I Have A Dream
by willingwhiteslut@yahoo.com

 This is my first story, so I hope it will be okay.  It is actually more of my private fantasy than a story.  None of

this has really happened yet, but the dream becomes more and more powerful everyday and I am sure I will make some of it

happen soon... one way or the other.

 My name is Leta.  I wish I could tell all of my name and exactly where I lived.  I have a family though, so I can't

be too stupid here on the Internet.  I will say I am living in Canada.  I will say that I am definitely a white girl.  I have

very fair skin,  My hair is dark.  I am now thirty seven years old and I will be married for seventeen years this October.  I

am a mother.  My children are a girl [Amanda] who is sixteen and a boy [Chris] who is fourteen.  I have always wished to have

a really big family.

 My husband is michael.  I will leave his name uncapitalized by intention.  he is a sweet and dear man and a great

provider for the family.  he is not what I want in bed at all.  his penis is not big.  he is not a dominating lover.  Half

the time, I don't even know if he wants to fuck me at all.  Maybe he is gay... or he should be anyhow.

 I guess I might sound like a bitch in this story.  I do love my husband and my kids.  Ideally, whatever might happen

will be for the best for everyone.  I don't want a divorce.  I just want some big, Black cock to totally conquer me in the

most Dominating ways imaginable.

 I have a million fantasies about it.  I dream about it all the time.  I watch any movie I can get where a Black stud

is pounding some lucky little white slut.  I always wish it was me.  There are very few Black men around where I live.  If

there were more, I am sure I would give in to my desires.  I would love something special though.

 Any fucking from a Black man would be welcomed by me right now... the way I feel.  I admit though, I would dream the

best of the ultimate situation.  Having the best Black stud totally take over all of my life... make this a forever thing...

no escape for me at all.

 I love the word Nigger.  I hope that won't offend too many people who are reading this confession of mine.  It is

such a sexy word.  My family is racist.  Maybe I am too... but if it helps some hung Nigger stud get his perfectly willing

dream slut, is it so bad?  I wouldn't get so crazy for just a white guy... I want my lover Black as Black can be.  Dark...

African featured.  Thick Lips... thicker cock.  I want Him to be willing to do anything to have me as His slave too.

 Rape fantasy turns me on [and stuff fantasy too] even though I know I would have to just freely 'allow' my Nigger

stud to do anything he wanted to me even without the use of violence if I was really with Him anyhow.  Still... if He liked

to slap me around, I would love to be able to 'fight' enough to make it feel real.  Ultimately, I would moan like a perfectly

contest whore while I was fucked though.

 I think if my husband had to watch some [before he was killed maybe?] it would be so hot.  I really do get wet to

imagine that.  I can dream of a night when I am in bed with poor michael.  One, or two, or even more Nigger studs just enter

our bedroom.  They have no problems with michael.  They want to impress me though.  They don't have to beat michael like They

do... but they can see that the pure violence is exciting me, and They beat him like a bitch for me.

 The phone is right beside the bed... but I just hold the sheet over my half-naked body while these Nigger studs

foreplay with my poor husband.  Then michael is thrown into the corner and told to be fucking quiet.  No one wants any

problems from him now.  I can imagine Niggers from anywhere between the ages of seventy and seven for who might be in my room

to fuck me.  If They are black and have big cocks, it is all I need.  I also need no condoms used.

 I said I always wanted a large family.  It might be shocking, but now I want all the kids I will have to be as dark

as I want my lovers to be too.  Getting pregnant with a half-Nigger child would be so perfect.  If I ever get a chance, I

will go on fertility drugs for a Black Master if I could become pregnant by Him.  It would probably real life ruin me... but

I am sure I would be too horny to resist.  I dream of being made pregnant by a Black cock.

 michael would have to watch.  I would protest just a little at first... give michael some hope.  If I was being

slapped though, it would be quick that I would 'agree' to do 'anything' for my Nigger rapists.  I'd want to be as passionate

for the Boys as I could possible be.  I'd want kissing... touching... moaning.  I'd suck cock... but only to get it ready for

my pussy.  All of that potent baby seed would need to go where it would do the most good.

 My dreams are always like this.  They can go on and on.  Anything can happen.  The dirtier and more crazy extreme,

the better.  I would love to be filmed while fucked.  The guys would keep the pictures.  It would be perfect for blackmail. 

As bad as getting Black pregnant would be, I think my husband and I would be able to be forced to do anything to stop his

family from getting a copy of this hot party.

 I think I would actually suggest to the guys to fuck duane too... if they didn't do it on their own.  I wonder how

michael would handle a real cock?  It makes me smile to imagine it.

 I can imagine anything.  I know this situation could go any direction.  Getting raped in my own home would likely

involve my kids.  The idea scares me, but it would still be hot too.  I don't know if they would just watch me with the

Niggers or if I would have to watch them with the Niggers?  Maybe we would all have to be with the Niggers together? 

Anything could happen I guess.  If it was a true rape, I wouldn't have a say. 

 I don't only dream of rape.  I do want to be willing too.  I want to be videotaped in the most compromised

situations.  Sometimes the video would be perfect for blackmailing me... but sometimes the guy would send it to all my family

no matter what I do to stop him.  If I don't know what would happen... and I make the video anyhow... I really would be the

stupidest cunt ever.  I'd deserve anything that would happen.

 I don't care.  I want it now.  I need it now.

 I guess I am wondering if anyone will want to talk to me about this.  Maybe someone can help me with this... talk me

out of it, or make me finally give in to the dream? 

 My name is Leta.  I will be online at yahoo as willingwhiteslut@yahoo.com  Either my husband or my kids are

almost always around... but I think it could be possible to still get a little crazy for the right guy.  I'd like to find

out.

 Thanks for reading.
 Love Leta