Becoming Danielle

[Paradiizee]

By: Marci

"Mom! I called out as I got home from baseball practice, "I'm home!"
"Hello Danny, we have to talk," she responded, while exiting my room.
When I saw what was in her hands, I became nervous. Some of the guys I pal around with talked me into shoplifting a few things from a department store.
"Please explain where these items came from."
I should have told her I was sorry, and that it was just the one time,
But instead I said, "Tommy made me do it. He said it was a dare. I didn't want him to think I was a sissy."
The next thing I knew, I was in big, big trouble with Mom. I got into trouble before but never anything this bad.
"You are grounded young man!" she remarked. You will come home immediately after school. You had better be here when I get home."

"But I've got baseball practice after school," I pleaded. I loved playing ball with the guys and I was a pretty good fielder and I batted over 300 last season.
"You should have thought of that before becoming a criminal. I've already called your coach and told him you were grounded for the next two weeks. After I explained why, he said you would not be allowed to play this year, as an example to the other players. So, you no longer have baseball practice, and are to come home immediately after school."
I haven't held a bat or seen any of my friends since my punishment began a few weeks ago. This was some spring training. At first I thought that was the worst punishment imaginable but boy was I wrong. One day during my second week of punishment, I was a little late coming home from school and unexpectedly found mom waiting on the porch. I would usually get home about a half an hour before she did, so I had stopped by the ball field to watch a little of the practice I was missing so much. She was pissed even more. "I thought you might have learned your lesson when I had given you the ultimate punishment by taking away your baseball, yet here you are disobeying me. I guess I'll have to try something a little more unique," she said. At that, she dragged me upstairs, told me to shower and come into her room wearing my robe.
When I entered her room I saw she was looking in her drawers for something. She turned holding a pair of pink panties in her hand. "Here, put these on. I'll teach you to disobey me. You want to see who's the boss, you or me? Well now you'll know for sure that I wear the pants in this family."
Even though I begged Mom not to do that to me, she wouldn't change her mind. In a matter of minutes she had me wearing one of her old dresses too. Once I was all dressed as a girl, mom said, "You worried about your friends thinking you were a sissy, so you chose to steal. Now you won't have to worry about that anymore since you will be in dresses for the foreseeable future just like a sissy. When you come home from school, you'll find girl clothes waiting, and you will get dressed in those clothes as soon as you get home. Disobey me again and your friends will find out just what sissy you are," she informed me. "I want you all dressed when I get home or else! I'll get you a few things that fit you better tomorrow."
I asked why she was doing this to me and she said that was my punishment so I would not end up being a criminal and find myself in jail for stealing. Mom would not tell me how long she planned to keep me in girl's attire. I hated wearing those stupid clothes, especially the panties, but I didn't have any choice. Mom said she should send me to school in a dress if I argued with her, but I didn't think she could get away with sending me to school dressed like that. At least I hoped she couldn't, but I now knew better than to tempt her.
Sure enough, the next day when I got home, I found the dress on my bed along with another pair of panties. Worst yet, that day when she got home she had a few shopping bags that I knew contained things for me to wear. She had me follow her to my room and she sat on my bed.
"Here are the things I promised to buy you, Danny."
She dumped the bags out on the bed and started handing me the various items. I was surprised and worried that mom bought me so many different things, including some girl's shoes. "Put the socks and hosiery in the top drawer and the panties and bras in the second drawer of your dresser," she ordered as she handed me each item.
Then she had me get some hangers from her closet. Returning with the hangers, she showed me how to properly hang the dresses and petticoats. Then I had to hang them in my closet. She also had me neatly stack my shoeboxes in my closet.
Finally as I took each dress to hang them up, mom explained how important it was to hang them properly, what slips or petticoats I should wear underneath them, and which shoes matched the dresses. "I hope you paid attention to what I just told you young lady!"
"Young lady?" I thought. Having that many outfits meant I was in for a long punishment.
"I expect you to pick out an appropriate outfit when you get home, and to be fully and properly dressed by the time I get home, unless I get home a little early. Do you understand?" She asked.
I was in tears, but managed to answer, "Yes Mom!" So every day after I got home from school, I had to put on one of the dumb dresses she bought me, along with the appropriate underwear and shoes.
Before I continue telling you my story I should tell you a little more about myself. As you now know, my name is Danny. I'm 18 years old and just finishing highschool . I am a fairly normal teenager who likes music, sports and just hanging out with my friends. I have a younger brother Mike who's eleven and a real pain in the butt. He always wanted to be just like his older brother. At least he did before mom started putting me in dresses and calling me Danielle. Now he no longer wishes to emulate his big brother. He just enjoys tormenting and teasing me incessantly, but mom warned me that I better not hit him or do anything. If I did I would find myself in dresses forever. My mom works part time in my school. She's like a secretary or an administrator or something. I always hated having her there since she could keep tabs on me all the time. My mom and dad have been divorced for almost as long as I could remember. Mom is always telling us that dad was a macho jerk and that's why she divorced him. Mike and I only get to see dad for a week each summer since he lives cross-country. Mike and I always enjoy spending time with him. We go camping, hiking, fishing, all cool stuff
Anyway, back to my current problem.
Since mom started making me come home right after school and change into girls clothing, I've become more of a recluse. Quitting my baseball team really killed me and my friends wondered what was going on, but I can't tell them the truth. I'd rather die. I'm scared to death that if any of my friends found out I was wearing dresses and stuff, the news would be all over school the next day! So I just told them I had been grounded. I'm even dreading summer vacation, which will start in a few days, since I think mom plans to keep me in dresses all summer. But even worse than wearing dresses is putting up with my stupid brother, Mike. I used to pick on him all the time; now he gets to make fun of me every damn day. Last week I found out mom even took some pictures of me getting dressed up as a girl. Mom told me she'd show them to all my friends if I didn't do exactly what she said. Mom said I better behave as a good little girl or else. Girls listen to their mother and don't fight with their younger brothers she told me. Imagine referring to me as a girl. I even hate the sound of that word. Mom also was starting to convince Mike that I liked wearing dresses. She was always saying little things like that and he actually is starting to believe her. I wanted to scream out that she was lying but I knew I would be in big trouble if I did that. Those pictures would be the ruin of me if they ever got out. I realized then that there was no way I could win.
My birthday is also coming up this week. Mom always made our birthdays a special event. We'd sometimes go to a movie or a play and then go to a nice place to eat. One year she even took me to Yankee stadium to see the Yankees play. Mom would always get dressed up for our dinner and Mike and I always wore nice clothes too. We didn't wear suits or anything but nice pants and dress shirts. I hated wearing suits but I would gladly wear a suit now instead of girl's clothes. I knew mom didn't have any fancy girls dresses for me to wear so I was pretty sure she'd let me wear one of nice pants and shirt.
The Friday before my birthday mom told Mike and me to meet her by the office right after school since she was going to drive us right home. Mike had a baseball game she cleaned his uniform yesterday and it was in his closet. She also told me she laid my clothes out on the bed at lunchtime since she had plans for me this afternoon as well. She told us to hurry since Mike's practice was early.
Sure enough when we entered the room we were now sharing (my room was being painted), Mike's uniform was in his closet and my bed had a mini-skirt, a light summer top, panties, bra, pantyhose and shoes. Mom walked up behind us and told us to hurry. Most times mom only had me wear girl's panties and a dress so this was unusual for her to have selected all of this stuff. But whenever I had to wear bras and pantyhose, I usually changed into these girlie things when Mike was in the bathroom or somewhere else. I hated for him to see me putting on these frilly girl things. He would invariably tease me whenever I had to change in front of him and I hated that. But this particular day mom quickly ran into the bathroom we shared to clean it up a little so I had no choice but to change in our room with Mike. Mike was smiling at me when he saw me step into the panties Mom selected for me to wear. I wanted to die as I pulled the pretty pink panties with little flowers on them up to my waist. I couldn't wait to hide my panties from his view so I quickly stepped into my denim mini-skirt as Mike pulled up his baseball pants. When Mike put on his undershirt, I had to endure his stares as I hooked on my bra and slipped on my top. Mike then pulled on his white baseball socks and tied his cleats. Since his socks were a lot easier to put on then my pantyhose, he got to enjoy seeing me slip them up my legs. I was so embarrassed as I sat on the edge of the bed and rolled up the pantyhose just like mom showed me. I slipped them on one foot and then the other. Since I still was not used to wearing pantyhose, I struggled as I pulled them up over my knees. Once I got them that high I realized I couldn't get them any higher unless I lifted up my tight fitting skirt. I had no choice but to lift my skirt up to be able to get the pantyhose all the way to my waist. So in spite of my embarrassment I lifted my skirt, pulled up my pantyhose and then did a little wiggle to get them snug. I knew Mike would get another good view of my pretty pink panties but I had no other choice. Mike's giggle left no doubt that he enjoyed my struggles and that he did indeed get to see my panties one more time.
As soon as I had my shoes on, Mom grabbed me and led me towards her room. As we were leaving the room she said in a voice loud enough for Mike to hear that she would do my hair and makeup like I wanted. "I know you said you want to look like the other girls in your class." She was always saying things like that to reinforce the idea that I really wanted to dress and act like a girl. Once in her room, she sat me down at her vanity and combed my hair into a feminine looking style, adding a few barrettes to hold it in place. She then took some makeup stuff and put in on my face. She said it was just some thing to give me a little color. I think she said it was blush. She then applied some light lipstick on my lips and mascara on my eyes. Mom never made me wear any makeup so I wasn't sure why she did it today. I asked her what she was doing but she told me to hush.
"I told you that we have plans this afternoon."
As Mike grabbed his baseball glove, mom handed me a purse and said let's go. Oh my God, she's not really going to make me go out is she? I mean she never made me go outside dressed like this before but she sure was now. A minute later I found myself sitting in the back seat crouching as low as possible. Mike and mom were in the front seat. I used to always get the front seat but now that I was dressing like a girl, Mike just took my place and I was too embarrassed to say something to him.
During the drive over to the field, mom asked Mike if he liked my makeup. Mike just looked at me a little strangely. "Danielle insisted on wearing makeup if she was going outside. She said all the other girls at school wear it and she wants to be just like them, right sweetie?"
As I cringed at her comments, Mike just laughed at her little lie (which he thought was true) and said I looked really cute in a real condescending way.
Once we reached the ball field, Mike jumped out of the car. Mom said we would be back before the game ended. Mike kissed mom and he waved to me as he yelled, "Bye, Danielle. Don't let any boys smudge your lipstick." I wanted to kill him for calling me that name and saying that about me. Imagine me letting a boy kiss me. Mom just laughed as she told me to sit up front with her. I almost died getting out of the car for fear that one of Mike's team mates might recognize me.
As soon as I realized that mom was not heading back towards home, I asked her where we were going. She then told me we had to go to the mall to get a nice new dress for my birthday dinner. I don't have time to buy something without you being able to try it on to make sure it fit you properly. I was practically in tears as I begged mom not to take me to the mall since a lot of the kids hung out in there after school, but she didn't care. I told mom I didn't need a new dress for dinner.
"I can assure you honey that you will be wearing a nice new pretty dress on Saturday when we celebrate."
I pleaded with her not to do this to me but she just told me this is how bad boys get treated and it was all for my own good. "I've done a lot of research on this type of petticoat treatment and I can promise you it, it works. You were the one shoplifting and being a brat so this is the price you pay. I'd much rather have a sweet daughter than a rotten son, so you just better get used to acting like my precious little girl. If you do good it will remain our family secret but if not, all your friends will know." I cried and sobbed but to no avail. In a few minutes the car was parked and we were walking towards the mall.
I wasn't sure if mom was kidding or serious about making me dress completely as a girl for dinner on Saturday, but since I now found myself entering the mall while wearing a mini-skirt, I kind of thought she probably wasn't kidding.
As we entered the mall entrance, I quickly forgot about our dinner and began to worry about running into some of my friends. As we walked mom was all excited about finding me the perfect dress. I wanted to die right there but before I could Mom pulled me into the first of many girl's clothing stores. I was in constant fear that I would run into one of the girls from school as mom and I went from rack to rack. I wasn't too worried about running into any of the guys since they would never be caught alive in a girl's store. After selecting four or five dresses, mom informed me it was time to try them on. I almost fainted as she led me towards the ladies dressing room. The room was one large area with some benches and a few private stalls at the one end. Those private rooms were all taken so Mom put the dresses and her purse on the bench and told me to take off my skirt and top. Much to my relief there were no teenage girls in the room, at least I didn't see any in the open area. There were only some women and a few younger girls, maybe eight or nine years old. I breathed a sigh of relief until I realized that I would now be standing in this room in my underwear trying on dresses. Somehow I managed to get through that trial but as soon as we left the dressing room, I told mom I had to go to the bathroom. My nerves were shot and I guess that made me need to pee really bad. Mom informed me that the ladies room was right around the corner, so we could go there now. Even though I was wearing girl's clothing, I never thought about the fact that she would take me into the ladies room.
"As this is your first time going in a ladies room you must sit down when you pee or you draw unwanted attention to yourself. Remember, girls don't stand and we use toilet tissue to wipe ourselves when we are finished. And when you're done, wash your hands." I still remember how embarrassed I was sitting down to pee like a silly girl. As I sat there I could see my panties and pantyhose around my knees. So within the first half-hour of our shopping trip, I had tried on five dresses, two of which mom bought and had my first visit to a ladies room.
We continued shopping for another hour or so and I had acquired some girl's shorts, a few tops, a pair of girl's sneakers, a pair of open-toed heels, two pairs of sandals, one pair of sheer white pantyhose and the two new dresses. I thought the worse part of the entire trip was when mom took me into the sleepwear section to pick out a pale yellow baby doll nightie to wear to bed. Up to now I was still allowed to sleep in my old boys pajamas. However, the worst part was when we stopped and got my ears pierced. Mom said it was an early birthday present.
When we got back to the car I really began to believe that she planned to do what she said and that I would be wearing one of those dresses and those stupid white pantyhose at dinner on Saturday! Even worse I knew mom would have me dressing all summer now based on all the stuff she just bought. Mom said she was aware of my fear, but she had decided this is what's best for me and I had little choice but to agree. I remember she told me she didn't want me to end up like my father, a mean-spirited, tough guy, who was always in trouble.
That is not the life she had planned for her child.
"I know you're not too happy about celebrating your birthday this year, but traditions are important. So our tradition will continue with a few minor changes. Your hair will be done, your nails will be polished, you will have perfume on and you will be wearing your new dress. And one more thing, don't forget you live with me and you'll continue to live with me. So, if you don't want your friends to find out about your cute little panties you better do exactly what I say. Do I make myself clear, honey? And you can start right this second with your little brother, so you'd better play along or else. From now on I expect you to be mommy's perfect little girl and Mike's sister. We wouldn't want all your friends to see those pictures of you, would we?"
By now we were back at the ball field to pick up Mike. I was sick to my stomach just thinking about the rest of tonight and tomorrow. Mike, oblivious to my feelings, jumped in the car, shouting they won the game and he hit a home run. Mom was all excited for him telling him that was great and she was sure dad would love hearing about it tomorrow at dinner.
"What! Dad's coming to dinner tomorrow?" I asked.
"Oops, ruined the surprise didn't I? Yes dear, he said he was going to be in town and asked if he could join us for your birthday." she answered. "I haven't told him about your current situation, so Mr. Macho is in for a surprise too."
"But Mom. Dad won't like this one bit."
She interrupted, "He'll have a say in how I raise you as soon as he pays me the three years of back child support he owes. Until then I'm the boss. Neither you nor your father has a say in this matter." She then gave me a warning look.
Because of that look I just shut up. Mom made it even worse when she told me to tell Mike about all the cute things I bought at the mall. So for the remainder of the ride home I was telling my stupid little brother about my dresses, pants and shorts that I bought. Mom also had to tell him about my baby doll nightie that I would be wearing tonight. Mike cracked up when he heard that one.
When we returned home, mom told Mike to go upstairs to change and wash up for dinner. When I asked if I could change mom said there was no need for me to change since I looked so cute. Besides, girls like to help cook dinner. After dinner, I had to help her clean up and do the dishes while Mike was allowed to go watch television. As soon as we finished, mom took me upstairs to have me try on the two dresses with the white pantyhose and my new shoes. She wanted to see how it all looked together. As she walked past Mike she said to me in a loud voice that she didn't know why I was in such a hurry to try everything on again, especially my new nightgown. After I tried everything on again, Mom decided the pink and white dress would be best for dinner. She then ironed it and hung it in my closet. She told me to take a bath and put on my new nightgown and then join her downstairs to watch TV.
