-Jesse,14 Chapter 1: ArrivalWe were going to my cousins' house for three weeks. Just me and my mom. Jon stayed behind at home because of work. So it was just going to be me, my mom, my cousins Trina and Rebecca, and my aunt and uncle. We had barely pulled into the driveway before everyone had come out to greet us. Aunt Tanya trailed mom inside while Uncle Mark got her bags and Rebecca and Trina showed me up to the game room. While the parents talked downstairs, I was checking the game room out while talking with my cousins.
"This is a big game room." I said looking around the room. There were many ps2 video games and dvds stacked up in the corner.
"Yeah, it's alright," Rebecca said, "anyway, where's Jon?"
"He had to work." I said to her.
Rebecca and Trina were really cool. They both loved video games and talking a lot. Rebecca was the oldest by a year; she was fourteen and Trina was thirteen.
I had not been in the house long before noticing something (throughout this confession I will notice many things). I had been toured around the whole house by Rebecca until I noticed I hadn't even heard Trina's voice yet. When Rebecca finally escorted me back upstairs she said she was going to take a quick shower because it was hot. She quickly ran into her room down the hall and jumped into the shower (there was a shower in her room). That left just me and Trina. The couch to the game room was very large extending from the east wall to the west. In front of the couch lie their huge flat screen television. In front of the t.v. they had their ps2 with some games scattered around it. The room was quiet. The light flowed through the window beside the t.v. so the light was off, the t.v. was off, and the ps2 was off. Which just left the two of us on either ends of the couch purposely straining from looking at each other. She might not have been too social, but I was. I wanted to learn as much as I could during these three weeks with my cousins. So I tried to break the silence; not with a direct question but one that would get her to talk to me. I got up and walked over to the ps2.
"What games do you guys have?" I asked not looking at her but spreading the games out upon the carpet observing them carefully.
There was a silence behind me. The only sound visible was the rustling of the games I was spreading. Amazed by the fact that my own cousin couldn't even answer that question I slowly cocked my head to the side to see what she was doing, and to my surprise she was gone completely. I stood up and looked from side to side puzzled. I looked behind the couch, down the hall, downstairs, and back in the game room and concluded she went to her room; I didn't check though. This was a challenge from the get go, I already knew. But by the time I left my cousins' house I knew I would make Trina closer to me than I already was with Rebecca.
I was in a bad mood now. Knowing that Trina didn't really want to get to know me and was probably bored by me was a bad start. Although, it wasn't like she didn't know me. I had been to the house many times before. ((Don't think this is the first time I've been over to meet my cousin's, although this was a new home.)) I couldn't remember too much, but I was pretty sure Trina and I had always gotten along before but now I didn't know what was happening. As the talking downstairs deceased and the lights turned off I knew the parents were going to their rooms. This put me in an even cruddier mood. It was only ten o' clock at night and they were going to sleep?! There was no school or work for anyone and they were going to sleep?! Maybe I was the only all nighter person in the home. Not feeling an ounce of tiredness and fully charged for some video games, I turned on the t.v. and ps2 and put in some fighting game (I think it was Tekken). I was playing for about five minutes when I heard a door behind me open up. It was Rebecca. I turned and muted the t.v.
"Sorry, did I wake you?" I whispered.
"I wasn't even asleep. I just got out the shower." she said. "We're gonna stay up late now since there's no school." she says smiling. "Now where is Trina?"
"I think she's in her room."
"She should be out here with us." she said marching, with a balled fist, towards Trina's room.
"At least I know where her room is now." I said to myself.
Rebecca spent no time knocking. She bursted right into Trina's room and started with soundless inaudible talking. There was a brief silence until I finally saw Rebecca's head poke out from inside the room. "Come here." she whispered over to me.
I complied not knowing why or what to expect. I crept down the hall to where Rebecca was at and looked inside the room. I saw Trina sleeping soundly under her covers. Rebecca came from behind and put her hands on my shoulders. I let out a souft yawn just at that moment.
"We're all pretty tired, and you had a long drive. Why don't we get some sleep and play tomorrow?" Rebecca said leaning on me.
