in a motion for me to sit down.

She asked me if I knew about sex yet and I told her about our Sex ED classes.  She said that was a bunch of crap to scare us and said "Do you really know about it."  I told her that I guess I didn't.  She then told me to close my eyes and proceeded to tie a bandana over my eyes to blind me.  She slowly whispered into my ear that she was going to teach me about sex.  She lifted my arms and slid off my shirt to reveal my red flowery bra that I picked out with my friends at the mall and my mom mentioned how cute it was.

I was still wearing my volleyball shorts because I had a late practice so I didn't change when I got home, but that also meant that I didn't have any underwear on.  My mother knew this and waited until I was more comfortable before she removed them.  She cupped my petite breasts and played with the nipple through the bra.  She started kissing my neck and sent shivers down my spine and consequently I started feeling hot.  She reached behind me and slowly undid my bra and revealed my adolescent tits.

She very slowly kissed her way down my chest and began to lick and suck each individual nipple.  I have kissed boys before, but they have never seen any part of me so this was unfamiliar territory.  I began to get wet and horny and I started to fidget a little bit and my mother whispered "Trust me."  She pushed me backwards so that I lie flat on the bed and began to kiss my belly when I felt her hook my shorts on either hip and slide them down to my ankles to reveal my little patch of hair covering my passion flower.

I felt kisses moving up my inner thighs and all around my innocent vagina until i felt to two fingers pull my pussy lips apart and a wet tongue lick my clit.  She started out slow and picked up speed real fast and I began squirming from the pleasure.  My breathing picked up and then i moaned real loud and long and my mother pulled off my bandana and said You've had your first orgasm.

I was in awe of how my mother made love to me but the said that's not the end.  She pulled out some rope and tied both my hands to opposite bedposts.  I was a little worried but I trusted her.  She went over to her dresser and pulled out two vibrators, one was a strap-on the other was the pink one I had seen earlier.  I asked her what they were knowing full well what they were.  She calmly said to me that she wanted to take my virginity.  I was worried know but looking back on it I can't say I blame her when my dad was gone 8 months of the year.  She had bought the set of vibrators because she got lonely and would rather masturbate than risk her marriage, even though my dad was probably cheating on her overseas.

I nervously nodded yes in approval and she tossed the pink vibrator on the bed and put on her strapon.  My mother was 35 years old but in great shape.  Her ass, legs, face, tits, everything was as perfect as it could be for a mother of 2.  She was the MILF of the neighborhood.  She crawled towards me on the bed as I gazed at her massive melons, I reached out and touched them and she reassuringly said, You can do whatever you want.  So I began to suck on her tits without any foreplay because I had no experience, that would later change.

After a little she began to lick my clit some more to get me wet again and place the head of the strapon at the entrance to my womanhood.  I asked her if it would hurt and she said only for a moment but she would be careful.  She hit the switch and it began vibrating.  I could feel the vibrations and I starting getting hot again as she slowly entered me.  She stopped at my hymen and told me to grab the sheets and bite the pillow and so I did.  Then she thrust forward and all the way into me as I let go of my grip and screamed.  She leaned down and gave me a hug with the strapon still vibrating inside of me and she lay there for a minute then she started fucking me.  She was on her way out and when I thought it was over she slammed back into me.

She was going slow and then started picking up speed.  She pulled out and picked my legs up so they were pointed towards the ceiling and started fucking me with my pussy in plain view to her.  After I had a couple orgasms she got off of me and laid down exhausted.  I felt guilty because I was getting all the pleasure so I grabbed the other dildo and began fucking my mom.  She had a few orgasms and smiled at me.  I got up to go to bed and she said that I could sleep with her that night and any night from then on.

This is my first story, any feedback is great, thanks.

s and said "Hey baby,how do you feel?".

My mind never registered that query,as my thoughts races back almost 15 hours,It seemed like an eternity,as my thoughts finally started to arrange themselves in a comprehensible manner.But where do I begin to tell this most wonderful of events in my 14 years of existance?

Maybe I should introduce myself......

My name is Anne,my last name is Ritter,I was born almost exactly a year after my elder brother Jack,WE call him Jacky,and ofcourse im called Anne.