Mike totally cracked up when I walked into the den wearing that stupid baby doll nightie. He teased me quite a bit but I just sat there quietly and watched television. I knew I would be the one punished if I said anything so I just endured his stupid comments. However, I didn't sleep very well that night knowing what shame and embarrassment tomorrow would bring.
When I woke up that Saturday morning I felt sick to my stomach knowing what was in store for me. I couldn't decide if it was worse to get dressed into one of the casual outfits mom bought yesterday or to stay in my stupid nightie. I decided the nightie was worse so I put on a pair of pink shorts and a pretty short sleeve top with lace at the neck and sleeves. Mom and Mike were already downstairs by the time I got down. I heard Mike tell her that they had another game today. Mom said he could play but he had to be home by five to get ready for dinner.
That afternoon, Mike got his glove and left for the field on his bike. About an hour later Mom grabbed me and led me into the bathroom to wash my hair. "Its time we get started on you, honey."
When I complained that it was so early, mom just smiled and said "Now honey, you know it takes us girls a lot longer to get dressed and I know you want to look extra pretty for your birthday." Pretty! I don't think so. Being pretty was certainly not on my list of birthday wishes. But as soon as I finished showering and washing my hair, mom took me into her bedroom and sat me down at the vanity where she proceeded to set my hair in rollers. "I wanted to do this early so the curl has a chance to set. I think you'll look cute with curly hair." First she was calling me pretty and now cute. Things were going quickly from bad to worse. I felt so stupid sitting there with goofy pink curlers in my hair. I wanted to die as I sat there staring at my reflection in the mirror. As soon as she finished the last curler, she took out a bottle of bright pink nail polish and proceeded to polish my fingernails and toenails. "You know something. I think pink is your color. We'll do another coat after I finish my shower and get dressed. By then your hair should be dry enough to take out your curlers and see how you look with some curly hair.
Mom rejoined me in my room wearing her robe 30 minutes later. She watched as I applied the second coat of polish to my own nails. After I was done with this task, mom sat me down on the bed and removed one curler to see if my hair was dry yet. "It's still a little damp. I think we need to wait another half hour or so. So, lets get your started on dressing. You can at least put on your lingerie and pantyhose now."
I stepped into my panties and then removed my robe to put on my bra. As mom helped me hook it into place I asked her what she told dad about me. "I talked to him last night and told him you decided you want to spend the summer as a girl. I explained that this started out as a punishment for your thievery but after dressing this way for a few days you discovered that you enjoy showing your feminine side. He wasn't very happy but considering his situation he really can't say or do anything."
After I put on my slip, I sat on the bed to slip on my sheer white pantyhose; I asked mom how she could that. "Mom, how could you tell dad that lie? You know I hate dressing like a girl. I'm a boy, mom!"
"Well, that doesn't matter, does it? You're being punished for the summer and that's final. Your father isn't too happy about this little turn of events but he agreed not to put up a fuss. And he certainly would never consider having you live with him. You'd cramp his life style and he couldn't afford to keep you anyway especially when I told him you have been behaving much better since you became my little girl. Sit down over here so we can get your make up on. By then your hair should be dry. Now, getting back to your father. Since I told him you like all this stuff, you'll have to be on your best behavior tonight. I expect you to be the perfect fourteen-year-old daughter. That means not a word of complaint from you all evening. And you better remember all your lessons and manners. I expect you to sit very ladylike, to eat slowly and daintily and to speak softly. One slip up and I'll be parading you to the ball field every night next week in a different dress. And you know I'm not kidding."
As she continued talking, she was expertly applying makeup to my face. A little foundation was followed by a very light application of blush and a hint of brown mascara on my eyelashes. Mom then applied a light pink lipstick to my lips followed by an application of lip-gloss to make my lips shiny. "Oh, one more thing. Tonight, you will call us mommy and daddy. And I want you to do a little curtsy for your daddy when you greet him tonight."
"Curtsy? That's dumb, mom."
"Who am I?'
"I mean mommy."
"That's better. Now stand up. I will show you how to curtsy." When I didn't get up right away, mom gave me a look and said, "Or if you prefer, you can practice doing them at the ball field tomorrow."
With that I quickly stood up. Mom told me to place my right foot behind my left foot and hold my slip with my right hand and then bend my knees a little. I never felt more stupid then practicing curtsying for those few minutes. "Ok, I think you got it. You can do a few more after we fix your hair and get your dress on. In fact, let me get your dress now and then we'll do your hair so it doesn't get messed up." With that she went to the closet and brought over the pink and white dress we bought the day before at the mall. She told me to be careful not to let the dress touch my face since I already had on my makeup. She unzipped it and helped slip it on me. Once I had it on, she zipped me up and I felt trapped for the evening.
Mom sat me down again and started removing the curlers. "Wow. You're hair really holds a curl. You're going to look so pretty after we get it all combed out and styled a bit. After about 15 minutes of teasing and combing she seemed satisfied that my hair looked nice. Handing me my sandals, she said, "Here honey, put these on and then we'll let you take a look at how pretty you are."
After slipping on the dressy sandals I walked over to mirror and stood in silent shock at my reflection. I could not believe the pretty young girl in the mirror was really me. From head to toe I was all girl. All of a sudden the events of the day and the preceding week overcame me and I could feel tears welling up in my eyes. I didn't want my father to see me like this. As I started crying, mom yelled at me. "You'd better not cry young lady. I just spent all afternoon fixing you up so you look like my little princess and I will not have you ruin everything with your tears. But if insist on crying like some baby girl, I'll change you into an outfit more appropriate for a five-year-old girl and take you out like that. Do I make myself clear?"
"Sure mommy. I'm sorry. I'll stop crying."
"That's better. Why don't you sit on the bed and I'll get dressed. Your father should be here any minute now. I think our reservations were for 6:30 or 7:00. And honey, don't forget to smooth out your dress like I showed you so it doesn't get all wrinkled."
As I sat down mom slipped on her stockings and then removed her robe to finish dressing. I guess she really did think of me as a girl now since she was rummaging in her closet wearing only her lingerie looking for a dress to wear. "I want to wear something nice too since you look so pretty, Danielle."

As I sat there I couldn't help but think how horrible tonight would be. Birthdays were supposed to be fun but tonight would be no fun at all. I could not believe I would be spending such an important day dressed as a girl. And to make matters worse my dad would be there for the celebration and I had to convince him that I actually enjoyed all of this crap or else mom would take me to baseball practice dressed as a girl.

Part 2
Mom finally selected her dress and shoes and slipped into them as the doorbell rang.
"Michael, please get the door. Tell your father Danielle and I will be right down." Turning to me, she continued talking. "Here, let me spray you with a little perfume so you smell as cute as you look. And don't forget your purse. It's on the chair by the window. So, is my little girl all ready for her birthday celebration?"
Ready? Not in a million years, I thought. "I guess I'm as ready as I'll ever be. I really don't want dad, I mean daddy to see me like this."
"Don't fret. The initial shocks will all be over in a few minutes and everything will be fine. You just remember everything I told you and you'll be fine. And honey, don't forget to do your little curtsy for daddy. Do one for me now to make sure you remember."
After completing the embarrassing curtsy to her satisfaction, she grabbed her purse and the two of us headed downstairs to join my brother and father. As I turned on the landing I could see my father standing at the foot of the stairs. As he looked up and saw us, I could see the look of surprise in his face. I gulped but continued my descent. When I reached the bottom of the stairs, I grabbed my dress' hem and kind of did a silly dip. I couldn't really curtsy like mom wanted but I figured that would be good enough. I was so nervous that I could barely talk without the fear of crying but I managed to blurt out a few words. "Hi daddy. Thanks for coming to my birthday."
I think my dad was so confused he didn't know what to say but he tried to make me feel ok. "I wouldn't miss your birthday. I know it's an important day. And you look very nice in that dress."
My brother had to get into the act. "Yeah, you look really hot, Danielle in your high heels and pantyhose." Then he burst into laugher.
I wanted to belt him but I knew I would get into trouble so I just stared at him. "Michael, that will be enough, young man unless you want to be grounded next week. Be nice to Danielle or else." Mom chided him.
Despite Dad's best efforts, I could sense his discomfort with seeing his son dressed as a girl and he quickly headed out the front door. Mike followed him and took my usual position in the front seat. I guess he figured I would not say anything and he was so right. I quietly got into the back seat with mom. I just wanted to hide, however, that was not too be. "Honey, smooth out your dress like I showed you. You don't want to look all wrinkled since your dress is so pretty."
The ride to the restaurant was ok, I guess. Dad and Mike were talking sports and stuff. I was too embarrassed to involve myself in any of their conversation. Mom didn't help matters much when she told me I had lipstick on my teeth and to fix my bangs. Even if I wanted to act less like a girl, mom wouldn't leave me alone long enough to even try. My nightmare of a birthday was getting worse by the minute. Dad pulled into the parking lot and found a space near the door. As we got out of the car, I couldn't believe I was about to enter a restaurant dressed as a girl. Mike and dad were walking a few steps in front of us as we headed to the front door. I was so nervous that mom held my hand as we made our way across the parking lot. Dad held the door open for us. I felt so goofy with him doing that for me and seeing Mike's grin didn't help at all.
I don't remember too much about the dinner except for a few things. First, my nerves must have bothered me a lot since as soon as I sat down at the table, I realized I had to pee. I didn't know what to do so I whispered to mom that I had to go to the bathroom.
Mom said, "Don't worry, honey. I'll go with you." She then turned to my dad and said, "Danielle has to use the ladies room. We'll be back in a few minutes. Order me a glass of wine if the waiter takes our drink order. Danielle wants a diet coke." So now after just getting over my shock of getting to our table in a crowded restaurant, I had to walk the gauntlet again. And going to the bathroom as a girl isn't much fun. First I had to hang up my purse on the door and then I remember how awkward it was to have to lift up my dress and pull down my panties and pantyhose to go to the bathroom. It was a real pain in the butt and then when I was done it was even harder getting everything back in place. Then mom made me wash my hands and even to reapply some lipstick, which she had conveniently placed in my purse.
The other embarrassing moment was after we finished our dinners and all the waiters and waitresses came over to our table with a small birthday cake for me. Worse they all sang Happy Birthday to me. I can still hear Mike singing Happy Birthday, Danielle so loudly. I felt like all the eyes were on me.
Even when we were leaving a few people wished me a happy birthday and told me what a pretty young lady I was. I wanted to pull off my stupid dress right in front of them but I simply thanked them and followed mom out the door.
Back home the celebration continued. I asked mom if I could change out of my dress. She said I could if I wanted to show daddy how cute I looked in my baby doll pajamas. I decided immediately that would be worse so I sat down quietly. I certainly didn't want to have dad see me in that stupid girls nightie. As I was sitting there, mom brought out some nicely wrapped presents for me to open. The first one was small and it was from my dad. I opened it and found it contained a bottle of perfume. Perfume? I was surprised and disappointed. I was hoping for a new baseball glove. Mom seeing my discomfort only added to it. "Oh honey, that's the latest perfume according to all the teen magazines. I told your father you needed that. Let's spray a little on you so you can see how pretty it smells." As she was talking she removed the top from the bottle and liberally sprayed my arms and hair. "Oh, that smells so feminine. Why don't you give daddy a kiss to thank him properly?"
The next present was from my stupid brother. I expected him to give me a pair of panties or something really dumb just to annoy me. His package was also small and contained a little makeup kit with a few lipsticks and some matching shades of nail polish. Once again mom to the rescue or something like that. "I helped Mikey pick that out but he paid for it with his own money.
I knew I better say thank you before mom made me kiss him so I just said thank you. There were a few other presents all from mom. She got me a few mini skirts with matching tees and some pretty panties and bra sets. When I opened the box containing the underwear, I couldn't believe it. I just looked at them, put the top of the box back on and simply said, "Mom." I was so embarrassed that she would buy me something so personal and give it to me with dad and Mikey there. I could feel dad cringe when mom said, "Aren't those panties just precious. I couldn't resist getting them for you, honey." This was just what I wanted dad and Mikey to see; me opening a gift of precious panties in all pastel colors. What a day! Mom said she had a few other gifts for me but I would have to wait until next week to enjoy them. I had no idea what they were but somehow I didn't think I would like them.
Finally the day ended. Dad went home and I went to bed, exhausted from the trauma of the day.
I didn't have to wait too long to find out what my first other present from mom was. That Tuesday mom told me to get dressed since we had an appointment at the local beauty parlor. "You're getting your hair cut and highlighted and we're going to have tips on your nails and a nice pedicure for the summer."
"Mom, I don't want my hair highlighted or my nails to be long. I'll never be able to see the guys if you do that."
"That's right honey. You won't be able to see those hoodlum friends of yours and that's exactly why you're going to the beauty parlor. Besides after you're all done, I'm sure lots of boys will be interested in being your boyfriend."
"I don't want a stupid boyfriend like that. Mom, please don't make me do this."
"Go get dressed this instant. Your appointment is at 10am. It's going to take a few hours for them to finish your hair and nails. Ask for Cheryl when you go in."
Now I was really frightened. "You're not coming in with me?" I asked.
"No, I have some things back here that I have to finish up. I'm just dropping you off. They said they would call me when you're ready to be picked up."
Oh my god. Now I would be spending hours in a beauty parlor with all women and my mom wouldn't even be there for support. I've only been dressing as a girl for a few short weeks and I would now be facing my biggest test ever. I would literally die if anyone there ever found out I were really a boy so I knew I would have to act as feminine as I could. Since I knew I needed to be ultra feminine I asked mom what I should wear since I've never been to a beauty parlor.
"Just wear one of your cute short sets and your sandals. That way you won't have to take off your socks or anything for your pedicure. And put on a little makeup too. Just a little lipstick, a touch of blush and some mascara. You'll look fine. They know what you need to have done so you don't have to worry about a thing. I'll pay them when I come pick you up. You're going to be so pretty."
As I changed into my short set I couldn't believe I was heading off to a beauty parlor. A few short weeks ago I was playing baseball and hanging out with my friends. As we drove over to the beauty parlor mom sensed my discomfort and agreed to come in with me for a few minutes. I was so relieved. I was glad that none of the girls from my school were in there getting their hair done too. After mom left, Cheryl washed my hair and then cut it before starting on the highlights. Fortunately my hair was long enough for her to style into a pageboy kind of cute with bangs in the front. As I was sitting in the chair having this all done another girl was giving me a pedicure. I was surprised at how different I looked after they finished with my hair. I somehow looked a little more grown up and sophisticated.
Having tips put on my nails was also interesting. It didn't seem as hard as I thought it would be and my hands looked so much more feminine and pretty. They did a French manicure on both my fingernails and toenails. Mom said that was the best style and it goes with everything you wear.
I was finished a little past two and Cheryl called my mom to come get me. When mom came in I could see that she was even a little surprised at how nice I looked. "My god, my baby looks all grown up. Let me see. Turn around so I can see the back. That coloring looks so nice and natural and your nails look fabulous. So, what do you think, Danielle?"
"I like it mom. Cheryl did a nice job on my hair."
After paying and leaving mom took me out for lunch. I was pretty hungry so I was glad to go. During lunch mom told me my room was all finished so I could move back in and get away from Mikey. That was good news as well. I hated sharing a room with him for these past few weeks especially with me wearing all these girly things. I knew I would have to wear them all summer but being back in my old room would help. "That's great, mom. I'll move all my stuff back in when we get home."
"Honey, you're old stuff wouldn't look quite right in your room anymore. So, I bought you all new stuff. I hope you like it. I'm sure you can personalize it a little bit as we go along but I wanted to get all the big stuff done. So you have a new desk, a new bed and a new chair. You'll see when we get home."
Once I arrived home I ran upstairs and my worse fears came true. My new bed had a big canopy with white lace fabric draped from it. My desk and bureau were also white and decidedly feminine. Even the chair was girly with a pink flowery pattern and some frilly throw pillows that matched those on the bed. My shelves were painted white too. All my sports stuff was replaced with dolls and stuffed animals. My old blue rug was gone replaced with some pretty pink and white area rugs. Even my old baseball bat lamp was gone replaced with some ugly white lamp. In my closet, mom had all my dresses hung neatly and all my shoes laid out carefully on the floor. My dresser drawers were all filled with all the new things I've accumulated in the last few weeks. One drawer contained all my panties, another my bras and lingerie, another one had my socks and pantyhose and the others contained my shorts, tops and accessories. So the good news was I had my room back so I could now change in private but I realized Mikey would still see me dressed as a girl every day. And he knew that I had to wear girl's underwear and stuff under my clothes anyway.
"Mom, where's all my stuff?" I asked.