I was blushing. This is when I first noticed the forbidden feelings. Every guy with a sister or cousin or close female relative probably knows that even if a girl is related to you in any type of way, when she's cute, the hormones flow. Rebecca was leaning on me from behind rubbing my stomach with her hands and touching her cheek to mine. She was a beautiful girl, especially in her pajamas, which were just a white tee and some shorts. Also at that moment I felt her nipples on my back and hadn't tried to notice in the game room but remebered that she hadn't been wearing a bra when she came out of her room. I could see her breasts right through it but hadn't bothered to observe them. Now that my mind was stained with the sexual desire to do naughty things, I was ready to learn.
I tried to shake myself out of the noticing hypnosis and answered Rebecca, "Yeah you're right, I'll just..." as I spoke I was turning around heading for the game room couch when Rebecca stepped in front of me.
"Where are you going?" she asked.
"To the couch."
"You're sleeping in here with Trina."
I heard Trina moved over under her covers.
"What?" I whispered. "I can sleep on the couch, it's okay."
"No! That couch is very comfortable sitting on it, but laying down; you'll wake up with a broken back. And we can't have that can we?" she whispered.
She pushed me backward making me fall on the bed.
"Go to sleep." she laughed and left the room.
"Bossy." I whispered.
She was becoming more wanted by my body and I couldn't help getting the erection I got. I couldn't understand where these feelings for my cousin came from except that she was a girl and I was a guy. I believe that if guys could fuck their sisters without getting caught or if it was just plain okay to do, incest would rule the world. But at this moment I was just tired. I hopped off the bed and went around so as not to disturb Trina. She was positioned on the left side of the bed facing the wall and I lay on the right side facing to opposite wall. My erection died down but I couldn't stop thinking about Rebecca's warm cheek on my face. It was crazy. We hadn't done almost anything the whole first day I was at the house but I already couldn't stop thinking about her. I didn't know if I was going to be able to last through three weeks.
I didn't like laying on my left side so I twisted my body around and was now facing the back of Trina's head. Trina and Rebecca looked a lot alike. Rebecca being older was a bit taller but that was a small difference. Trina's hair was cut down to her shoulders, lower than Rebecca's which flowed down her back a small bit. They both had light brown beautiful skin like no other girl's skin. Their' hair was dark black and Trina had light brown tip highlights. I liked her hair. I could smell her it at the moment. It smelled like good strawberry shampoo. Something I really liked in girls was their hair smell. This smell was very unique. So much that it attracted me to it and to keep sniffing it. I was gently moving closer and closer to my cousin under the covers when I felt something wet. It was the sheets. They were wet. I lifted the unfortunate hand to my face and smelled it.
"Thank goodness; not pee." I whispered to myself. "But what is it?"
I quickly forgot about the wetness and wiped it off on the covers and just leaned my head towards my cousin's hair; instead of moving my whole body. I was on my elbow when I lost my balance. I became wobbly and would have fallen right on my cousin if I hadn't put my hand on her hip. That's when I noticed something strange. My cousin had been wearing her a white tee and shorts just like her sister ever since I noticed her coming outside to greet us. Although she had stayed behind everyone else and didn't talk to anyone, even when my mom hugged and kissed her on the forehead. She just smiled, gently hugged her back, and followed Rebecca who led me to the game room. But now I felt bare skin. Bare leg. I gently led my hand up and down the so-thought pantless leg and confirmed it. When I went down I felt to her knee and when I went up I went to her shirt. Just then I couldn't do anything. My hand was frozen back at the spot where it first was and I was looking down at my cousin who was now looking up at me with huge eyes and a somewhat reddening face.
"I...uh....I..." I couldn't make a sentence. What could I say? 'I was feeling you out because I felt you had a lack of clothes on?' No. That would be stupid. So I said the only thing I could think of in this predicament. "I'm sorry." I whispered. "Do you always sleep like this?"
She stared up at me, who was still hovering above her looking down at her with my hand still on her leg. She pulled the cover up past her nose, just showing her eyes. Like thunder my hand shot back and I jumped back to my own side of the bed.
"I'm sorry. I won't tell anyone. I should go to the couch." I said getting up not knowing what else to do.
"No. It's okay." she quietly and shyly said. "I won't tell anyone either. You can sleep in here."
I slid back under the covers and we lay there staring at each other for the longest time.