I weigh 120 pounds and am 5 feet 5 inches tall with a measurement of 34-29-31 (Not bad for a 14 year old eh???)
Jacky on the other hand was about 5 feet 9 inches 150 pounds and had atleast 7 inches of you know what!!

Me and my bro were always close,Even while growing up we never had any fights or sibiling rivalry or any fights whatsoever,He was very protective of me,And loved me as much as anyone would a sister(Until now!!).

He is very nice and sweet,And by the time we were 10, I started having a secret crush on him,Ive always wanted to know how it would be to kiss him,To hold him close,Although I would have never admitted before "to make love with him". I used to smell his clothes and innerwear and even stole a couple of his briefs,I giggled later as he and mom debated on wehet it was birds that had stolen them from the clothesline!

We were not from a very well to do family so family holidays were far between,Even when we do me and my brother usually bunked together in one room while my parents had another room,Our las outing was when I was 12 and he was 13,i must secretly confess though that during that outing I almost asked my brother Jacky to have sex with me,But I somehow overcame my urges at night as I heard is soft breating from the bed next to me.

This time too while we were vacationing Me and him got to have a seperate room,Maybe thats why this whole thing started!!

On the FIrst day of the trip we arrived at the hotel,And checked into our rooms,Our room had a seperate cots ofcourse,My brother went into the bathroom to have a shower,I went in after he had come out,The towel he'd dried in was lying by the basin,I locked the door,Took the towel and smelled it,Immediatley my loins burned and the desire to have my bother came over me again,But sensing it was wrong I put my thoughts away and showered,I put on my innerwear and selected a short white top that was actually a size small for me,A denim skirt that stopped just below my thighs,nike sneaks,I brushed my short shoulder lenght hair,I looked at the mirror,I could see the faintest trace of my nipples,THe faintest trace of my well rounded thighs and ofcourse my b-cup breasts,Perfect i said to myself,I got my denim jacket,zipped it up and went out for the day.

That night we were all quite tired from the days activites,At dinner my mom let me have the smallest touch of wine from her glass,It was my first drink,and it made me fell a bit woozy,Maybe that was to blame for what will happen in an hours time!

As me and my brother walked back to the room i stood right behing him as he opened the door,While he was fumbling with the keys I got a good whiff of his scent,My loins started to groan again,I knew it was wrong,I knoew he was my brother,BUT BABY SISTER WANTED TO GET LAID TONIGHT.

This might not be the approproate time but I should let you know I was a virgin until last night..anyway...

We entered the room as he turned on the lights,He sat on his bed,while I folpped on to mine,The denim skirt raised enough to reveal my rounded thighs,But I did not bother correcting it.

"So how are things with rebecca ?"I asked.
Rebecca was his stupid girlfriend,She did not deserve to have him,I did,He was mine not that bitch's.

"She is fine,I miss her though"he said

"So how serious are you guys?" i asked

"Not very much,We are just building up our relationship you know?" he said

I looked straight into his eye when I asked the next question.

"Have you guys had sex?"

"No!"he said shocked

"Have you ever had sex??"I asked

"Why are you asking me this?"he said his eyes open in shock and disbelief

"Just answer"I snapped

"No" he spat out.

"You know what?" i said

"What"he said

"Ive never had sex either" I said

While i said that,I slowly unzipped my jacket and laid it across,bent backwards with my arms on the bed,My skirt and my top raised a little to show him more of my thighs and my navel,He watched me intently as I did this.I was the trap,He was the fly,I was going to ensnare him and make him mine.

"Why are you telling this to me,What do you want?"he asked in a more out of breath tone.

I could tell that he saw as he saw my body in the soft light his body began to react to it,little sister or not,But it did not get through to his thick skull.

This is it I thought,I could win or loose,I had to do this right or I could never do this again.

I slowly got up and walked to him,I swung my hips as I walked,I bent forward to show my cleavage as i spoke to him,I could fell his breath against my cheek as I told him.

"I love you Jacky,always have always will,I want to make love to you right now!"

"What" he whispered

"Wait a seco..."

He never got to complete it as I moved forward and slowly kissed him,I could fell my body react,I could fell him react to it.

He pushed me away,"No " he said

"I wont do it"

"I wont fuck my baby sister"

Somehow I got turned on by those words.

He stood up as if to make his point,But once again I hurled myself agains him and began kissing him passionately,My tounge forced its way trough to his,Then I felt his hands moving up my back.