"Danielle. These are your things now. Your stuff as you refer to it isn't really appropriate any more. Your pretty dolls and cute stuffed animals make a lot more sense. And I've replaced your sports magazines with some more appropriate teen girl reading. You need to be totally immersed into your new role for the punishment to be successful. So, I needed to make your total environment as feminine as possible. Remember, this is all for your own good. You don't want to end up as some juvenile delinquent, do you?"
At this point I wasn't too sure. Maybe being a juvenile delinquent wouldn't be so bad. It couldn't be any worse than being a girl. At least I could hang out with some guys.
"No mom. I don't want to be a juvenile delinquent. But I don't want to end up some sissy either. I can't believe you're doing this to me."
"You are not a sissy. Your punishment, if you want to call it that, has nothing to do with making you a sissy. I'm trying to make sure that you don't get yourself into trouble. You were on the wrong path and I couldn't stand by and allow that to happen. I was so tired of your silly macho attitude. I realize this may seem drastic to you but it's all for your own good. You might as well try to have a little fun this summer since your punishment won't be changed. You can complain and gripe all summer or you can just stop whining and try to enjoy being a girl. It's really up to you. But either way, you're going to be my daughter this summer. But if you prefer to be a sissy, I could arrange that too. I can dress you in some cute little boy outfits and take you to the park. I have the perfect set of pale blue shorts with matching knee high socks and sneakers that will make you look like the perfect little gentleman. I'm sure your friends would love to see you in that outfit as much as anything else."
I didn't want my friends to see me in any of these clothes. A sissy outfit would be worse. At least when I was dressed as a girl I could fool most people into believing I was a girl. In that outfit everyone would know that I was a big sissy. As I stood there and surveyed my extremely feminine bedroom I realized I had no real say in my future.
During the next few days mom continued to work on my feminine skills. She was always correcting me when I did something wrong which was constantly. I didn't sit right. I didn't smooth my skirt. I had my legs open. I wasn't walking like a girl. I wasn't standing straight. After a few days mom started complaining that I was cooperating with her and I was being stubborn. I could tell she was getting really mad at me but I didn't realize the drastic steps that would result. I found out the next day.
"Since you don't want to work with me on your feminine comportment, I decided you can work with Miss Taylor at Taylor's School of Ballet for girls. They have a special summer session for beginner ballet and I enrolled you this morning. Miss Taylor said you will be a little older than the other girls but she assured me you wouldn't feel out of place. I told her you were always a bit of a tomboy and we're now trying to help you become a more graceful miss. She said her class would certainly help in that regard. The classes are three hours, three days a week for one month. If you do well and enjoy it, we can enroll you in her fall classes. The summer class starts tomorrow so we have to go out today and buy you some dancing outfits."
"Mom. Please don't do this. I can't dance and I don't want any more clothes. I'll do what you want. I'll try harder. Pleas mom."
"Too late. You had your chance. Besides, ballet is wonderful training."
"Why do I need new clothes anyway, Can't I just wear shorts?"
"No. You need special attire for ballet. Miss Taylor gave me a list of what you need. All of her students need ballet slippers, a leotard and a tutu. There's a dance store in town that carries all these items for her classes."
I didn't like the sound of that tutu thing one bit. "A tutu? What's that?"
"Oh its one of those cute little outfits that the ballerinas wear. It's usually a one piece with a fitted top. The skirt portion is usually puffy and flares out at the waist. Some times the girls wear crinolines under the skirt portion to make them appear stiff. I'm sure you've seen them. But you'll see what they look like in a little while anyway when you have your fitting."
"My fitting? Mom, please tell me you're joking. You aren't going to make me wear one of those things and take ballet lessons, are you? I've been trying to be good. Please mom."
"I've already paid Miss Taylor for the class so you're going. It will really do you good. I took ballet when I was a little girl. It really helps you to appreciate the beauty of movement. I liked it and so will you. It's fun and since you're so athletic you should do well. Be ready in about an hour so we can go to the store and get your things. You can wear them in the house today so you get used to them. I can even show you a few of the basic positions in ballet if I remember them. And don't forget to wear one of your tight panty briefs today for the fitting."
Alone in my room I pondered my plight. I wondered what was worse. Was it worse to let my friends all see me dressed as a girl? Or was it worse to be enrolled in a ballet class with a bunch of bratty little girls who thought I was a girl too. Why the hell did I ever shoplift those few stupid items? This was a terrible price to pay. I couldn't imagine going to the field and having the guys see me in a stupid dress so I knew I would have to go with mom to the store and get fitted for dance class. I can't believe I will be doing this? Mikey will never let me live this down.
I slowly dressed wearing my panty brief as mom suggested. I wore shorts and a plain top with sandals and joined mom downstairs and then we departed. This was my first trip back to the mall since the day before my birthday but now since school was out there seemed to be a lot more kids my age and a bit older hanging around the mall. I was quite nervous as we walked by a few groups of teenagers. Fortunately none of them were friends of mine. In a few minutes we located the dance store and entered. Mom told the clerk that her daughter needed a complete wardrobe of ballet wear for Miss Taylor's class.
"Of course. We stock all the items for Miss Taylor's school. Let me show you what we have. This is for the beginning ballet class so she'll need everything. Honey, what size do you wear?"
Mom came to the rescue. "She's a size 6 in a dress. Probably a medium will fit her."
"Yes. A medium should do fine. Now you can either wear a leotard or a body suit? Do you have a preference? Sometimes the studios are a bit cold so some of the girls like the coverage that the body suit provides."
"Maybe we should get one of each. Since the classes are three times a week I won't have to do laundry every day."
Ok. One body suit and one leotard it will be. White or pink?"
"Pink."
Now, she'll need some ballet slippers. What size shoe do you wear honey?
"Size 7"
"Good. We have those in stock. Now you'll need your tutu. I guess you'll want that in pink as well. Ok. Here, why don't you go into the dressing room and try this one on to make sure it's comfortable on you."
"Thank you. Come on honey. Let's see how it fits."
Mom helped me try it on and said it fit perfectly. It wasn't too tight or too loose so I should be able to move without any hindrance. She made me show the clerk and she agreed that it was a good fit and that I looked adorable in it. "I just love how pretty all the young girls look in their ballerina outfits. They just look so graceful and elegant." Mom finally selected a few pairs of dancers tights for me to wear with my leotard and then paid for everything. I couldn't believe I owned all this stuff. Even worse, I would be wearing it very soon.

By the time we got back home, Mikey was there. Mom immediately told him the news about my ballet class and insisted that I show him my outfit. I didn't want to but mom said either I show him my pretty outfit or I could go put it on. Naturally, he cracked up when I showed him my pink tutu. "You're going to wear that thing and go to a class with all girls? How sweet!"
I wanted to belt him but he was right. It was sweet. What kind of older brother would ever wear a ballerina dress and take girl's ballet classes? Not a very good brother to say the least.
"I have to wear it. All the girls, I mean students have to wear the same thing. Besides, mom is making me go as part of my punishment."
"Maybe next baseball season you can show the team some new moves or better yet, you can be in charge of the new uniforms. You can be the head cheerleader."
"That's enough, young man. Don't push your luck with me or you'll be going to class with Danielle."
I spent most of the rest of the day in my room. Mom made me put on my outfit after dinner and stay in it until bedtime to help me get used to it. She asked me if I wanted to wear the leotard or the body suit for my first day and I decided on the leotard. Don't ask me why since I don't know.
I was very nervous the next day. I've never danced before and now I would be doing ballet as a girl. Mom helped me dress and pack a bad with a towel and some water. I also packed my ballet slippers since I had to wear sneakers there. I was practically in tears as we drove over to Miss Taylor's Ballet School. We parked the car in the lot and walked into the studio. There were about 10 other girls there. They ranged in age from about 8 to 12 or so and they all had on identical outfits to mine.
A woman came over to us. "Hi. I'm Yvette Taylor."
Hi. I'm Doris Exner, Danielle's mom. I spoke to you yesterday and enrolled Danielle."
"Yes. It's nice to meet you. And you must be Danielle. I see you purchased all your apparel."
"Yes, madam. We bought it yesterday."
Turning to the other students, Miss Taylor yelled, "Girls, this is our new ballerina, Danielle. Danielle, you can go join the girls and get acquainted. Class will start in a few minutes." Sensing my discomfort, Miss Taylor continued, "Don't be shy. All the girls are new too. Believe me, we'll all have fun. Judy, introduce Danielle to the other girls for me."
And all of a sudden I was one of the girls. All of the girls were nice and they all started talking a lot. I mostly listened until class started. Class was actually pretty difficult and tiring. I was surprised at how physically challenging some of the positions were. I knew I would be a little sore tomorrow even with all the warm-ups we did beforehand. The three hours went by quickly and I was surprised when I looked up and saw mom and Mikey by the front desk watching me dance. I must have blushed when I saw Mikey because I could feel my face heat up but there was nothing I could do except continue to do the exercises with the other girls. I hated the fact that my brother actually got to see me dancing dressed like a girl. It was so embarrassing.
"Hi, Mrs. Exner. We're just about finished. Danielle did beautifully. She's very graceful for a beginner, aren't you, sweetie?"
"Yes, madam. Thank you. I responded with an embarrassed look on my face. I couldn't believe she said that in front of my brother. As we were getting ready to leave, other mothers started coming in to pick up their children. That's when I saw Karen, one of the girls in my school, come in with her mother. Karen was a pretty good friend of mine in school and we hung out together some days at lunch. I knew she had some younger sisters and evidently one of them must have been in my class.
I could see her looking at me trying to figure out if she knew me from somewhere. Since I was older and taller than the other girls in class, I definitely stood out which was even worse. I just wanted to get out of there now so I told mom I was going outside. "Mom, I'm hot. I'll wait for you by the car."
"Ok sweetie. I'm coming too. Bye Miss Taylor."
Then it happened. "Bye Mrs. Exner. We'll see you and Danielle on Wednesday."
I knew Karen heard her say my last name and call me Danielle. I thought she would figure out why I looked so familiar. I practically ran out of the studio.
Mikey teased me quite a bit on the way home about everything but I didn't say a word. He was the least of my problems now. If Karen figured out who I was I would be sunk for sure. After dinner I told mom I couldn't go back to school. "Maybe Karen won't know and if I don't go back she'll forget about it."
"You have to go back. I spent all this money and you're going to learn some ballet. Besides, maybe she only came that one-day. You can't be sure she'll be there every day. And I'm sure there are other people named Exner in the area so she may not have even thought about that. So, let's not make this into a giant problem. It's probably nothing."

When Wednesday came I told mom I didn't feel good but she wouldn't hear it. "Let's go. I want you dressed and ready in 15 minutes or else."
I knew what the or else meant so I got up and put on my leotard, tights and tutu and headed off to class. I didn't do nearly as good this time since I was so distracted. I was praying mom would get there early and we'd leave before the other parents came to pick up their little girls.
However, that was not to be. Karen and her mom were the first ones there. Actually class still had more than fifteen minutes left so they were very early. Karen waved to Katie, one of my younger classmates so I figured that was her younger sister. I was practically forced to make some weak eye contact with Karen, since I could tell she was looking at me very carefully as I assumed position number one to practice my exercises.

Every time I looked up at her I could see her staring at me. I almost began hyperventilating since I was getting so nervous. Finally, I survived and somehow class ended. Katie ran over to Karen and her mom. Karen started talking to her and asking her about some of the other girls in the class. I could swear I heard her asking about the tall girl standing by the exercise bar, which was where I was standing. As I looked over, Karen saw me and waved. I weakly waved back not sure of what to do. That's when Karen walked over to me.
"Hi. I'm Karen, Katie's big sister. You're Danielle, right?"
"Yes. Hi." I stammered.
I guess this is your first time taking ballet. Do you like it so far?"
"I guess. It's all right. Actually, it's harder than I thought."
"I know. I had three years of it and it is hard. Are you related to Danny Exner by any chance? I heard Miss Taylor say good-bye to your mother last time. Danny's in my grade at school and there sure is a strong family resemblance."
I didn't know what to do and I was about to blurt out something stupid when I heard mom call my name. "Danielle. Sorry we were late. There was a lot of traffic."
Hi, Mrs. Exner. I'm Karen Hines, Katie's sister. You must be Danny's mother, aren't you?"
"Yes, dear, I am."
"Danny's in my grade. Is Danielle his sister?"
"Yes, actually she's his twin sister."
"Oh wow. That's cool. I never knew he had a sister." Turning back to me, Karen continued talking. "Where do you go to school? I know you weren't in Washington Middle School with us."
"Oh, Danielle was living with her father. She went to school in a different state. She's visiting here for the summer."
"Oh neat. We'll have to get together and I can show you around a little bit and introduce you to some of my friends. Would it be okay if I called you?"
Not knowing what else to say, I agreed. "Sure. I'll give you our phone number."
"Thanks. I'll call you tonight, okay?"
"Sure. I'll talk to you later, Karen."
"Bye, Danielle. Bye Mrs. Exner."
I couldn't believe that I was just talking to Karen with me wearing a tutu. This couldn't be happening. But just as she promised Karen called that night and we talked on the phone for about 30 minutes. It was hard for me to do since I had to make up an entire new life that didn't exist. And worse I had to make believe I didn't know any of her friends or anything about school and junk like that. Karen asked me to hang out with her the next day and mom said I should since I didn't have dance class that day. Mom agreed to drop me off at her house the next afternoon.
I was pretty nervous that next morning. I was in a real danger zone for sure. I mean dressing as a girl is one thing but dressing as a girl and hanging out with a classmate was a whole different story. I wasn't too sure I could pull this off since Karen knows me and I'm sure not an expert at all this girl stuff. I wasn't even sure what I should wear to hang out with her. I was planning on wearing shorts, sneakers and a tee shirt but mom suggested wearing a skirt with my low-heeled sandals. When I complained, Mom explained her logic.
"I think wearing a skirt will help remind you of the need to be feminine. It will keep you focused on your posture. Wearing your sandals with your pedicure will be another visible reminder of your femininity. And the heels will help you walk slower and more lady like. If I were in your shoes I would want to do anything and everything I could to be the best girl I could be."
I had to agree that her suggestions made sense so that's what I ended up wearing. Mom helped me with my hair and makeup too. I was too nervous to do it myself. Finally, it was time to leave and mom drove me over to Karen's house. Mom waited in the car until Karen opened the door. She then waved and drove off. I was on my own.
PART 3

As I stood at the door preparing to go in, I had a lump in my throat. What was I doing here at Karen's house wearing a mini skirt and a girl's top? I had to be totally out of my mind. Karen was wearing shorts and a casual top so I immediately felt over dressed.
"Hi. I see you found the house ok. You look so cute in that outfit. I love those shoes. Where did you get them?"
So we were off and running. Karen was quite the chatterbox so our conversation went smoothly. Mom briefed me on a lot of stuff before I went over to her house so I would be prepared. After all I had to create an entire new life for Danielle. I had to know why I lived with my dad while my brother lived with our mom. I had to know the school I went to, my friends, our activities and even my boyfriends. Now that was the killer for me. I couldn't believe I had to be prepared to discuss my make believe boyfriends but I did. It was a good thing mom made me think of all this since it didn't take long for Karen and me to start talking about boys. Actually we talked about music and boys, videos and boys, clothes and boys, dancing and boys, sports and boys, vacations and boys, and boys. By the end of the afternoon my head was spinning and I was glad when six o'clock rolled around and mom came to pick me up.
Mom was eager to hear all about my afternoon and I told her mostly everything but not too much about the boyfriend stuff. I found that too embarrassing especially when Karen and I were talking about kissing boys and letting them do stuff to us. I only admitted letting my boyfriend go to second base with me. Karen said she let her last boyfriend go to third base one time. I definitely didn't want to tell mom about that.
My life fell into a new routine for the next few weeks. It wasn't a routine that I was comfortable with but it was a routine. Not like most of my other summers for sure. Those were filled with baseball and basketball, not ballet and beauty treatments. Actually since I didn't have any chance to play ball I found myself practicing ballet quite often. It seemed like that was the only exercise I was getting and I wanted to stay in shape. Surprisingly I was getting pretty good at it too. Mrs. Taylor noticed my improvement and complimented me quite often on my gracefulness. Her encouragement was surprisingly welcome too and it spurred me on to try harder each week. I also didn't want mom to say I wasn't trying because she may have made me do something else in addition to ballet. I didn't want to chance that.
I also hung out with Karen a few times each week. We'd go shopping some days or go to a movie. That was fun. I liked her a lot and it was cool to hang out with her even if I was dressed as a girl. Gradually I met a few of her other friends so lots of times a few of us hung out together.
