Gay and married I knew I had homosexual desires in my early teens but I was brainwashed by social preferences and scared to submit to them even though I had a few guys try to seduce me. I wanted to be, and made all attempts to appear macho to the public and I tried to and succeeded in being popular with several girls and wound up married to one that I thought was a prized perfect sex partner and I felt macho thinking guys admired me for having the girl that several seemed to lust after. I wasn’t even jealous when guys came on to her especially cute ones that I liked having around. And as our sex became routine and burned out I would visualize how the guys I admired would look while doing sex and so when these two guys that were constantly in our midst and one especially that kept on bragging about how sexy she looked to him helped brain wash me into wondering how she would enjoy sex with this hot stud. I actually visualized his body in motion during our sex to satisfy my discreet gay lusts. Now the one that seemed to only be a trusting friend actually never acted like he desired to sex her but only teased her to make her feel like a lady and actually occasional flirted with me and finally one night while riding behind him on his motorcycle and feeling the heat of his buns against my groins. I let my hands that were around his waist drop down on his groins pretending it was accidental and found his hard on that got the whole new sex ball rolling. He quickly pulled the bike off the road into a side road and leaned back into me and run his hand back to fondle me. We got the bike on its stand and we were greedily kissing and fondling and breathing hard and on this first sexual experience we only masturbated each other to a climax. He admitted that he had wanted me for a long time and I told him how lonely I had been for a guy. He also told me that the other boy had played around with him but never kissed him and that he had did all the sucking unto him and letting him fuck his bung hole. And that his buddy constantly had told him he only wanted women. Well that was all changed now because we became lovers ever time we could sneak around behind my wife and his friend’s back on the rare chances we got. He also told me that my wife was leading his friend on and that he was boasting as how he was just waiting his chance. I told him that I didn’t care as long as I had him. I even told him that actually I would really enjoy sharing her with him just to be near and with him. So on a camp out the next story unfolds. We drank beer and cruised around in our small cabin cruiser one evening during the twilight hours. We swam some on a beach and during our scuffling and wrestling games I made an effort for him and my wife to touch and she allowed it knowing I was also fondling his body. The other macho friend also got involved and I was shocked to touch his very massive erection that was way much bigger than mine or my lovers. Back on the boat it was like plain to see that she was going to take him and would allow me freedom with my intimate new lover. They went into the cabin leavening us on deck to start greedily kissing and fondling each other. He said as how that you know your wife is going to fuck with him and I said who cares. The door was slightly ajar and I seen from quick glances that they had their bathing suits off and my eyes was more turned on by his lean torso and taut buttocks than they were by her nudeness. They were instantly together and he was hunching into her as we watched and loved on each other. She was moaning wildly and my mate said you know his big dick is tearing her up. I agreed and that she had never moaned that way with me. I asked him if he was jealous knowing this same dick that had prodded him out was now in a pussy. He commented that he was glad because he had been hurt by him several times. And that he had never felt love from him like I made him feel. We finally finished but they went on fucking for a long while. Finally they got quiet and the boat quit rocking. I was sipping beer and somewhat sleepy and was laying face up on my back as he came out of the cabin leaving her sleeping. He came out with his dick still hard and came upon me by raising my legs up and without any resistance I vulnerably encumbered to him and was gouged into by this huge organ that had already just fucked my wife into several climaxes. My lover asked him why he was fucking me after he had gotten the pussy he had wanted for so long and he said she’s asleep and I always wanted to fuck this new ass that it had been on his mind a long time. I agreed that my lover was right about him not showing any compassion and it hurt somewhat when he probed me too deep so forceful. After his final sexual passion had subsided they went to sleep on deck and I went in to the cabin and lay beside my wife and just looked at her wondering if she would still want me as I still knew I wanted her. She roused up enough to enfold me in a hug of compassion and we lay together till dawn and whispered confessional words of and about our sex conduct and how that we still felt intimate and devotion for each other and decided to remain companions and use sexual lust adventures with others as only a relief of lust and passion that we both admitted we had often desired before this eventful happening. At a later time I persuaded my lover to fuck my wife and it was his first time with a woman. I was lying beside them as he was doing foreplay which I was enjoying more than they were. As he got astride her I was licking his anus crevice and balls as he pushed into her wet pussy. I got up beside his ear and whispered that he should work it slow and prolong his climax. He ghastly whispered that it was too late. The foreplay on his anus and balls had him at the point of climax and when it gouged into the warm hot hole he had exploded. She told me he lacked in the passion of desire a woman craves. I knew I also failed her in raw lust for a woman. But he confessed later that he preferred me over women. So we let his buddy and my wife do their thing and we did ours on each get together. Off course these two guys burned out and got old to us and they drifted astray and sought new avenues. Now me and the wife are still devoted and have our intimate sessions. But now we are like two old buddies planning new games of sex encounters. We prolong our arousals by sharing with each other about our sexual conduct stories. Also conduct stories which now include swinging couples. We tire with others often but we still have each other and we still plan together for new lust avenues. But we decided to not lead on anyone that might not know how to handle swinging and could get heart broke by us. Life is not dull between us anymore.