"No" i thought,"He is going to push me away again".

But his hands grasped my neck and he started returning my kisses with vigour.

I sensed my moment was nign and pulled him towars my bed,We both fell on the bed still entwined in our kiss,I could fell his right hand aginst the skin of my stomach as it caressed it while his left hand found its way to the hem of my skirt.

Then he stopped kissing,I opened my eyes with fear that he may stop this.

But he didnt,Both his hands now came up and stated to push up my top,I was thrilled as I raised my hands to help him remove my top,The top came of all rolled and messy but that was okay,As the top went off it revealed my breasts in their black front clasped bra.

He quiclkly removed his t-shirt revealing his rockhard abs and his strong shoulders,I moaned softly at the anticipation of the events that would occur next.

He was breathing in short gasps as he worked on my bra,He took of the clasps and removed them by running his hands over my breasts,My hip heaved at the sensations that travelled through my body,My hand reached up and started rubbing his chest,He moaned in a stifling way.

I felt the warmth of his hands as they ran through my breasts and stomach.He bent down and began kissing my breasts,and worked his was up and down.

"Ooooh"
"Oooooooohhh"
"OOOOOOOOHHHH"

I moaned as he did this.

"Your pants "i gasped

"Take them off"

This he did,He quickly removed his jeans,and his boxers.And I glimpsed at his penis for the first time,I must say that I wasnt disappointed,It was atleast 7 inches long,And I wanted it in me,I wanted to fell it as it throbbed inside me,As I enclosed it in my warmth,As it began to shoot ejaculate inside me!!!

My brother resumed kissing my on my lips,I felt his penis rub against my stomach,A spike of sensual energy passed through me.

I pulled him way from me and said.

"oooh baby,do me,DO ME NOW!"

"You want me to FUCK YOU?" he teased in between his gasps

"Yes fuck me now,do me,come inside me my dear brother,I want us to be one"i said as a poetic jibe

His hands reached the zipper of the skirt,He could have done me without the skirt off but I guess he wanted to see me as I had been made.

THe skirt was unzipped and I lifted my hips to help him take it off.

He gasped at the site of my thongs,I could see his penis,It was getting ready to enter me.

Yes I WAS GETTING LAID BY MY BROTHER,I HAD IMAGINED FOR YEARS AND NOW WHEN IT WAS FINALLY ABOUT TO HAPPEN,IT FELT EVEN BETTER!

His penis was moist with the pre-ejaculate at its it.

He pulled down my thongs,Only then did I really notice my wetness there,i was ready to recieve him,to make him mine.

He bent down and licked off some of my oozing fluids,As his tounge touched my clit a burst of fluid left it and went straight int omy brothers mouth.

He licked it and said

"Baby you taste like a piece of heaven"

I tried to say something but all i managed was "oooooooh OH OH"

My brother parted my legs and began to position himself,He outstreched his hands and crawled towards me,
Both of us were looking into each others eyes when he lowered his hips and entered.

I beacame breathless as a wave of pleasure and warmth overcame me,I gasped out loud,And sucked in a lung full of air as every nerve ending in my body screamed.

I could feel it,The throbbing,The warmth,The oneness!

My friends had told me that to really feel your guy condoms did not help.I didnt know than but I knew it now as I felt Jacky inside me.

He began to pump me,A first wave of sensual peak came and went then another and another.

He began to groan,slowly then loudly.

I began to move my hips in a circular way,As i had read in a magazine.

I began to moan louder and louder as I felt Jackys penis throb and move as I lubricated it inside me

"oh"
"OH UH UH UH"

"UH OOOHH AAA OOOHHH AAAA OOOOHHH AAAA HUH HUH HUH HUH HUH HUH HUH"

I kept going and going for waht seemed like hours,I began to tighten and loosen the muscle groups that held Jackys penis and hee too began to moan louder and move faster..

"HUH HUH HUH HUH OH OH OH OH OH OH OH OOOOH OOOOH OOOOH OOOOH HUUUH HUUUUH HUUUUH"

I fell it,The orgasm,My first orgasm,I cant explain it,I was aware of everything i was in contach with,My body and Jackys were one,I could almost feel what Jacky did!