Ballet classes were set to end soon so at least I had something to look forward to. I wouldn't have to wear that silly outfit for the rest of the summer. But I didn't realize that all these dance classes always ended with a recital where all the students performed before an audience. That was just what I wanted to hear. And because of my age and all my practice Mrs. Taylor wanted me to have a bigger role than most of the other girls. We practiced a few numbers all that week for the recital that was scheduled for Friday evening. Mom was all excited and she said that she and my brother would come to see me perform. I cringed when I thought of Mikey being there but once more there was nothing I could do. I also knew that Karen would probably be there too since her little sister would be in the recital as well.
On Thursday evening mom made an appointment for me at the nail salon to have my nails touched up. On the drive back from the salon, mom unleashed another unwelcome surprise on me.
"Guess what? Your aunt Alice is coming to visit us for the week so you'll have a few more supporters in the audience for your dancing debut."
"Aunt Alice! Is Jason coming with her?" Jason was my cousin and he was a few months older than me.
"Of course. You know he always comes when they visit."
"Mom, they can't come to the recital. I don't want Jason to see me dancing in a ballet recital with all girls. Especially since I'll be one of the girls. Can't you call Aunt Alice and cancel? Please."
"No honey. Besides Aunt Alice knows all about my little girl. She's looking forward to meeting you. I told her all about your exciting summer. She wanted to see first hand because your cousin is becoming more and more of a discipline problem himself. He may be next if he isn't careful."
Oh great. I didn't really believe Aunt Alice would ever force Jason to wear girl's clothes. I figured mom made that up to keep me quiet. I was sick with fright the rest of the day and night. When I woke up on Friday, I told mom I was too sick to dance that night. Mom didn't want to hear anything about me being sick. She told me I was going and that was all there was to it. She said I could rest for the day but I had to be ready by five so she could drop me off for our final rehearsal and makeup session. Mom told me to wear my ballet costume and to bring the other outfit we needed for the finale. We were doing a little West Side Story number so we all had to change into black short skirts, a black leotard, black tights and black ballet slippers.
Late that afternoon, mom came in to make sure I packed everything I needed. Along with my clothing I had to bring some lipstick, mascara and blush since they wanted us all to look a little more grown up for the recital. She parked in the middle school lot and walked me in to make sure I got in safely. She waved to Mrs. Taylor and said goodbye. "Good luck, honey. We'll be cheering for you."
And she was off. All us girls were quite busy for the next two hours. We had a practice session to review all of the numbers, then we had to all lay out our clothes for the last number, then we all had our makeup done and they fixed our hair a little too. By seven, I could hear the audience filling up the room. I was so apprehensive knowing Mikey and Jason were both going to be sitting there watching. I could imagine their reactions and comments.
Finally, Mrs. Taylor got us all together to say a little prayer that all her girls would perform well and that we would all have lots of fun. AS we took our positions for the first number I prayed that the floor would open up and swallow me. Mrs. Taylor walked out to the podium, welcomed everyone and then the curtain opened, the music started and we began to dance. Fortunately we all had a lot of practice and the first number was the easiest so we all did pretty well. I couldn't see anyone in the audience that I knew so I relaxed a little bit. I didn't have to dance in the second number so I had a chance to scan the audience and that's when I spotted my mother, brother, aunt and cousin. They were seated about ten rows back right in the center section.
Mrs. Taylor signaled for the next group to get set. This was my biggest dance. I had about a 30 second solo in the middle of the dance. I tried to concentrate on all of the moves remembering all of my training and practice. As I began my solo, it all came back to me and I performed flawlessly including the three pirouettes included in the set. As I finished and took my place back in line with the other girls, I could hear the audience applauding my performance. I also noticed mom was snapping pictures with her camera. I guess she wanted more ammunition with my friends if I revolted. I thought Jason also had a camera. Standing right next to mom, I couldn't help but notice Mikey laughing really hard. I knew I was in store for some big teasing.
The remainder of the recital went off really well. We all changed into our other outfit for the finale. I felt really dumb changing with all those girls. Here I was a boy and I had to fit in and change with a bunch of girls. Thank God I was wearing my panty brief for extra security. I would have been really nervous without that. After removing my tutu and pink leotard, I had to put on my black pantyhose and change into my other leotard and skirt. Mrs. Taylor had to assist some of the younger girls. Thank God, I didn't need any help. All the girls did a wonderful job, including some of the really young girls. They were so cute and excited. We all got to take our final bows or in this case, our final curtseys. Mrs. Taylor always stressed that boys bow and ballerinas curtsy. Once again I could see Jason and Mikey standing up clapping really loud and whistling for me when Mrs. Taylor announced my name. What jerks they were. I moved to the front of the stage, curtseyed like I was trained to do and ran off stage with the other girls.
Mrs. Taylor arranged for a little reception after the recital so there was some beverages and pastries for us to enjoy. As I walked off stage, my family was there to greet me. Both mom and Aunt Alice had bouquets of flowers for me, which was just another total source of embarrassment for me. "Honey, you were wonderful. Here's some flowers for our little prima ballerina." Mom handed me the flowers and then gave me a hug and a kiss.
"Your mom's right. You were just precious, Danielle. You were great. I can't believe you just started." Aunt Alice said as she handed me my second bouquet that I grudgingly accepted as Jason and my brother just grinned.
"Aren't you boys going to congratulate Danielle on her lovely performance?"
As my Aunt spoke, both boys started laughing at me. Jason couldn't contain his amusement at my situation. "Oh yeah, you make a really cute ballerina. I can't believe my cousin is parading around like this. This is too much."
"Hi Danielle. You were great tonight."
I turned and saw Karen.
"Oh, thanks. Katie did really well too."
"Yes. Everyone did a good job. Mrs. Taylor is a very good teacher."
"That's for sure. If she can teach me ballet, she can teach anyone."
My mom interjected. "Hi Karen. Glad you enjoyed the recital. Karen, this is my sister, Alice and my nephew, Jason."
"Hi. Nice to meet you."
I could see Jason checking out my friend. I hoped he and Aunt Alice knew that Karen thought I was a girl.
Mrs. Taylor came over and started chatting with my mother and aunt, leaving the three of us alone.
Karen asked me what I was doing tomorrow. "I'm going to go to the mall. You wanna come with me? There's a big sale at Kohls and I need some new things for fall."
"I'm not sure. My cousin and aunt are staying. Can I let you know tomorrow?"
"Sure."
We talked and had a drink of punch. Karen introduced her mom to my mom and aunt as I chatted with some of the other girls in my class until it was time to leave. We all got into the car and drove back home. I felt really weird sitting in the back seat between Jason and my brother. Plus it was hard to sit in my stupid short skirt. I kept trying to pull it down more since I could see Jason eyeing my legs and grinning. But his next comment made me feel even worse.
"Are you wearing panties?"
My aunt quickly yelled at him. "Jason. That's not an appropriate question to ask a young lady."
"Why not? Dani is wearing everything else so I figured it was okay to ask. I just can't believe my cousin is wearing all this girlie stuff and makeup. It's just too funny."
"There's nothing funny about it. She looks sweet and she's much better behaved this summer. You should only be as well behaved."
"Yeah. She does look sweet and I bet she is wearing pretty panties. Mikey told me all about them."
"Mom." I wailed in horror.
"Mikey, what did I tell you? You better watch your step, young man."
I was tired and asked to go to bed as soon as we got home. Mom told Jason she wanted him to sleep in Mikey's room. "You boys can room together since Danielle needs her privacy." Turning to me, she continued. "Sure honey, why don't you go up and change now. And don't forget to rinse out your pantyhose and hang them in the shower to dry. The boys can get ready for bed later."
I was so relieved to finally be away from everyone. I went into my room, striped and put on my nightie. I knew enough to do what mom said so I washed out my pantyhose in the sink and hung them to dry. I placed my other clothing in the hamper, washed up, removed my makeup and went to bed, thankful that the night was over.
Mom came into my room early the next morning to wake me up. I guess I was really tired from the recital and all the stress. I could see Mom taking one of my dresses from my closet. "Honey, I want you to wear this dress today with a pair of your nude pantyhose and these shoes. We're all going into town today for lunch and a matinee at the playhouse. I wanted to do something special for you since you did such a great job last night. Besides I want to make sure Aunt Alice sees how pretty you look every day.
"Mom. I don't want to get all dressed up. Please. Can't I just wear pants today? I don't' want Jason to see me wearing a dress and pantyhose. He'll think I'm a total sissy."
"You know you can't wear pants. And I'm sure Jason will be on good behavior especially since he saw you last night. So, come on. Get a move on. Everyone already had breakfast and Aunt Alice is making you some pancakes now."
"Okay but Karen wanted me to go shopping with her today. Can't I do that instead?"
"Oh. Don't worry. I heard her ask you about shopping so I told her we had a surprise planned for you to celebrate your ballerina debut. She agreed to join us. We'll pick her up on the way. So put your robe and slippers on and go eat."
Just want I needed to hear. My robe and slippers were so girlie that I hated them even more than my nighties. But I knew once again that mom wasn't in the mood for any lip so I did as she said.
When I entered the kitchen, Mikey turned to Jason. "See. I told you she sleeps in girl stuff too. You owe me a buck."
Jason cracked up. "This is worth a lot more than a buck. This is hysterical. My cousin is turning into a real girl. You must really like all this stuff."
"I hate it. I hate wearing all this stuff. Mom makes me."
"No she doesn't." Mikey chimed in. "I hear you asking her for lipstick and dresses and stuff like that. And you were always doing your ballet stuff even when mom wasn't home. You like being a sissy girl."
"I do not."
"Mikey, that's enough. One more word and you'll be grounded. And Danielle, I don't appreciate those outbursts. Young ladies don't act like that. If you both know what is good for you, you won't test my patience."
I managed to get through breakfast without further incident but I could almost feel Mikey and Jason smirking at me. I hated sitting there wearing girls pajamas and stuff while they both were wearing shorts and tee shirts. After I ate, the two boys went into the adjoining family room and watched television while I had to help mom and Aunt Alice clean up the kitchen and do the dishes.
After we finished mom told me to get my hot curlers so she could set my hair. Even worse, she decided we could do it right in the kitchen. Needless to say, Jason got to see me sitting there with curlers being in my hair. Every time I turned around I was being placed in a more feminine position. First with my brother, than with my father and now with my cousin and aunt. I feared I would never regain my pride.
After my hair was set it was off to take a bath and then go through all the preparations that have become part of my daily life. Mom made me shave my legs and underarms each week, I had to smooth lotions on my legs, arms, hands, face and neck daily to keep my skin soft. I had to wear makeup every day. Foundation, liner, mascara, blush and lipstick all had to be expertly applied before I could begin my day. Today I had to do all of that, comb out my hair and get dressed for the big day. Meanwhile my brother and Jason were fooling around downstairs like two idiots. They only had to put on pants and a shirt and their casual shoes and they were ready. They would be ready in a few minutes. My preparations took a few hours.
Mom and Aunt Alice were in mom's room getting ready when I came in. Mom told me to join them after my bath. I had my panties and bra on already under my robe and I carried in my slip, dress, shoes and pantyhose to put on after I finished with my makeup and hair.
"Honey, sit here at the vanity. You can apply your makeup here. Then I'll help you with your hair."
After I applied all my makeup, mom helped me remove the rollers. My hair was really springy so I knew it would look really cute. In a way I was glad since Karen would be there but on the other hand I didn't want to look too cute in front of my cousin. After about 45 to 50 minutes I was done with my hair and makeup. Mom handed me my pantyhose, which I expertly slid up my legs before removing my robe. I stepped into my slip before unzipping my dress and lowering it over my head. Mom zipped me up as I stepped into my heels. A quick spray of perfume and I was ready for the day. When I went down stairs, Mikey and Jason were already waiting in the family room. And as expected they both had on a pair of pants, a shirt and their casual shoes. And here I was all decked out in a dress and high heels. How I wished to be wearing the same thing they had on. I wanted to be dressed like one of the guys but that sure wasn't happening. Mom, Aunt Alice, Karen and me were all going to be dressed similarly. We'd all be wearing dresses. We'd all be wearing bras and panties. We'd all be wearing heels. We'd all have make up on and we all smelled sweet with perfume. No, there would be no mistaking me for a boy. I fit right in with all the girls and women.
Jason was the first one to chime in. "Wow. Don't you look cute in your pretty dress and high heels? You even walk like a girl in them. I guess all that practice paid off for you. I'm not sure who is cuter you or your friend, Karen? I think she's kind of hot but you make a darn cute girl, yourself. Where does she think the real Danny is?"
"With his father for the summer. I told her we switched homes."
"You never told me if you were wearing panties last night. So, you got them on now?"
"None of your business!" I answered in a huffy voice.
"Hey, don't get wise with me. You're the one running around all dolled up and playing girl. I guess I can just tell Karen about your little game if you don't want to show me your pretty panties. So, you can either lift your skirt or I'll out you to your little girlfriend."
"You can't do that. Please."
"It's up to you. So, what's it going to be?"
Now in addition to my mother having me over a barrel, my cousin had me in an even worse position. And I had to live with him for the entire week. Realizing that he may not be kidding, I slowly lifted my dress and slip revealing my pantyhose covering my lavender lace panties. Both Jason and my brother hooted it up when I revealed my finery to them, causing me to blush bright red. I wasn't used to anyone seeing my girl's underwear since I moved back into my bedroom.
"Wow. You really do have everything on that a girl wears."
I heard mom coming down stairs so I quickly lowered my dress back into place.
"Thanks for the show, sweetie."
"Okay. Everybody ready? Danielle, don't forget your purse."

"I got it, mom. I'm all ready."
I was a bit nervous that day, more so than normal. Jason's comment really bothered me. I was so afraid he would tell Karen the truth about me. If he did that, Karen would hate me and the entire school would know that I was a big sissy.
During the day I could tell that Jason liked Karen. He was acting goofy around her the way guys do when they have a crush on someone. I could also tell that Karen was not interested in Jason. He definitely was not her type.
During the intermission at the play, Karen and I went to the ladies room together. As we were standing in line, which was something I wasn't used to doing in the men's room, she confided in me that Jason seemed jerky. I laughed and agreed with her. We both agreed that most boys were jerks. We were laughing so hard when we came out of the ladies room, Jason heard us.
"What's so funny in there? Did a boy sneak in there?"
I could feel my throat tighten up when he said that. Karen just laughed. "Sure, there were a lot of boys in there." She replied.
Fortunately Jason dropped the matter right then. Thank God.
But I knew after today that Jason could make things tough for me. And now knowing that Karen didn't like him certainly didn't bode well for me.
The next morning after church, mom and Aunt Alice were going out with some friends for the day. Mikey had baseball practice so Jason and I were on our own. Jason asked me to call Karen and invite her over. "She's cute and I think she likes me."
"No she doesn't. She thinks you're a jerk, so there."
"Stop saying that. You know it's not true."
After arguing for a while I agreed to call Karen and let him listen in on our conversation. It was the only way I could prove to him what a jerk he was. It didn't take long for Karen to say a few things about him so he got the point but he was mad and his feelings were hurt.
I was feeling real superior at that point but things quickly changed.

"Okay. Since your girlfriend thinks I'm such a jerk, you can be my girlfriend. I haven't had much experience with girls and I need to experience some things now so I'll do good when I start dating."

"I'm not going to be your girlfriend. You must be crazy or something?"
"Yeah. Maybe I am. But I also have pictures of you in your precious ballerina outfit dancing with all the other girls and I can tell your friend all about you, remember? Now we know you don't want that to happen, do you?"
I started to answer but he just kept on talking. "No, you wouldn't want all your friends at school to know how Danny boy spent his summer. So you'll be a good girl and do whatever I tell you. Now first, I want you to get all dressed for me, like we're going out on our first date. You can wear a one of your skirts, something short. And then you'll make me some lunch and then we'll see how good a girlfriend you can be.
So get a move on." He said in a demanding tone as he sat down on the chair in my room.
Not knowing what to do, I told him I would change but he had to leave first.
"No, I think I'll stay and watch. I can see how some of this stuff works since you're such an expert now."
So now I had to change out of my shorts and top right in front of him. How embarrassing. None of the three options were very appealing. I could say no and then he could tell Karen or give some of those recital photos to my friends or worse, he could do both of those things. Or I could play along with his little charade. At a minimum I needed to buy some time so I went to my closet, picked out a short skirt and a top. I already had my panties and bra on so I only needed a pair of pantyhose and shoes.
I slipped off my short and top and rolled up my pantyhose to glide them up my legs. "Wow. You even look like a girl in your underwear. Those things look hard to put on too."
After I slipped on my hose, I quickly stepped into my skirt and buttoned up my top. I felt less vulnerable now that I had some clothes on.