"Why... why aren't you wearing anything?" I asked. (although I said this, in reality she was wearing a shirt, but she got what I was saying)
"I was..." she didn't finish the sentence but I knew what she was going to say. She had been masturbating. I laughed at this on the inside. She may have been thirteen but she was so young.
"I get it." I said comfortingly. "It's totally natural. So did Rebecca come in here and catch you?"
"No. I don't think she noticed it. I acted asleep."
"I wonder why she wanted me to sleep in here."
"I don't know."
"Were you really even tired?"
"No I stay up pretty late."
"Why haven't you talked to me at all today?"
"I was embarrassed. Even though you are my cousin, if I haven't seen someone I know for a while, I am usually shy."
"Well this experienced loosened you up." I said, not tending for it to be a joke in two ways.
We continued to stare at each other until I broke the silence.
"Are you tired?"
"Not really." she said. "Can...can you give me my panties?"
This definitely surprised me. "Where are they?"
"Over there by the bed." she pointed to my side of the bed.
I looked over the bed and saw christmas white panties stuffed under the bed. I picked them up and, before leaning back up to the bed, smelled them. They smelled good. I got back in the bed and gave her the panties.
"Thanks." she said rustling under the covers, putting them on.
I was definitely surprised that this situation didn't put her in crisis. Any other girl would have tried to avoid me at all possible moments if I had caught her masturbating,(which wouldn't be likely) but Trina seemed to be perfectly okay with it. As long as I didn't make her feel nasty I think we could be really cool.
There was another silence when Trina finally put her panties on. I don't know why, but I was too curious about this situation to stop with the questions. How many times in a fourteen year old boy's life does he get to catch any girl masturbating? I watched my fair share of porn but this was real. I had a chance and I could feel it. If she was cool with being caught, she might have already been somewhat aroused. At least that's what I thought. At the moment I was totally prepared, if given the chance, to fuck my cousin Trina. My erection came back as I continued the conversation.
"Why did you decide to do it now?"
"What do you mean?" she asked.
"You know... touch yourself. Why now?"
I could see she was getting embarrassed and confused. I was thinking I pushed the boundary. Maybe girls weren't like guys. If a guy was caught by his sister masturbating and she asked him questions to get him horny again he would be ecstatic. Maybe Trina knew that I was aroused. But when she answered I started to think that she thought I was just curious.
"I don't know." she finally answered. "I just felt like it."
The conversation went cold for another time, until she broke the silence.
"When do you usually do it?"
I loved it! We were going into a conversation about sex and masturbation. Any kid in puberty with hormones running knew how this would end; or at least wanted it to end.
"I..." I studdered. Now the spotlight was on me. She had turned the conversation around, but if my cousin was curious, I was glad to teach her. "I usually do it when no one is in the house, or in the restroom."
"Can you... cum yet?" she asked blushing.
I laughed a little. "Yeah I can." I answered knowing it was my turn. "Can you?" I asked.
She stared at me and then answered, "I don't know."
"What do you mean?"
"Well when I do it I can never get myself to cum. I can get wet, but I don't know if that's cumming for a girl." she said looking at the ceiling. Then she said something every guy reading this wishes his sister would ask him. "Would you ever help me?"
"What do you mean?" I asked, eyes widening.
"Like, if I would ever ask you to... touch me, would you? Just to help me... cum."
"Of course I would!" I said leaning up in the bed.
Doing this I made the covers pull up and expose my cousin touching herself while we spoke. She quickly tried to grab the covers and cover herself but it was out. This desroyed her confidence and she went back to her eyes-only-showing-over-the-cover position. This time I could tell that she really pulled up her panties. She became very red. That is until she saw me. I had been masturbating the...whole...time. My penis had been facing her so there was no indication that I had been hard but now it was in the open. It was still light in the room from the outside window from the street lights so that most things in the room were visible. I had forgotten that I was gently rubbing my penis through the conversation and when I threw back the covers was exposed. I now grabbed the covers and covered my own shame. The silence now was longer than the first ones.
"It's okay." she said turning over and facing the wall. "I won't tell."
I fell asleep then. I awoke with Trina's head on my chest...
End of ArrivalChapter 2: Observations