But then I felt the very tip of Jackys penis throb harder,Then there was a burst of pleasure

"OOOOOOOOOH OOOOOOOOOH OOOOOOOOOOH OOOOOOOOOOH OOOOOOOOOH OOOOOOOH"

I felt something new,Something warm and wonderful coming out of his penis,Jackys orgasm

"OH MY GOD" he groaned

"IM COMING INTO MY SISTER"

But I wasnt listening,I was engrossed in my own nirvana as it peaked,Then the warmth slowly subsided ans it went into me

"OOOOH OOOOOH OOOOH OOOOH OOOOH OOOooh oooh"

He slowly exited from inside me,And flopped over to one side

I felt the sensual bliss that, Ive heard about so many times.

We dont know how long the both of us stayed quiet,Then i turned over to rest my breasts on his chest while one of my hands grabbed his penis.

Surprisingly it started to throb again and began to grow in size!

"Do you want a second helping?" I asked

"Yes please"

To be continued.............

living the greatest story I ever set my eyes on. There was nothing to kill the time. I smiled a lot Saturday. I mean I smiled a lot. I was so happy. I tried smiling to Ean but he always returned half-confused smiles and went on. I brought on a few short conversations with him but nothing about the day before. I was getting a little scared about us by nighttime. I nervously asked him if he wanted me to sleep in his room. He said I could if I wanted to. I wanted so badly to hear him say yes but at least he didn’t say no. I wasn’t about to say no to him. I fell asleep in his warm, firm arms.

Sunday at breakfast I had a terrible revelation. He had said that he would trust me in this relationship. Was he waiting for me to make a move? Did he want me to take control of him? I would never be able to give him orders to undress in front of me. I could never do what he did to me. I’m not saying he did anything wrong, he did everything right, but he was Ean, I was me.

What if he was just planning his next move? If I stepped up and asked for him to have sex with me, would he back away? Was he ready for sex? He had planned it for so long and just like that, pop, his girlfriend was dead and he was all alone. If I took charge and he still wanted control, would he talk me down back into my place? Was he waiting for me or planning his next move? I wanted to go back to school. I wanted to talk to Montana. She knew stories about Ean. She knew intimate details about his relationship with her sister.

Mom called. She was coming home on Wednesday. The trial was coming to a close soon. Mom said though her boss was talking about an upcoming Supreme Court case with her as he read through her notes. She thought this trial was just a test to see how she would fare; it was the first court case she ever had to cover and did think it was a bit out of the blue. If she did her job well enough, she might get a trip to Washington D.C. She seemed worried about me on the phone until I told her that Ean was doing better than ever. He was still reserved but he talked to me and smiled a lot more. I was helping him a lot. Luckily she was on the phone and couldn’t see the giant grin on my face when I said that.

Sunday night I wore the thinnest, silkiest panties I had. I asked Ean if he wanted me to sleep with him.

“If you want to?” he replied. I hated that. He knew I liked him. He knew I wanted everything with him. Hadn’t I proven that earlier? Why was he still treating me like I had doubts? Why was he giving me every option to back away from everything? I never would. Didn’t he know that?

I climbed under the covers with him after I turned his light off and hugged him extra tight. I didn’t let go either. I hugged him for as long as I could. I wanted to see what he would do. He did nothing. He just hugged me back until he fell asleep, then I did too.

Monday morning I took a shower before school. Ean was going to drive me. He had woken up before me and left the bed without me knowing.

I turned the shower water off and opened the glass door to get my towel. The bathroom door opened. I immediately gasped. It had to be Ean but I still had never had someone walk in on me in the shower. Sure enough, Ean walked into view. I pulled the towel over my body to cover up.

He pushed the toothpaste tube and a cup from the sink’s countertop, across from the shower, back to the wall and backed into it to sit down. He settled himself down and just stared at me.

I was naked behind my towel. Soaking wet, and I would have to move and touch myself in easily imaginable provocative ways to dry off. I could close the glass shower door and dry off behind the fogged, distorted barrier but I just couldn’t. Ean was staring at me. I was so embarrassed behind my towel. I was just a meek little girl. Why was he doing this to me?

He wouldn’t stop looking at me. I knew he would sit there all day. Closing the shower door on him would make me wish death on myself. I knew he would shun me for it. I would just feel more awkward behind the glass. I wouldn’t be able to look him in the eyes when I opened it again.