"Don't forget your lipstick and perfume stuff too. I'm sure you would want to look your best for me, right?"
"Yeah, right." I said as I applied my lipstick and blush and sprayed myself with perfume. After I finished Jason told me to stand up and pirouette for him. I felt so stupid but I did it anyway.
"You know something. You make a really convincing girl. Maybe you're not really a boy. Okay, I think its time you make your new boyfriend some lunch. You can cook me up a hamburger and some fries. I'll be in the family room so you can serve me in there."
How I wanted to just scream. I couldn't believe this twit was doing this to me. Even worse, I was letting it happen. After slaving in the kitchen for 30 minutes or so, I had our lunches made. I put it all on a tray and brought it in to Jason. He smiled and told me to sit next to him on the couch where we both ate our hamburger. After we were done, Jason held a French fry up to my mouth. "Here, let me feed you one and then you can feed me one."
So we fed each other a few fries. I was going clean up the plates but Jason stopped me. "You didn't make any dessert. I guess you'll just have to be my dessert now. Let me see how hard it is to unhook a bra. I bet I can do it with one hand."
I balked a little but Jason pulled me over closer to him. He slipped his hand under my top and began fiddling with my bra hooks. He struggled for quite a few minutes, even when he used both hands. Such a stud he was. Finally, he got it unhooked. "Okay, kiss me now."
"I can't kiss you. You're a boy."
"I know I'm a boy but I'm not too sure about you. I'm convinced enough that I think this will work. Now kiss me, Danielle."
He kind of puckered his lips up, making me cringe. I kissed him on the cheek hoping that would bring him to his senses.
"Is that how you kiss your boyfriend? You better kiss me like you mean it or else I'll take a walk over to Karen's house.
This was now getting really nuts. I mean I know I looked like a girl but now Jason was making me act like one in a physical way. Up to now I just acted like a girl. This scared me but other things scared me even more.
"Come on. I need to learn how to kiss so a girl likes it and you're going to help me. If I close my eyes, I really think you're a girl."
"But I know I'm not"
"That's not my problem. Kiss your boyfriend."
And that's what we did. I kissed Jason real lightly a few times and then we kissed a little harder for a while. He was moaning and stuff so I knew he liked it. I knew just how much he liked it when he took my hand and rested it on his groin. I could feel his little penis swelling and twitching as we continued kissing.
I moved my hand away, yelling at him. "Jason, stop that."
He grabbed my hand again and placed it in exactly the same spot. "Stop being such a baby. Girls like to touch their boyfriend's things. And boyfriends like to touch their girlfriends too." As he was talking I felt him move his hand to my nylon covered knee. Oh my God, I thought. He's going to try to touch me. Jason moved his hand higher and higher, although he did avoid getting near my thing. He had his hand almost up to my waist and he started to try to move it under my pantyhose but he couldn't make much progress due to the tightness of my skirt and the way I was sitting. "Boy, this is tougher than I thought. I hope my girlfriends don't wear pantyhose when we go out. Put your hand in my pants. I'm not wearing pantyhose so it should be much easier for you."
"Jason, please don't make me do that. It's disgusting."
"No it's not. Just do it, Danielle. Stop being such a baby."
Now I was faced with the reality of having my hands on some boy's penis. Never in a million years did I ever think I would find myself in this type of predicament. I wasn't queer and I wasn't a girl. Yet I now found myself admitting to one of those categories. I know I looked and dressed like a girl but now I was being asked (forced) to really be a girl. Slowly my hand moved to Jason's waistband and I began to carefully insert it under his pants, moving gradually to his awaiting symbol. I felt his sparse pubic hair and then found my hand wrapped around his pulsating shaft. Never before have I ever sexually touched another person. I always thought my first would be with a girlfriend but I knew that was not to be. My first encounter would be with my cousin Jason.
"Oh, that feels so good. Play with it, Danielle."
And so I did. I played with Jason's rod for what seemed to be an eternity. The more I played with it the more active he became. He occasionally slipped his hand under my skirt to caress my knee and thigh but most of the focus was on him. After a long time, I could feel his shaft almost tremble and I knew he was about to explode. He came in spurts, shooting his fluid into his shorts and pants. His sighs were loud and almost painful as he continued to climax into my hand. We sat there almost motionless for the next few minutes with my hand becoming sticky from his ejaculation.
After a few minutes, I removed my hand from inside his pants. "Ick. My hands are all sticky. I have to go wash them."
"No. Let me see."
I showed him my hand. Some parts were sticky but some parts were still wet with his cum. Once I removed my hands, I could smell his load. "You want to lick it?"
"No way." I shouted as I ran out to the bathroom to wash my hands. I washed them three or four times trying to get the entire episode out of my mind but it didn't work. I could still feel his cum on my hands. My nostrils were still filled with his scent. I felt dirty, scared and alone. In a way I think I truly felt like any young girl would after be made to do something that you didn't really want to do.
I knew my mom would be home soon so I wanted to clean up the dishes and stuff. Jason gave me a pat on my fanny when I bent over by him to pick up the plates and tray. "That was fun. Not bad at all for your first time. I think you have the makings of a good girlfriend. And we should have a few other times to practice some other stuff this week."
"We'll see. I want to clean this mess up and change back into my other clothes. I don't want mom to see me all dressed like this. She may figure something out."
Two days later, Jason told me to ask my mom if he and I could go to the movies. "This could be almost like a real date and Spiderman 2 is playing."
I didn't really want to go on a date but I did want to see the new Spiderman movie so I agreed. Naturally, mom was all excited to see that I wanted to go out and that Jason and I were getting along so well; if she only knew. Anyway, mom dropped us off at the movie house and agreed to pick us up a few hours later at the ice cream parlor. Jason made me wear one of my skirts but I didn't wear pantyhose since it was too warm.
Once we were in the theater Jason put his arm around me and had me sit close to him. We kissed a few times and I was praying he wouldn't make me do anything crazy in the theater. Fortunately, he didn't. We just kissed a little bit and every once in a while he would touch my leg with his hand. We had popcorn and the movie was really good. I actually enjoyed the show.
I was a little nervous going for ice cream but I figured none of my friends would know Jason so I felt a little safer. I didn't think anyone would recognize me if we were together.
After we finished we still had about half and hour or so before mom was due to pick us up. We walked to a small park right by the theater and sat on a bench. We talked a little and Jason kissed me a few more times. I actually found myself responding a little more willingly to his advances. I was surprised that I was reacting more like a real girl would. I really did feel like I was out on a date with a boy.
The next turning event with Jason happened that Thursday evening. Mikey was over his friends and mom and Aunt Alice had dinner plans. Jason gave me a wink that afternoon so I knew he expected me to role-play for him again. As soon as my aunt and mother left, I started dressing. I wore the same black mini skirt from the recital and a new hot pink top with my black sandals.
By now kissing Jason no longer repulsed me. I didn't like it but I didn't hate it. I guess I figured it was good practice for me when I started dating girls. I didn't feel like much of a boy during these times but I figured kissing a girl was practically the same thing. Even when he made me put my hand down his pants I tried to imagine that he didn't really have a thing there and that he was a girl.
Tonight he had me sit on his lap while we made out. It didn't take very long for me to feel him springing into action. I guess my kissing was pretty good. We kind of squired around the couch for a bit and then I found my hand being forced into his pants. As I continued to fondle him, he held my hand making me slow down. He then totally undid his pants, totally exposing himself. Even though I had the same piece of equipment the sight of it surprised me. I was even more surprised when he somehow made me fall off the couch. I was now half on the floor and half on the couch, almost in a kneeling position. Jason held me there as he sat up a little. My head was now fairly close to his penis. That's when he grabbed my head and forced me to move even closer. Having his thing so close to my face made it impossible for me to imagine that I was with some girl. No girl had one of those things.
"Jason, no. I don't want to do that." I screamed.
"Dani. Come on. Just do it. You're right there. Just open your mouth. This is easier than having all your friends know everything, isn't it?"
He kept a steady pressure on my head, slowly forcing me closer and closer. My lips were now touching the head of his throbbing shaft.
"Come on. You can do it. You can be a real girl tonight. Come on. Open your mouth for me."
"Jason, please don't make me do this. Please."
"Come on. You're right there. I don't want to tell all your friends about you so please don't make me. Just suck me like a good girl."
I hated myself at that moment. I closed my eyes but I found my mouth gradually opening to accept him. I couldn't believe I actually had my cousin's thing in my mouth. I didn't really know what to do so I just kind of stayed there letting Jason control the movements. Similarly to when I gave him a hand job, he began moving it around. A few times he pushed it in a little far making me gag. I found that feeling very uncomfortable but his hand on my head forced me to continue despite my gagging.
Gradually I opened my eyes. I could see my nicely manicured hands wrapped around his penis that was moving up and down. I could see a slight trace of my pink lipstick on his shaft. My hair was falling into my eyes and onto his groin. My hands, my hair and my lipstick all made me feel feminine. And what could be more feminine that blowing some guy. Jason was really getting into it now. His movements became deeper, more intense, more rapid. I was now breathing deeply through my nostrils to control my gag reflect. I tried to concentrate on his movements and time mine with his. This way I could at least control the depth of his thrusts a little better.
I could feel the coarseness of his pubic hairs on my lips as he continued moving. I think I felt one of his hairs in my mouth. I wanted to stop and take it out but Jason was making more moaning sounds now. They seemed much louder than before. I was afraid I was doing something wrong but then he started shouting, "Yeah, yeah. Oh, that feels so good. Yeah, baby, yeah."
So I guess you didn't really need much practice to please a guy. I shifted my position slightly to get more comfortable. Jason continued thrusting even as I shifted a bit. Once I was repositioned I could feel his penis contract a little and I knew he was close to coming. I didn't want him to come in my mouth but his hands were still on my head. His shaft was at least halfway in my mouth all the time. I couldn't do anything except continue sucking and moving in unison with him. Finally, I felt his penis spasm and my mouth filled with his sperm. I gagged slightly from both the fluid and the force of his final thrusts. I felt like I could hardly breathe so I forced myself to swallow his load.
His penis began to shrink instantly and he released my head. As I caught my breath, I slowly removed his penis from my mouth and just laid my head on his leg. I was exhausted. Even worse, I was so embarrassed that I didn't know what to do. I didn't want to even look at Jason. I couldn't look at him. I should have just let him tell Karen and all my friends that I dressed as a girl. That may have been better than this. I never wanted to wear panties and girl's clothing. I never wanted to wear high heels and have makeup on my face. I never wanted to smell pretty or go to ballet class. And I certainly never wanted to kiss a boy or do the things I did with Jason.
Jason's breathing was now more relaxed. "Wow. That was something. Now I know why guys like it so much when a girl goes down on them. Are you sure you never did that before? How was it for you?"
How was it for me? Is he a nut? It was horrible. I didn't know if I should say that though. "Of course I never did that before. I wasn't too crazy about it as you can imagine. It made me gag. I felt like I couldn't breath but you didn't seem to worried."
"Well from where I was sitting it was all good. And you looked just like a girl doing it. I mean with your hair and clothes and everything I felt like you were a real girl going down on me for sure."
"I'm glad you think you have a girlfriend. I wish I did too but it seems I'm the one with a horny boyfriend. I'm glad you're getting so much dating experience."
"Hey, you're getting experience too."
"Not the kind I want. Going down on you isn't going to help me dating girls one bit. This isn't the kind of experience I want. I don't like sucking a guy's cock."
"True but at least you know what a girl feels when she's doing it. You'll know a lot about that. And you still look like a girl sitting there with your head lying on my lap. Did you get any stuff on my pants?"
"No. Your pants are ok. I was pretty careful. I guess I swallowed it." I said as I got up and sat next to him on the couch. He was right. I was acting just like a girl.
"You swallowed it?"
"Yes, I swallowed it. What do you think I did with it? I didn't know what else to do? I couldn't even move my head since you had such a hold on it plus I felt like I was going to chock if I didn't swallow it. I'm not too experienced at this stuff."
"Wow. Cool. So, what did it taste like?"
"Icky. That's what it tasted like. I didn't really think about it but I guess it was kind of gooey, slimy and thick. I couldn't believe you had me doing that. I feel like a fag." As I was speaking my voice cracked with emotion. I was flooding with visions of what I just did. My eyes welled up with tears.
"Well, if you were a real boy it would be kind of faggy but I'm not too sure of that. I mean I think you're more like a girl now. Just look at yourself. You're even crying like a girl now. I couldn't let a guy suck me off like that. Face it. You're a girl now."
Jason was right. A few months ago I was fielding balls, doing batting practice ands wearing a baseball uniform. I was getting plenty of exercise. Now the only bat and balls I was playing with were attached to my cousin. My new uniform didn't have cleats or a hat. No, it consisted of mini skirts with cute little tops, pantyhose and high heels. Besides ballet the only exercise I got this week was making out with my cousin, giving him a hand job and just now going down on him. Why didn't I say no. Well I did say no but not with any real meaning. I said no like a girl who really wanted it but couldn't or wouldn't admit it. I could have called his bluff. I could have told my mom what he was saying but I didn't do any of those things. I just let him have his way with me. I was afraid to say no. I guess all this time spent living as a girl was really having more of an impact on me than I imagined.
I was afraid to think of where it was all leading.
My life was topsy-turvy. Here I am sitting on the couch with my cousin Jason right after giving him a blowjob. Jason is sitting there watching television feeling all macho and stuff. He's getting to experience what it is like to have sex with a girl. All I'm getting is a close up look, taste and feel of my own equipment. I still had the taste of him in my mouth and my lips felt sore and chapped from all the motion.
I told Jason I needed a drink so I got up and started walking to the kitchen. "You can bring me a soda too. And maybe some chips. I feel hungry all of a sudden. I guess all that activity made me hungry. How about you?"
"No. I'm not hungry at all."
"I guess I filled your tummy up with all my love juices."
I wanted to barf. I can't believe he's talking about his love juices. It was his disgusting sperm that I swallowed. "Yes. That's it. I'm filled with your love juices. You have some imagination."
When I returned carrying the sodas and chips, I took a big sip and felt a little better. I applied a little lipstick to soothe my chapped lips.
"Are you getting your lips ready for some more kissing? Or for something else?"
"Neither. They just felt a little chapped." I answered. I wanted to smack him right then and there. I knew I had to figure out a way to get back at him for what he made me do. I was totally annoyed with Jason and his total lack of compassion for me. He was so totally selfish but like mom always said, "What goes around comes around."
As I sat there on the couch getting more and more annoyed, I heard the back door slam and Mikey bounded into the room. "So what are you two up to?" He asked innocently enough.
If only he knew. "Nothing. We're just watching the boob tube." It was then that I realized Queer Eye for the Straight Guy was playing. That was pretty funny in a way.
Fortunately for me, Jason and I were not alone for the next two days. I felt funny as we said goodbye knowing that our relationship had undergone significant change this past week. I wasn't sure if that would end up being good or bad but I felt more bad than good at the present.
There were only two weeks left to summer. Usually I hated when summer ended but not this year. I couldn't wait for it to end so I could start my new life at high school. Even if mom made me dress in these clothes after school, I would have a lot of time to be a guy again.
The week after Jason left mom told me she wanted to take me out for the day. She told me to wear one of my nicer skirts and a sleeveless blouse. I asked her what we were doing but she wouldn't tell me. I got dressed in a nice taupe skirt with a multi-colored top. Since it was warm I wore my beige wedgies. Mom was dressed similarly. Mom grabbed her purse and a folder and off we went. Our first stop was a nice restaurant for lunch. During lunch mom told me how proud she was of my behavior.
"Danielle, you've done very well this summer. Your behavior is vastly improved. You've learned to clean your room and take care of your clothing properly. Your pride in your appearance is also very noticeable. And you've been a big help to me in the kitchen as well. You've made me proud."
I was elated. Mom was happy with me. That was a nice feeling. I was hoping Mom would tell me she was ending my punishment. Boy, was I wrong.
"But I now have a dilemma. Do I take a chance and let you go to high school as planned where you will be with your old troublemaker friends or should we find ways to build on all your hard earned progress? Now I know you won't this but I decided you should not attend regional high. I also decided that I do not want to force you to continue living your life as a girl if you choose otherwise. But you do need to attend a school that will continue to help you develop into a good citizen and a contributor to our society. So, I'm giving you the choice between two schools."
"Mom, are they two girls schools?"
"No. They're not. Here's the paperwork for your first choice. It's the Bridgeton Military Academy."
"A Military School? It says here that I would have to board full time. That's not cool. And they wear uniforms."
"Well, you may want to look at your other choice. It's Mount Saint Mary's."
"That's a girls school, mom. I thought you said they weren't girls' schools. I don't want to go to either one. I want to go to regional."
"Regional is out of the question. And only one choice is a girl's only school. Mount Saint Mary's has a wonderful reputation. And they have a really good girl's soccer program too. You have to decide on either Mount Saint Mary's or Bridgeton."
I guess I would pick Bridgeton if I had to." I answered a little uncertainly since the Military Academy would be no picnic either.
Mom seemed disappointed. "Okay, honey. Right after lunch we have to go over and register and get you fitted for the cadet uniform. I made appointments for today at both schools depending on your decision."
"Register today? Uniforms? I have to go home and change first."
"Honey, you know my rules. No boys' clothing for you for the summer. Besides, there isn't enough time to for you to change anyway. Our appointment is in one hour. And you look cute just as you are.."
"Mom, I may look fine to you but I can't go to the academy dressed like this today. Those guys over there don't fool around. Larry's brother went there and he said it was really hard. They'll kill me if I show up like this."
"Well, unfortunately there isn't anything else I can do. Today is the final day at both schools for registration so we have to go to your choice right after lunch. So if your choice is Bridgeton's I'll have to call Saint Mary's and cancel our appointment."
"Mom, wait. Don't call yet. You know I can't go to the Academy dressed like this. You're forcing me to choose a girl's school."
"Honey, I'm not forcing you to do anything. You have the two choices right in front of you so have to pick one now. I have to go to the ladies room so you'll have a few minutes to decide. We need to get moving as soon as I get back."
She left me sitting there looking at the two alternatives. One would provide a cruel, quick end to my embarrassment. The cadets would kill me for sure. The other choice would lead to many years of being trapped further into this feminine web. I knew there was no way I could ever show up at Bridgeton today wearing this outfit, with my hair femininely styled and my face all made up. Mom knew it too. I was trapped once again.
"So?"
"I have to go to Saint Mary's, mom. I can't believe you're going to send me to a girl's high school. I'll never be able to get away with it."
"Oh stop complaining. I'm not making you go anywhere. You decided but I must say that I'm really happy with your decision, sweetheart. All I had to do was to change your name and gender on the school record so you'll be fine. I hoped that would choose Saint Mary's. I'll call Bridgeton and cancel your appointment. I really think Mount Saint Mary's is the better choice for you anyway. And of course you will fit in very well there with all the girls just like you did in ballet class. Face it, Danielle. You're really very feminine, so you'll fit it fine. And with your grades you will definitely be accepted. Now, why don't you go to the bathroom and freshen up before we leave. Our appointment with the admissions office is for 2:00 pm. Okay, sweetie?"
"Yes, mommy." I answered realizing that the decision was final. I knew then and there that I would be attending a girl's high school.
As I stood looking at myself in the bathroom mirror, I was in shock. First, it was wearing girls clothing, then it was going shopping and being forced to take ballet lessons and participate in a dance recital. Then came my deflowering with Jason, not once but twice. I had to face the embarrassment of my dad's visit and the constant harassment from my brother. And now, I was faced with this latest twist of attending a girl's high school. How did this happen? Could I have altered my fate? Could I still? I doubted it. Mom was a very strong willed women and I was increasingly becoming more and more compliant. I suspected the change in my vitamins had something to do with my calmer demeanor.
The drive over to Mount Saint Mary's was really strange. I honestly could not believe this was all about to happen. When we pulled into the school's parking lot, I was practically frozen with fear as I opened the door to exit. Mom gently brushed my hair away from my face and told me to relax and just be myself.
What a laugh that was! Be myself? She had to be kidding. Here I was all dressed up as a teenage girl preparing to register to attend an all girls' high school. When we entered the admissions office, a woman wearing some kind of nun's dress greeted us. After exchanging some pleasantries with mom, she led us into an office. Mom sat down in a side chair and the lady told me to sit down in front of the desk.
"Why don't you sit right here, dear."
I sat down demurely. I smoothed my skirt under me and femininely crossed my legs at the ankles. My hands were neatly folded in my lap. Mom's constant training over the past four months or so was very evident in all my mannerisms. I was surprised at how extremely well coached in the art of feminine behavior I was.
This was even more surprising since I found the entire process to be extremely nerve racking.
"Danielle, I looked over your transcript and your grades have been very good with just one little blip in seventh grade. I find lots of young girls experience some minor growing pains at that age. Going from a girl to a young lady is a difficult time for any girl."
Oh great, I thought. She's going to start talking about my period next.
"Yes, madam."
"Well, everything looks in order so welcome to Mount Saint Mary's, Danielle."
How could you be welcoming me to Mount Saint Mary's? As I stood up, I lifted up my skirt for all to see. Look, see this. I'm not a damn girl. I'm a boy. A BOY. I may be wearing panties but you can see what's under my panties, can't you? Now what do you have to say about that. Do you still want me to attend your dumb girls school? I'm sure I'll be a big hit. I could see my mom's face turn red with anger and embarrassment as I continued to run around the office with my skirt held high above my waist. Mom was so shocked she was speechless. Meanwhile the nun was shouting at us to get out of her office.
"Danielle."
"Danielle, say thank you to Sister Catherine, honey."
Awaking from my little daydream, I did as mom said and thanked the sister for accepting me into her school.
"Now there are a few other things for us to review. I've compiled some material for you on some of the school's activities and programs. I'm sure you will find a lot of things to interest a young lady."
"Oh, thank you." I said as I accepted the folder.
And here's a little paper on our dress code and uniform. All of our students are required to wear the Mount Saint Mary uniform. Are you familiar with our uniform, dear?"
Uniform? I never really thought about that. "No, madam, I'm not."
"All of our girls are required to wear pleated skirts, white blouses, either long sleeve or short, white knee high socks and saddle shoes. The skirt length is not to be higher than three inches above the knee. Some of our girls wear pantyhose in addition to the knee socks, especially in the colder months. If you decide to do that, the hose have to be either nude or black. No other colors are allowed. There are also some recommendations on personal grooming, things such as hairstyles, nail lengths, make up and other things in here. But I am sure none of these requirements will be of any concern for such a sweet girl. Oh, Mrs. Exner, there's also a list of the stores that carry all of the uniforms and the prices." Turning back to me, she continued. "Do you have any questions, dear?"
Questions? Yeah, why the hell are you letting a boy attend your dumb school? Telling me I'm a sweet girl. Can't you tell that I'm a boy? You must be blind as a bat if you can't see this bat in my panties.
"No madam. I don't have any questions."
"Well then we'll see you in two weeks for the start of the school year, dear. I'm sure you'll enjoy it here."
"Yes, madam. Thank you. I'm sure I will enjoy it here too." I lied.
"Congratulations, honey." Mom said, as she gave me a little hug.
Sister Catherine took us for a quick tour of the school making sure to show me my homeroom. By the time we left I was still in a state of utter disbelief. I had just enrolled in a girls' high school. I would be spending the next four years impersonating a girl. And stealing a few things from the store caused all of this. What a punishment!
It was now past four, so the uniform stores would be closed. "I guess we can go tomorrow or Friday and get you all set up."
I forgot about the uniforms. But I guess they couldn't be any worse than my ballerina stuff. Nothing could be that bad.
So the next day found mom and me at The Uniform Store. I felt that familiar knot in my stomach as we walked into the store. Mom told the clerk what we were looking for and she showed us the Saint Mary's uniform. The skirt was kind of a gray, black and green plaid pattern with pleats. The clerk suggested I try on in the dressing room to see how it fit. I took it and tried it on one. It was really goofy looking due to the skirt length. It was much longer than any of the skirts I wore all summer. The sales lady must have noticed my reaction because she immediately mentioned the length.
"Most of the girls have the skirt shortened. Trust me, it looks much cuter after alterations. We can take it up to three inches above your knee if you like."
"Yes, that will be fine. How many skirts do most of the students purchase?" Mom questioned.
As the sales lady marked the new hemline on my skirt, she answered mom's questions. "Most of the girls purchase three for freshman year. Then they add one or two in later years."
"And blouses?" Mom asked.
"Usually the girls buy more of those. Maybe three short sleeved and three long sleeved. That way you don't have to do laundry every day or two. I'd recommend buying at least a half dozen knee-highs too. And most girls buy two pairs of the saddle shoes."
"That will be fine."
"I'll get your order all pulled together. Our seamstress can alter her skirts right now. It only takes a few minutes to raise the hemline. And you look like a medium in blouse size and about a size seven in shoes. Is that right, honey?"
"Yes, madam. Size 7 should be fine." I answered.
"Okay. Give me about a half an hour to get everything ready. You can look around at some of our accessories in the back if you'd like."
Thirty minutes later we left The Uniform Store with a few bags of clothing. In addition to my uniforms, mom purchased a few pairs of white panties and bras, a school sweater, and a few pairs of the recommended pantyhose shades. Mom even made me buy a girl's book bag. Oh yeah, I almost forgot one other thing that was on the list. I also had to buy stupid girls gym uniform and white sneakers. The gym uniform was a one piece with bloomers on the bottom and a button up top in a really pale shade of blue. It was so queer.
As soon as we got home mom insisted that I go up stairs and try on my uniform. I only tried in on piecemeal in the store and mom wanted to see how cute I looked. As I was in my room changing I heard my brother come home. Oh great I thought. Now I have to put up with him again too. By now I was standing there in my white knee high socks and my panties and bra. I slipped on my short sleeve school blouse and stepped into my pleated skirt. The only thing remaining was to put on my saddle shoes. I stood there totally dressed in my new Mount Saint Mary's schoolgirl uniform in a state of utter humiliation and disbelief. I could hear my mom calling me.
"Honey, are you almost ready?"
Taking a deep breath, I walked down stairs to face mom and Mikey wearing my stupid uniform. I wasn't sure if mom told Mikey about this latest situation but I could tell by his surprised look he wasn't aware of my change in schools.
"Oh honey, that uniform looks precious on you. Turn around for mommy. Oh, that's really too cute for words. How do your shoes feel? Do they pinch?"
I felt like a total sissy turning around for my mother. She was treating me more and more like her precious little girl and I responding. As I turned back to face them both, Mikey blurted out, "What's all this? You look like a catholic schoolgirl in that getup. Don't tell me you're going to a girls school now."
"Danielle decided that she wants to attend Mount Saint Mary's this fall." Turning towards me, she turned the screw. "That was your decision, wasn't it, honey?"
'Yes, but you"
"No buts. You had a choice of going to either an all boy school or an all girl school and you choose Saint Mary's. That's all there is to it."
"Well, I kind of had a choice but not really."
"Danielle, you know very well you had a choice and you made it all by yourself."
"This is too much. My brother is going to an all girl school. What a hoot. And mom's right. You do look precious in your school girl uniform."
"Oh shut up, you dumb ass." I shouted as I tried to slap him in his face.
"Danielle. What do you think you're doing? Such language and trying to hit your brother is very unbecoming behavior for a young lady. You apologize to your brother right now or you will be going to regional high dressed exactly as you are now. I'm sure your friends will just love seeing you going to high school in your catholic schoolgirl uniform. Or perhaps you'd want to wear your new girls' gym uniform instead. Now apologize to your brother this instant, young lady."
I hated it when she called me young lady. That sounds even dumber than calling me a girl. Young lady sounded so prissy and she called me that in front of Mikey. And now I even had to apologize to my stupid brother when he was the one that started it. I couldn't even face him so I looking down at the floor as I mumbled a weak apology.
"I'm sorry for swearing at you and trying to hit you."
"No big deal. You looked just like a girl trying to smack me. I'm sure it wouldn't have hurt." It was almost like he was the big brother now and I was in the role of the younger sibling, a girl sibling at that.
And so the stage was set for the next step in my life. I could only imagine what the next year would be like.
Mom and I had to take care of some loose strings before school started.. Mom had me (Danny) call a few of my old baseball buddies to tell them I was going to be moving in with my dad and going to school there. That way no one would suspect anything. I (Danielle) also had to call Karen and tell her that I decided to stay with my mom and that I would be attending Mount Saint Mary's. Karen was excited that we would be able to continue our friendship even though she would be attending regional high.
During the final few weeks of summer, mom continued to work with me on my feminine actions, demeanor, traits and behaviors to ensure that my transition to Mount Saint Mary's would be a smooth one. The final days of summer raced by and as I fell asleep I realized tomorrow was the first day of classes at Mount Saint Mary's. As I lay in bed waiting for dawn, I didn't sleep very well between my nerves and the curlers mom put in my hair last night. I hated it when mom set my hair especially since my stupid brother always teased me. Even I had to admit that I looked really dumb in curlers and even worse, they were so uncomfortable. But mom wouldn't accept no for an answer. She wanted to make sure my hair looked cute for my first day of high school. Cute wasn't exactly what I wanted to look like on my first day of high school. After setting my hair, mom decided we should have a beauty night to get me ready for school. As I sat relaxing in the tub I noticed that my body hair seemed not to be growing as fast or as dark as it first did but I didn't really think too much of it. After drying off I slipped on my nightgown and robe and joined mom in her room. We applied some different lotions to our legs, arms and body so that our skin felt soft and silky. We also gave ourselves a manicure and pedicure. I had to use a light shade of pink on my fingernails since Mount Saint Mary's didn't allow its girls (I mean students) to wear dark shades of polish or lipstick. Evidently dark shades were not considered lady-like.
Mom was busy talking to me about school and stuff all night long. She was all excited that I was starting high school and growing up. Me, I was just worried that I would get caught impersonating a girl and everyone would make fun of me. I always thought attending high school would be so cool. You know, hanging out with my friends, fooling around in the hallways and just having a good time. I thought I would be playing sports on a few of the freshman teams and maybe even have a girlfriend. There was little chance of that happening in my current mode of dress. The only girlfriends I would have would really be girl friends. Thinking of girlfriends also brought back thoughts of Jason and what he did to me. I would never treat my girlfriend like that. He was so mean. Even though a few weeks have passed since that episode, I still was very upset that he forced me to have sex with him. He may have thought it was voluntary but I knew better. There was no way I would have ever done that if he didn't threaten to expose me to my friends. I would definitely figure out a way to get even.
But I had other things on my mind this evening. Sitting in my mother's bedroom with curlers in my hair, polish on my fingernails and toenails, body lotion all over my arms and hairless legs, I had other worries. Tomorrow I will have to get up, get ready for school and spend my first day as a Mount Saint Mary's freshman. Even the term freshman made me laugh. There was nothing man about it. I would be all girl tomorrow from the skin out.
As I said earlier, sleep came with some difficulty that night. I was up bright and early for my shower since I felt a bit sweaty from all the tossing and turning. Upon returning to my room, I knew I had to get ready for school. By now it was second nature for me to step into my panties and hook my bra into place. I've been doing those things for some months now. Today under my panties I wore a nude color, spandex thong. Mom suggested I should start wearing one every day since it would very nicely hide certain anatomical parts.
I sat down on the bed and slipped on my white knee high socks with the MSM monogram on the top. The socks were a thin nylon and seemed very girlish to me. In a way they seemed even more feminine than wearing pantyhose since they were much more visible to the eye. Anyone would be able to see that I would be wearing girl's knee-highs from quite far away. But then again I would be wearing a girl's blouse and a schoolgirl skirt so it really didn't seem to matter very much. I felt so nervous that nothing seemed to matter very much.
After putting on my uniform, I sat down at my vanity and removed the rollers from my hair. I tried to comb it out in a style that mom showed me. It wasn't as good as she did it but it looked ok. I then applied a little mascara to my lashes and a touch of pink lipstick to my lips to complete my transformation.
As I stood and looked at my reflection in the mirror, I did see a schoolgirl. I looked like any other girl on her way to classes. I grabbed my new book bag, got my purse and headed downstairs for breakfast.
Mikey was sitting at the table and mom was by the refrigerator. "Honey, you look very nice in your uniform and you did wonderfully with your hair. You even put a scrunchy in it. How cute! My little girl looks all grown up on her first day of high school. Why don't you sit down? I have your cereal right here. Don't forget to smooth out your skirt. Those pleated skirts look terrible when they get all wrinkled."
I hated it when mom said dumb things like that to me in front of my stupid brother. I wanted to scream at her that I was her son and not her little girl but I didn't utter a word. I sat down silently at the table as mom placed a bowl of cold cereal in front of me. I sure didn't feel very hungry but I just sat there and forced myself to eat something. I felt like a total fool sitting there across from my brother who was wearing jeans and a tee shirt. Last year at this time I would have been wearing the exact same thing, but not today. Today I was totally dressed in girl's clothing from the skin out. I so wanted to go to regional high but today I was going to a girl's school. He knew it. I knew it. He didn't make things any easier either. Every time I looked over at him he made some kind of stupid gesture or just gave me a silly grin.