I slowly dropped the towel. My tiny breasts came into his sight. More and more until the tiniest patch of fuzz was revealed between my legs. I looked at him to see if he showed any emotion to my actions. As expected, he didn’t.

I tried my best to ignore his existence and dry myself off normally. It was the most embarrassing thing. I had to lift my arms to dry under them. They were great poses for my little breasts to humiliate themselves. Drying my back was the worst. I had to run the towel between my butt crack to dry that too.

I got to my first knee when for some strange reason, I started to smile. I was beyond embarrassed splaying myself out like that but I couldn’t help but smile. Ean was watching me. Why would he watch if he didn’t like it? He wasn’t talking to me. He wasn’t probing my mind. He didn’t just like me because we got along so well. No. He was watching my body. He wanted to see my body. How could I not smile to that? My brother was lusting after my body. Wow! What a way to start off the week.

I was so happy. I felt like a little girl getting a kiss from the hottest movie actor I could have ever dreamed just to see in the distance beyond a crowd of thousands of people. I felt hot. More confident than ever. The most perfect guy in the world wanted my body.

I threw the towel over the shower door and stepped out. I walked to the toilet seat lid where my clothes sat. Ean’s eyes followed. I picked up my tiny little pair of panties. They looked so small before I put them on. Fresh from my dresser after a fluff dry.

I leaned forward and lifted my leg to slip it through the little hole. Ean was watching me. I looked back at him. Not to his face that time. I knew his face showed no emotion. I looked to his pants. That place, I found to show a massive amount of emotion the other day. I found it again. What I never really noticed before was now impossible not to notice. He had the biggest bulge between his legs. I couldn’t stop smiling.

I finished dressing. I didn’t even bother getting a bowl of cereal. I knew I couldn’t eat it. I wasn’t hungry after an event like that. Ean followed me around as if he was lost. I had the biggest smile on my face and I couldn’t wait to get away from him. I couldn’t look at him. My face blushed deep deep red if I looked at him. I could feel the blood in excess there.

Somehow Ean’s emotionless face made it almost funny. He could be thinking anything. We could have just done the dirtiest thing in the world, and if he walked out in front of our grandparents, they wouldn’t have a clue. I felt so safe with him. Like I was allowed to show what I was feeling at the time and he would protect me from what the world might throw at me because of it. I was his little sister.

Finally it was time to leave. My body was shaking in excitement. I couldn’t wait until second period. I had to talk to Montana. I didn’t know what I would say; I couldn’t tell her the truth, but I had to tell her something. I couldn’t hold all this joy in. I was going to explode. I was so jittery on the drive to school.

Ean pulled up and stopped in the road before the high school. I opened the door and got out.

“Bye!” I said to him the happiest, most excited voice. I closed the door and quickly walked away. I thought about how I should have said, ‘I love you,’ to him as well but I thought the shriek in my voice showed him how happy I was.

First period flew by as I paid no attention to the class whatsoever. Second period came and as soon as Montana saw my face, she rushed over and asked me what happened.

“I have the most amazing brother in the world.” I replied and quietly as I could.

“What, did he buy you something really cool?”

“No, but I can see why your sister liked him so much.” I was shaking then. I didn’t know if it was from excitement or fear. Had I just said too much? Montana just stared at me in disbelief.

“Did you two have, you know?”

“No,” I whispered loudly. “Your sister never did either.”

“Did he touch you?”

“No, well yes, once only and that was an accident a while ago. But he, I, I just love him.”

The bell rang to start class. Montana stared at my over excited face with the most curious gaze. The teacher apparently noticed the tension between us on what could be a very long conversation.

“Girls, I trust it can wait until after class.” I shot my head over to a serious adult’s face. I tried my best to calm down for the few seconds she stared between us. She looked happy enough at our new attention to her and turned away.

“Lunch time,” Montana whispered to me. “You better be there early.”

Math seemed to drone on. With Montana sitting next to me, it was hard to reflect on Ean. She appeared deep in thought. She appeared to almost guess at least to the degree of what might have happened between me and my brother, if not the actual thing. She looked happy though. Even though I thought she knew that when I said I loved him that I meant a bit more than in a family way, she seemed to have accepted it. If she could accept it and maybe help me, she would be the most amazing friend. I didn’t think I could handle her shunning me for liking Ean. I really wanted a girl friend. I never had one before and having one now that would accept something like that would be beyond amazing.