As I tried to eat a little more of my cereal, mom announced it was time to go. She would take Mikey to school with her since he was still in her school. She would drop me off at the bus stop on her way. I had to pick up my purse and school bag as we all walked out together. Mikey got in the front seat with mom and I just quietly sat in the back like the good girl I was fast becoming. I hardly ever showed any aggression when it came to my brother or for that matter, anyone else. It was just easier to let my brother have his way.
The bus stop was a few blocks from our house. I was so nervous that I wished the car seat would swallow me up. As our car approached the corner, mom stopped to allow me to get out. I could see one other girl wearing her uniform already there waiting for the bus. As I stepped from the car, mom called me over to her window.
"Honey, relax and enjoy your first day of school. Everything will be just fine. Just remember everything you've learned this summer and you'll be fine. Call me right after school, ok, sweetie? You have everything you need in your purse? Money? Your keys?"
Yes mom, I have everything. I'll call you right after school."
Mikey had to get it one last dig as well.
"Yeah, those purses are so handy. You can keep all your make up and stuff in them. Have fun at school with all your new girlfriends."
As they drove off, I slowly walked over to the bus stop. My high school life was about to start in earnest. From that moment on, I knew my life would never be the same. I remember how nervous I was as I approached my fellow student at the bus stop. I remember how nervous I was as our bus pulled up to the stop. I could feel my heart racing as the door opened and Sally and I mounted the stairs. I noticed her pleated skirt shifting gently as she walked up the steps to the bus and how cute she looked in her white knee-highs. I could even see a little bit of her thighs. Then I remembered that I probably looked just as cute in mine and other girls and even worse boys would be checking me out as well.
I remember sitting down in our seats and hearing the clatter, as 20 young girls were all eagerly chatting about their summers. Then din was deafening. And here I was in their midst. Even though I spent a good part of the past six months dressing and impersonating a girl, this was a much more intense experience. During the summer, I spent a great deal of my time as a girl alone or with family. While I did go to dance class, those sessions were short and for the most part we just danced. We didn't really interact that much with each other. Besides that, most of the other girls were younger so I had an advantage. While I did spend some one on one time with Karen, I felt totally unprepared for my present situation.
I can remember how unsteady my legs felt as I debarked from the bus and entered into the main entrance of Mount Saint Mary's and headed off to my homeroom. I took a seat and awaited my fate.
I remember how strange it felt during that first role call. I can still hear sister telling us to say present and stand as she called out each girl's name. I hated the thought that I would be included in that roll call as one of the girls. When I heard her call Danielle Exner, I cringed but managed to say 'present, sister' as I rose from my seat. Indeed, I was now one of the girls. After sister finished with the roll call, she told us to take our seats. Evidently displeased with the way we all sat, she made us all stand up and try to sit like young ladies. "Here at Mount Saint Mary's we expect our students to act like young ladies. Now, try to sit like young ladies. Smooth your skirts before sitting and then cross your feet at the ankles. And please girls, keep those knees together." After a brief pause, we all took our seats for the second time. I had a lot of practice sitting like a girl these past few weeks, but I still felt really silly doing it with about 20 other teenage girls.
"That was much better, girls. Just remember you're expected to sit like young ladies at all times."
I knew right then and there that girl would be a term I would be hearing quite often.
That first week of school was filled with a lot of firsts for me. I had my first time in the cafeteria sitting with a few other freshman girls. I had my first visit to the girl's room in my new school. Unlike my few previous experiences in ladies room, this time the room was filled with a bunch of girls all having to pee at the same time. I can remember sitting down in the stall and seeing girls similarly attired on both sides of me. As I peed I couldn't help but notice my panties down by my knees, knowing that the girls on each side of me were doing the same thing.
I remember so many awkward moments those first few days. The rides to and from school on the bus, the constant worry of living my make believe life, the fear of slipping up and saying something wrong or doing something out of character. I remembered getting my class schedule, my books with the Mount Saint Mary's covers and the list of extra-curricular activities available after school. In addition to a few sports things, the schedule included lots of traditional girl things, like cooking, sewing, needlepoint and art. I knew mom would insist that I participate in one or more of these activities.
I remember some of those first conversations with different groups of girls. As they talked about fashion, music, clothing, accessories, hairstyles, feminine hygiene, I realized how little I truly knew about being a girl. I may be wearing panties and a bra but I knew next to nothing about being a girl and about the things that interested them. I knew I needed mom's help more than ever if I was to be successful in keeping my secret. For a brief instant I figured who cares, let them catch me. But then I realized how embarrassing that would be now. I'd be exposed as some kind of queer or something in two different schools. All my old school friends would know and so would all the other girls at Mount Saint Mary's. I'd be laughed right out of the state. So with each passing week, I became more and more concerned and worried about being exposed. I had so much more to lose now than ever before.
But anyway, mom was so pleased when I told her all about my worries and doubts about really knowing what it is like to be a girl. Mom gave me a hug and told me not to worry. She promised that she would spend lots of time educating me on the finer aspects of feminine knowledge and behavior. I wasn't too sure I really wanted to know all this stuff but I also knew I didn't want to be exposed as a boy, especially a boy in an all girl school.
And so my advanced training began. Although I have been dressing as a girl for months I soon realized how little I knew about girl's clothing. Just take tops, for example. As Danny my tops were either dress shirts or tee shirts. That was it. As Danielle, I had to know about blouses, styles, buttons, collars, fabrics, etc. I had to know the difference between a sleeveless shell and a tube top, a dressy top with spaghetti straps versus an off the shoulder top. I had to know about different necklines. There were v-necks, cowl necks, turtle necks, crew necks, scooped necks, peasant blouses, just to name a few. Even sleeve lengths were all over the place. Then I had to learn which fabrics were dressy and which were considered casual and what you had to wear under both types.
As Danny I wore either pants or shorts. Life wasn't nearly that simple for a girl. In addition to shorts and pants, there were short shorts, capris, high rider jeans, low-rider jeans, boot cut, regular cut, even stretch pants. Skirts and dresses were also not so straightforward. There were different styles, different lengths, different cuts, and they all had to be considered.
So you think socks were the same? Think again. Girls have all kinds of different foot things. Naturally, girls wear regular socks just like boys but then girls have trouser socks, short socks, floppy socks and those goofy socks with the little balls in the back. And then there are knee-highs, thigh-highs, stockings and pantyhose. And of yeah, your socks have to be the exact same shade as your top so you match.
Nothing was simple for a girl. Even their monthly calendar was different. Girls had a monthly cycle that caused their bodies to change. They got PMS, cramps, bloating, upset stomachs and then they bled for 6 or 7 days. The early days were heavy flow days, according to mom. Now I had to deal with heavy flow days, too? And for that entire time, girls had to wear sanitary napkins between their legs that they have to change every few hours so they don't get blood on their panties. Mom said I should mark my cycle on the calendar so I would know when I would be due for my period, too. She also made me wear sanitary pads for those weeks so I could better sympathize with my fellow students. They weren't very comfortable especially in the warmer weather. That's when I learned about all the personal hygiene products that were available. That was one embarrassing shopping trip to the drug store with mom. I wanted to hide that day but I knew I had to learn this stuff to be successful..
So, you can see I had quite an education outside the classroom as well as inside the class.
Mom insisted that I do a few extra curricular things after school. Therefore, I enrolled in a sewing class and a jazzercise class at my ballet school with Mrs. Taylor.
The sewing class was a little embarrassing. The first week mom and I had to go out to a fabric store and select a dress pattern and some material. And mom insisted we stop one afternoon after we picked up my brother. I was mortified as mom looked through all the dress patterns specifically for young teenage girls. All of the dresses were fairly short since that was the current rage. After we finally settled on a beginner pattern we had to pick out the fabric. Mom insisted I pick out something every feminine so we only looked at the lightest pastel shades in some lightweight cotton, silk and linen. We settled on a few choices and then mom asked Mikey which one he thought would look the cutest. Aughh. How could she do that to me?
Naturally sewing was a new experience for me. In class we each partnered up with another student since we were to work in pairs. I partnered with Gloria. The first step in dressmaking is to take accurate measurements so Gloria and I had to measure each other. Gloria was very petite but it appeared she had a nice shape hidden behind her schoolgirl uniform. When she measured me I was surprised that my measurements were not significantly different than hers. My waist was a 27, my hips were a 28 and my chest was a 32. I noticed recently that my breasts were even budding a little and I was now filling my A cup bra.
That night I told mom about my breasts. "Mom, my breasts were almost as big as Gloria's. How is that possible?"
"Are you sure, honey?"
"Yes, I'm sure. We measured each other so I'm positive. Sister showed us how to properly measure both our chest and our cup size. Besides, I'm filling out my bra now. I'm going to change now anyway so you can see for yourself." I then stepped out of my skirt and unbuttoned my school blouse.
"Well I'm not really sure. They do look a little puffy but they're certainly not filling out your bra and that cup size is the smallest. Maybe your chest is a little irritated from wearing bras all the time. I'm sure its nothing to worry about. In fact, it's a blessing in disguise since it helps you blend in some much better with all the other girls. I mean you all are at the age when you start to blossom into young women. This is such an exciting time for young ladies. Before you know it, the boys will be chasing after all you girls."
"Mom, I don't want breasts and I sure don't want any boys chasing after me. That's all I need."
Mom tried to assure me that all this was quite normal. "Well, don't panic. Let's just see how things develop for a while. Many boys your age experience minor breast development since your hormonal balance is shifting. It's all quite normal. In fact I think I see a little hair on your legs, too. Have you started to sprout any hairs down below?" She said as she pointed to my panties.
I'm sure I blushed a bright red as I answered her. "Mom! Of course I have some hair there. I'm not a baby anymore."
"Well, I know my little girl isn't a baby anymore. I'm not blind. But you do know girls groom down there."
I wanted to debate this little girl thing with her but I was much more concerned about grooming. Besides how could I argue with her anymore about being a girl? I mean, just look at me.
"Groom?"
"Yes, groom. Trim it back a little and shave it into a little patch. Lots of women get bikini waxes, too. Let me see."
I really didn't like the sound of a bikini wax even though I wasn't too sure of what it was. Mom then started staring at my panties and she said she could see a few hairs sticking out the sides a little.
"See those little hairs. That's what I'm talking about. And you have a few hairs right over here below your belly button. All those have to go. Girls don't like to be hairy. And I can see that you'll have to start shaving your legs and underarms, too. You can't go running around with a hairy body. That's very unladylike. Come on. I'll show you how to shave your legs and underarms now. You'll have to shave down below but I'll have to tell you what to do."
Mom took me into the bathroom and had me sit on the side of the tub and wet my legs. She then lathered my legs with shaving cream and showed me how to glide the razor up my legs. She then let me do a few strokes on my own. I nicked myself once by the knee. I could not believe that I was now shaving my legs like any other teenage girl.
"Slow down. This isn't a race. You have to be careful by your knees and ankles especially. Ok, now for down below. Use these scissors and trim your hair down a bit so it's not too bushy. Then shave that area into a little triangle patch, like this." She said as she traced a little triangle on the tub. "Then put on a lot of water and cream and shave this entire area so that you don't have any hairs sticking out your panties. That looks so gross. And for God's sake, go slow and be careful. Call me when you're done."
After mom left, I filled the tub with a little water and after removing my panties, gently sat down in the warm bath water. I didn't really have all that much hair there yet so I decided not to use the scissors but I knew I had to shave. I liberally spread the shaving cream all over my groin and very, very gingerly began to shave off my straggly hairs and shaped my patch into a little odd shape. After about fifteen minutes or so, I finally finished with no nicks or cuts but I did feel a little sore and chaffed. I dried off, put on clean panties and called mom.
After she looked carefully at my legs, underarms and groin, she said I did really well.
I was relieved that she didn't ask me to drop my panties so she could see how well I did. I would have been so embarrassed by that. I hated it when I saw myself naked anymore. I was very feminine looking from the waist up and from my feet to my upper thighs. The only thing not feminine was what was between my legs. It was all so very confusing. When mom first made me dress, I felt like a boy trapped into girl's clothing. Now I felt much more like a girl with male equipment between my legs. I mean most of the time I really felt like a real girl since I was totally immersed into femininity all day, every day. Yet whenever I was naked I was starkly aware that I was still a boy.
"Here, honey. Put on some of this lotion. It will help reduce some of the razor burn and the chance of ingrown hairs. Plus it will help to put back a lot of the moisture you lose when you shave. It will make your legs look extra pretty so make sure you always do this every time you shave."
"Okay. I will mom." I had to admit that my legs did look so much nicer now. I guess I didn't realize how much peach fuzz I had. My legs looked so much smoother and they actually glistened from the lotion.
I still wasn't so sure of her logic about my budding breast but I figured she must know more than me so I forgot about it for a while. And I had to admit that having an A cup did help me pass at some critical times. I still wondered if those vitamins she gave me every morning were partially to blame.
Anyway, after another dozen or so sewing classes, we all managed to complete our dresses and were allowed to bring them home. Actually most of our dresses came out looking better than we all expected. I hated it when I found out each of us girls had to model our dress at the final class with our partner. Then all of us got to vote on the best ones. Gloria was really into sewing and she was anxious to win the vote.
"Hey, make sure you bring your heels and pantyhose tomorrow for the class. I think we should get dressed up a little to show off our dresses better. I don't think the other girls are doing that so we may have an edge. I may even wear a cool hat if I can find one that looks right."
I wasn't really into getting all dressed up like that but I knew it was important to Gloria. The next day I felt a little strange bringing my high heels and pantyhose to school but I did it anyway. Naturally the next morning in the car, mom noticed I had an extra bag and she asked me what I had. I didn't want to answer her with my stupid brother being there but what could I do.
"It's a pair of heels and pantyhose."
"Why do you need that?"
"Well, we finished our sewing project and we have to show each other our dress."
"Oh, how sweet. You all get to model your dresses. Did your dress come out really nice, honey?"
Mikey was now laughing at the thought of me modeling a dress I made. I really hated it when Mom talked about feminine things to me when he was around. It was so embarrassing.
"It came out okay I guess."
"Make sure you bring it home today. Mikey and I would love to see it, right Mikey?"
"Sure Mom." He said laughingly.
That afternoon each pair of girls got up and showed off their dresses. When it was almost our turn Gloria and I headed off to the girls room to change. I had to admit it felt very weird to be in the girl's room with Gloria as she started removing her school uniform. I too started to remove my blouse and skirt and then we were both standing there in our bra and panties. Most guys would kill to be in this situation. I mean here I was with a really cute girl and she was peeling off her clothes right in front of me. And the fact that she was wearing the prettiest bra and panties made it even more alluring. We both struggled with our pantyhose since they're not the easiest things to put on when you're trying to balance on one foot. But somehow in the midst of all our giggling we did manage to get them up. I was so thankful that Mom had me wearing those really tight thongs under my panties since they insured nothing ever showed even at times like this. I would die if Gloria ever thought I was a boy.
After we zipped each other up we gave each other a final look. Gloria looked so good in her dress. It fit her perfectly and really showed off her figure. It was kind of funny but in our uniforms none of us look like we have any shape at all. After slipping on our heels, Gloria gave me a big hug as we wished each other good luck. We headed back to class. All the other girls were hooting and laughing since we went to an obvious extreme to increase our chances to win. However, we only came in second but we still were proud. Sister gave us each a little silver thimble as our prize.
As we were leaving class that afternoon, Gloria asked me if I was doing anything on Saturday. "It's my birthday and my mom said it was okay if I invited a few girlfriends over to celebrate. I hope you can come. Can you?"
I couldn't think of a reason fast enough to say no, so I just agreed. "Sure, I can come."
"Great. Carol, Mary Beth, Anna and Traci all are coming too. We'll have fun. And don't forget to bring your pajamas. Mom said everyone could sleep over."
Oh my God. How would I ever pull this off? A pajama party with five girls was more than I was prepared for.
When I got home that day I told mom all about the final class and how we came in second. After dinner, Mom insisted that I change into my dress so her and my brother could see it on me. I wanted to ask Mom's advice on how to get out of the pajama party but I was too embarrassed to even mention it in front of my brother.
I hated lots of things about being trapped in this feminine world but the thing I still hated the most was having Mikey see me in all these embarrassing situations. As I changed from my school uniform into my dress I knew tonight promised to be another one of those for sure.
Since I still had on my pantyhose from earlier it only took me a few minutes to change. I also just put on the same heels I brought to school. When I walked into the family room, my mother and brother were sitting watching television.
"Oh honey. That dress looks so cute on you. Turn around so I can see the back.
So I did a little pirouette without even thinking about it. It was just another example of how I was becoming more and more immersed in my feminine life.