The next thing I remembered was walking into the cafeteria. My mind was so far in on itself. Then I was walking from the cashier with my tray. I was broken from my zone to Montana waving me to her table. She was alone against the wall in a corner. She had already eaten her packed lunch.

“You can’t hog him to yourself you know,” she said as I sat down. “He’s in college and you’re just a freshman in high school.”

“What?” I played innocently.

“Hmm, let’s see,” she started sarcastically, “what could make a freshman girl glow like she just discovered her first orgasm. And then tell me that she loved a guy so much that she also just called the most amazing person ever.”

“Not so loud,” I whispered. She figured something out.

“My sister did go out with him for over a year you know. Just because they never had sex doesn’t mean she was never satisfied. She didn’t give me details but she told me some stories.”

“Do you think it’s weird,” I asked, “you know, that I like him so much?”

“If I had a brother like him, I would have raped him in his sleep by now if he wouldn’t let me do it to him while he was awake.” I felt my face rise dramatically in temperature as she said that.

“Really?”

“You’re too coy; I would definitely have had me a piece of him by now.”

My face had to be glowing in embarrassment. “How… How would you go about doing that?”

“Shoot, according to what you and my sister say, he’s a virgin. Why would I tell you how to break him in? Let me come sleep over this weekend and I’ll prepare him for you.”

I could see in the way she prided her face that she was mostly all talk. I knew she would cower at his feet if she ever actually met him. I was pretty sure she knew it too but I thought she would try anything to at least let him know she existed. I wasn’t letting her near him though. She was my friend. Ean was my lover, or he would be. They didn’t need to know each other; they both had me.

“How far have you gotten with him?” she asked carefully. “You said he touched you.”

“Accidentally. When he was sleeping, I was in bed with him. He thought I was your sister and kind of acted it out on me.” Oh sweet victory. The look on Montana’s face made me almost laugh in happy embarrassment. “He just cupped me down there and – and he kept moving. His thing was moving on my leg and then I let go. He woke up to me moaning.”

Montana’s hands were under the table and her arms were tense. Her face made me want to die in laughter. I had never made someone so jealous before. It felt so amazing that for once, I was the main attraction to a story that would make other girls ping in jealousy. I had to keep going. I couldn’t hold back. It felt so good. I felt soo special.

“On Friday, last week, a couple of days ago – don’t even ask me how I got naked, but I was on his bed completely naked. He was on his knees over me. He had his pants and boxers down on my legs. And he cummed all over my body. It was on my breasts, my ribs; some was seeping into my belly button. It was so warm. He hugged me so tight even though I was so dirty from him and he said he would always protect me no matter what I did. And we fell asleep together like that. Naked in his arms with his sperm all over my chest.”

“Stop it, please stop. You’re killing me.” Montana was in shock. “Don’t even tell me why you were so happy this morning. Seriously, I will give you all my allowances for this entire year if you just let me sleep over at your house once when he’s there.”

“Well, my mom is away so it’s just been me and him for the past week. And I get until Wednesday with him alone some more. After that, mom comes home. I don’t think I could do anything soon.” More like never.

“Could you do at least one thing for me than, and I’ll try to give you advise on stuff I learned about your brother from my sister.”

“What?”

“Call me tonight and tell me what happened that made you so happy this morning.”

I smiled and blushed deeply. “You can never ever tell anyone about this stuff.”

“I won’t, I promise.”

“Can I trust you more than your sister’s ability to keep secrets about my brother?”

Her face went flush. “We had a sister thing, we could trust each other, she never told anyone other than me. But I have a little sister in the seventh grade. I don’t want to lose her trust and I know she can be trusted. It’s a sister thing.” I looked nervously at her. “It’s like you and your brother, you trust each other. So do we.”

“Fine,” I gave in. I really wanted a friend to talk to about this stuff. “You don’t have any special bonds with your parents do you?”

“No, I would never ever tell them anything like that. Besides, if I told them, they would never let me over to your house.”

She was persistent.

The lunch bell rang and I hadn’t taken a single bite of my food. I hadn’t eaten breakfast either; I was actually hungry then.

School ended and I rode home with Ean. The call I was supposed to make that night turned out to be an hour after school. It was a nice gesture for Ean to pick me up from school but at home, he reverted back to his mind. I felt almost guilty that he drove me home, almost as if he felt he had to.

To kill that thought and the boredom of no homework, I called Montana. The sounds of a young girl yelling in the background faded as it sounded like she closed herself into her room. Retelling the story of what happened after my shower didn’t really sound all that interesting, but Montana assured me that were she in my position, she could fully understand why I would be so happy.

The conversation turned into me asking for advice on how to get my older brother to have sex with me. Montana reluctantly accepted that I wasn’t going to let her anywhere near Ean if she didn’t at least try to help me first.

“Try going to bed with him naked.”

“I’ve slept with him naked before.”

“Don’t were any panties then, just a nightgown.”

“He won’t know unless he touches me and he usually doesn’t. Also, that sounds kind of slutty.”

“I don’t know. Just push it in you when he’s asleep and hope he has another dream about my sister.”

“He said if I let him take advantage of me again while he was asleep, he wouldn’t forgive me.”

“Oh.” There she heard it. Just a piece of what was complicating everything. Even though Ean did all that stuff to me, there was so much more that took away the fairy tale aspect of it.

We ended the conversation after a few hours not really accomplishing much. But when I hung up the phone, I felt happy. I didn’t feel alone. I wasn’t lost in a filling thought like after I closed a good book, but after that almost meaningless conversing for hours on end, I still felt full.

Ean and I ate dinner together; he through some chicken and potatoes into the oven. Afterwards, we watched TV for the last few hours of the day.

When I came from the bathroom, I walked directly into Ean’s room. I wasn’t going to ask him if I could sleep with him that night; I was just going to do it. Ean was already getting into bed. The light was still on. I smiled. He was expecting me to come. I liked being expected.

I climbed into bed with him after flipping the light switch. We laid apart for a few minutes in the silence.

“Why haven’t you had sex with me?” I asked him.

“I didn’t know it was my job.”

“I’m not going to do it to you. If you want it, you can come and get it.” I hoped that didn’t sound too bad. I didn’t mean to sound so snobbish.

“You’re my sister. This can’t last forever. We can’t get married. It’s all pointless.”

I laid in silence. He was absolutely right and I knew it. I didn’t want to accept it though. After what we had done together, if we just stopped, I wouldn’t be able to go on living.

“So,” I said. “You never just do something without thinking. Just because you can’t see the end doesn’t mean it’s not worth starting. I think we should do it. It’s the only logical thing in my head right now. It’s been the only logical thing in my mind since before you came home. Since after your girlfriend died. I bet you had everything planned out with her. I bet that wasn’t in your plans. Why do you feel like you need to trust me? Right after everything you know to be true fails, why do you think your mind wants you to look somewhere else for an answer? You’re the smart one always listening to your brain. Why don’t you listen to it when it tells you that you failed, that you need some help? I want to help.”

“You’re fourteen.”

“So!” I raised my voice. “Are you appalled by my little body? My small breasts. My fourteen year old body. Or is it my fourteen year old mind. Am I just too stupid for you; even though I’m your sister? Even though our dad is the same person. You cummed on my naked body and said you trusted me. Now I’m just fourteen. You don’t make any sense!” I waited for a reply. Something. Anything. I just wanted him to say something. I didn’t mean to say all that. I didn’t know where it all came from. I never thought about that before. Why did I just say all that?

“I’m sorry Maeghan. I’m just confused.” I felt the bed shift as he rolled away from me. Those were the last words spoken that night. It felt like all the stuff we did before, him touching me, me stripping for him, him masturbating on me, me drying myself off in front of him, all of it, it was all just children’s games compared to what just happened. I wanted a deeper relationship with him but I didn’t think deeper meant this complicated.

I had it all planned out. I wanted to have sex with him. I would do anything to make that happen. But I never really planned anything out. What was Ean feeling? He was so confused. His last plan with Crystal ended with her dead. Now his new plan - I didn’t think he had a new plan. Maybe he couldn’t piece one together. He was alone. All he had was me, but he thought nothing could happen because we were related. The guy with all the answers had nothing left and I called him out on it. Why did I have to speak?