Oh my God, it's adorable. You did such a good job. Mikey, can you believe Danielle made that dress all by herself? Don't you think she did a great job on it?"
"Yeah. I guess. I can't believe she would want to sew like that. It's way too girly for me. I prefer doing guy things."
"Danielle, tell your brother about the little show you girls had to put on today at school."
So now I had to recount the story about trying on the dress, modeling it before the other girls and the vote.
"You mean you had to change in front of another girl?"
"Of course. Your sister fits in totally with all the girls at school. She's even getting a cute little shape. Can't you tell? Any young girl would be proud of that figure, isn't that right honey?"
"Mom! Some things are personal, you know." I was afraid that she would tell him about my budding breasts, which would have been horrible.
"Sorry honey. I know some things are sensitive for young ladies. We'll just keep it between us girls."
"I can't believe you get to see other girls in their underwear and stuff. That's pretty cool."
Finally, Mikey had seen something about me that he liked. "Yes, I guess that is kind of cool." I responded.
"Well I guess it would be really cool if you weren't wearing the same stuff they are. And now you're even making stuff to wear. I know one thing for certain. When I get to see a girl in her underwear, I sure won't be wearing matching panties and a bra like you do. That's so faggy."
I wanted to tell him it wasn't but I knew that would be a lie. I knew he was 100% correct.
Later that evening after I got ready for bed, I knocked on my mom's bedroom door to talk to her.
"Mom, Gloria invited me to her birthday party this Saturday."
"Oh, honey, that's wonderful. I'm glad to see you're making friends. That's so nice."
"Mom! It's not nice. It's a pajama party. I can't go to a sleepover with five girls. You have to help me."
"Okay. I will. Don't worry. We'll buy a nice present and we can even get you new pajamas."
"I mean you have to help me get out of this. I can't go>"
"Stop fretting. You'll have so much fun. I remember how I loved having sleepovers with my girlfriends when I was your age. We laughed, we talked, we listened to music, we all practiced dancing and we talked about boys, boys, and more boys. The only thing we didn't do much is sleep. But you can sleep any night so it's fun to stay up all night for special sleepovers. We'll have to go shopping tomorrow to get everything you'll need. Oh this is so exciting. I can't wait to hear all about it." The next day after school mom insisted on taking me shopping. She said we had to buy Gloria something cute for her birthday and she wanted to buy me a few new things for the sleepover. So right after dinner mom and I drove over to the mall. Fortunately for me, Mikey was having dinner over one of his friends so I didn't have to put up with his incessant teasing.
Mom and I went to a few of the anchor stores to see if we could find something for Gloria. I wasn't too sure about her interests so we had to get some general. We looked at some clothing choices, some perfume and some jewelry choices. We finally decided on a really cute necklace and bracelet set that complimented the dress she made in class. I just knew she would really like it.
After we selected her present, mom focused the rest of the shopping trip on me. "Honey, you're going to need a new nightie and a cute pair of socks for bed and at least something new for you to wear on Sunday morning."
"Mom, why can't I just go over to Gloria's house for a few hours and then come home. Can't we think up an excuse so I could come home? I don't want to go to a girl's pajama party. I'll feel so dopey hanging around all night with a bunch of girls."
"Danielle, just stop it. It's natural for you to be a bit worried about new experiences but the only way to grow and mature is to try new things. I'm sure you'll be nervous but I'm also sure you will really have fun. Believe me, a pajama party with a few girlfriends is a joy well worth experiencing. You'll love it. So stop your complaining and let's find you something cute to wear for your big night."
I wasn't really in the mood for shopping but I knew mom was right. I knew I didn't want to wear my baby doll pajamas to Gloria's sleepover. I would feel really, really silly wearing something so sheer and feminine. So, getting new pajamas was a must and getting a new outfit for Sunday wasn't a bad idea either. Mom and I went to the sleepwear section and I was amazed at all the choices I had. There were shortie pajamas, baby dolls, long nightshirts, shorter nightshirts, footsie pajamas and of course regular ones. I quickly eliminated the baby dolls and was trying to decide between the styles of nightshirts. I finally settled on a short-sleeved, pale green one that ended at mid thigh. It was kind of cute with the bunny rabbit embroidered on the front. I thought it might look a little too young but mom thought it was perfect." And it even came with matching panties. I figured the extra protection wasn't a bad idea either. And we also found a cute pair of socks in the exact shade of green to complete my ensemble. As we paid for my purchases, I couldn't believe I would be wearing this pretty nightgown with five other girls similarly dressed. In a funny way my life could be like a dream for most guys. What teenage boy wouldn't want to spend the night with five girls, especially if they were all wearing pajamas or nightgowns?
After we paid for my pajamas, we headed over to the junior section where I picked out a few skirts and a couple of tops. Mom and I took all the items to the dressing room where I tried them each on. We finally settled on a cute, flippy, low riser skirt with a coordinated top. It was casual but in a nice way. I could even wear it to church on a Sunday morning or out to breakfast if we ended up doing that.
By the time we got home I felt really tired so I just went up to my room, took a shower, put on my baby doll pajamas and set my hair. I got into the habit of putting at least a few curlers in my hair most nights to give it some body. I guess I was used to them because they didn't either bother my sleeping any more.
The Friday night before the party, mom helped me wrap Gloria's birthday gift in some pretty paper. She also gave me one of her overnight bags to use. I was amazed at all the stuff I had to bring for just one night. In addition to my pajamas and my outfit for Sunday I needed to pack clean panties, bras, a different pair of sandals, some barrettes for my hair, a make up case with lipstick, mascara, some foundation and blush, some body lotion, perfume, a case for my jewelry, some facial cleansers and slippers. I felt like I was going away for the entire month. Before I would have only brought clean underwear and socks.
That Saturday morning mom and I were packing all my things when Mikey noticed all the commotion and asked what was going on.
"Danielle was invited to a birthday party sleepover at Gloria's tonight. We're just making sure everything she needs is packed and ready for her. You know girls need a lot more stuff than boys do, right, Danielle?"
Oh great. Now I had to explain to my dumb brother the trials and tribulations of a teenage girl's packing dilemma. Boys would never understand all the issues involved in putting together a girls' outfit.
"Yes, mom. Girls do need more stuff."
"I know honey. Just look at all the things you need as a girl. You need more hair care products, more creams and lotions for your face and body, more accessories, more shoes, more underwear and more clothing. So, Mikey, consider yourself lucky."
"Yeah, sure Mom. I'm not lucky; I'm just all boy. That's not reason for sympathy. It's a reason for joy. You're actually very fortunate that you're now on the right path I would just stay at home if I had to pack all that stuff for one night. And I would never wear any of that for even one second. One girl in the family is enough for me, right Danielle?"
I wanted to smack him in the face. He just had to rub it in my face every chance he got. He would never pack like me. He would never wear anything feminine or girlish. He wouldn't do this and he wouldn't do that. He was all boy and I was his dumb sister now.
My thoughts were interrupted by my mother's voice. "Honey, show your brother your pretty new nightshirt you're going to wear tonight at the sleepover. It's so adorable."
I didn't really want Mikey to see my stupid nightgown. I was sure he would have something mean to say.
"I'm not sure where it is, mom."
"It's right on top of your overnight bag, honey. I can see it from here. Take it out so Mikey can see how cute it is."
Of course she could see it. I'm sure she knew I knew where it was too. So I had no choice but to reach in the bag and removed my nightshirt with the matching panties still attached.
"See." I said as I held it up for my brother to examine.
Laughingly, he teased me just as I expected. "Oh, that is sooooooooo cute. I just love the little bunny. And it even has little matching panties. I'm sure you'll be the cutest GIRL at the party. I'm surprised you're not wearing one of your baby doll sets since you seem to like them so much."
"I don't like them that much. They're just cooler to sleep in, that's all. Besides, mom bought all those for me, anyway."
"Big deal. You wear them and that's all that matters. So, just go have a fun sleepover with all your silly girlfriends."
"Mikey that will be enough young man."
"I gotta go anyway, mom. You and Danielle don't need my help with all this girlie stuff. I'm going over Walt's for a while. We're going to play some video games."
"Okay, but don't be too late."
As soon as he left I was annoyed with my mother. "Mom, why do you insist on embarrassing me in front of him all the time. I hate it when you make me show him stuff like my dumb nightgown. It's bad enough that he sees me dressed like a girl all the time."
"You shouldn't be embarrassed at all. Your pajamas are cute, so what? That's not a big deal. After all he sees you all the time in your little baby doll sets that you wear every night. Besides I want him to appreciate all the work that goes into being a girl so that he learns to respect women better than your father ever did. He's still a bit young to appreciate everything we do to look nice but he will learn, as he gets a bit older. You should appreciate your femininity more. And remember he's younger and I'm sure he's just going through that awkward stage."
Now she's telling me about my stupid brother's awkward stage. This was unbelievable. After all I've gone through, it's hard for me to be sympathetic towards my brother. I mean after all I was the one going through tough times. You have to admit its awkward to be forced to wear girl's clothing. Going to a girl's ballet class is pretty awkward too. And let's not forget the awkwardness of attending an all girl high school. And I certainly think that any boy who has to sew a dress and then model it would find that experience a little embarrassing. Yet, it was my sweet little brother who was going through his awkward stage.
"Mom, don't make me laugh. He has no appreciation for what I've been going through. He thinks the whole thing is hilarious. I'm the one who should get the sympathy."
"Sympathy? Honey, you should feel honored. I mean you've been lucky enough to experience lots of unique things. Unique for a boy, that is. And you have matured so much in the past eight or nine months. You've gone from a self-centered ruffian to a beautiful young lady without missing a beat. You've developed self-confidence, grace and poise. You've dramatically improved your grades at school. You're associating with a much better class of friends now than those old friends of yours. That's not reason for sympathy. It's a reason for joy. You're actually very fortunate that you're now on the right path."
Right path? I really think my mom is wacky. I may be on the right path but I was on it in the wrong clothes and shoes. I never expected to be walking down the right path in dresses and high heels. But what was the sense in arguing with my mother? She already won the battle of the wills. I mean look at me and look at where I would be later today.
Dejectedly, I answered. "Sure, mom. I guess I am pretty lucky."
Mom gave me a hug. "Honey, I know at times this is difficult but you're doing wonderfully. Trust me, in time you will appreciate this entire experience more than you'll ever know. I'm so proud to have you as my daughter."
Mom planned to drive me over to Gloria's house. I was nervous in the car. This would be the ultimate challenge for me. I mean it's one thing to go to school and pass as a girl but it's quite a different thing to spend more than 24 hours with five girls, especially when we'd all be sleeping together. Mom sensed my nervousness.
"Danielle. Stop fretting. You're going to have a great time at your first slumber party. Just relax and go with the flow. Now promise me you'll relax and enjoy yourself."
"I will mom." We were now in front of Gloria's house. I got out of the car, grabbed my overnight bag and headed for the door. Mom waited until the door opened and Gloria and I went inside.
Within the next fifteen minutes all the girls arrived for the party. For some strange reason I discovered girls all scream whenever a new girl arrives. It was kind of silly but it was also fun in a crazy way. So after all our screaming, I now found myself hanging out with five other girls in the basement family room. The room was pretty large with some sofas and comfy chairs to lounge in. There was a lot of snack food on a few tables and there was a refrigerator filled with beverages. So we sure had enough food and soda for the night. And we had music since Gloria had her stereo blasting out some popular songs.
We all settled into den and before I realized it I was having a really fun time. We were all talking and singing, and just doing silly things. Gloria opened all her presents. She got some perfume, a few blouses, my necklace and pajamas. After we finished with the presents, Gloria's mom cooked us some hamburgers and hotdogs later and then we all settled in for the night.
I was a little apprehensive about changing clothes in front of the other girls. I wasn't sure if we'd each go change separately or if we'd all end up changing in one room. Mary Beth was the first to go into the bathroom but then Anna said there was no need to wait.
"I'm going to change right here. I want to get comfy."
With that the other girls all agreed and before I knew it everyone was starting to change right there in the open. Not wanting to look like a prude, I also started changing. I took off my blouse and pants which left be standing there in my bra and panties. I got my bag and took out my nightgown, which I quickly slipped over my head and lowered it in place. I was careful not to put my arms through the sleeves so I was able to remove my bra and drop it down. Once the nightgown was lowered I stepped out of my panties and then put on the matching pair. I must have changed in some record setting time since when I looked up the other girls were all in various stages of undress. Traci was standing there removing her bra. I was surprised at the size of her boobies. She made me look like a little kid. Anna was also standing there in just her panties too. I was trying not to stare but I couldn't help looking at them. They were both very pretty.
"Wow. Danielle, you must be a speed changer. I can't believe you have your nightie on already. Look at us, we're still practically naked."
"I guess I was kind of fast or you guys are just too slow."
"Can you get me my pajamas? They're right on top of my bag over there by you."
I opened Anna's bag and grabbed the light nylon gown on top and handed it to her.
"Thanks."
Her gown was short and very skimpy. It didn't leave much to the imagination for sure. She just tossed it on over her head and then tossed her bra over to me. "Throw this in my bag for me."
I was thankful she only tossed her bra over and not her panties. I didn't know how I was ever going to survive the entire night. But, fortunately the moment passed and within a matter of minutes we were all sitting around in our nightgowns.
After we changed we listened to some more music and we all danced some more. When we got tired, Gloria took out some nail polish and we all gave each other pedicures and manicures. We all looked kind of silly with cotton balls sticking between all our toes. As we were all lying around doing this, the conversation naturally turned to boys.
"Billy Thompson wants to kiss me." That comment by Anna started off the entire conversation. Within minutes we were each relating our experiences in kissing boys. Even though it wasn't a good experience at the time, I felt somewhat relieved that I at least had some knowledge of being with a boy.
But since we were all so worldly kissing a boy wasn't all that earth shattering. Petting with a boy was a bit more interesting. Mary Beth excitedly told us about the first time Joey Pizzaro put his hand under her blouse and grabbed her boobies.
"Did he go under your bra?" We all asked eagerly.
"Of course he did. And he even French kissed me that day too"
It seemed we all had been groped by at least one young man. And each of us had the experience of having some young boy's tongue deep inside our mouths. I wasn't totally sure if we all completely enjoyed the experience because we were all talking and screaming at the same time. It was somewhat hard to decipher.
The next area of intimacy was a bit more delicate. Anna was the one to bring it up.
"Did you ever let a boy put his hands down your pants?"
I was the only girl to say no to this question, which surprised me. I didn't think all these girls have gone that far already. I felt a bit like a prude as they all related the feeling they had during this time. It was funny hearing girls my age talking about such intimate feelings.
"Oh my God. My panties were soaked that night with Tommy. He was all over me. And he kept trying to get his hand inside my panties but I wouldn't let him. I told him he had to wait. Thank God, I did that. I found out the next week he was seeing that jerk, Natalie on the side."
"Danielle, you never had a boy put his hand down your pants?"
"No. Never. But I did manage to put my hands down his pants."
"Did you touch him?"
"Yes. I did it a few times. Actually it happened this past summer."
"With who? Do we know him?"
Since I couldn't tell them he was my cousin, I lied.
"No, he lives by my aunt that I visit each summer. We kind of fooled around a little bit each year but this year we went a little further."
"Oh my god. What did it feel like? Was it big?"
"I'm not sure. His was the only boy I ever touched. It didn't seem that big though. I guess it was a little bigger than one of the hotdogs we eat tonight. And wider."
Mary Beth chimed in. "I touched one boy down there too. He was the size of a small banana."
"This is too funny. We're talking about boys like they're food. But I guess we all know what bananas and hotdogs have in common.. And we have our cute little grapefruits."
As we talked Mary Beth and I both revealed that we actually jerked our boyfriends off. I don't think the other girls ever did that to a boy. This was the first time that I ever felt like more of a girl than real girls. I finally had done something that a few of them haven't. This was almost as cool as being selected by Miss Taylor for my ballet solo this summer.
I guess I got a little carried away and I let it slip out that I put his thing in my mouth.
"You mean you gave him a Monica Lewinsky?"
All the girls giggled at the reference to the former intern.
"I guess I did. It all happened so fast. I wasn't planning to do it. It just kind of happened when we were fooling around."
Traci started laughing. "Oh sure, it just popped right out of his pants and landed in your mouth."
"Of course it didn't just pop up like that. You know. We were kissing and stuff on the couch. We were pretty far along and his pants were unzipped. Somehow when we moved I fell off the couch and ended up on the floor with my head close to you know what."
Mary Beth said. "Oh my God. I mean I touched one but I don't think I ever really looked at it. So what did you do next?"
Anna laughed. "We know what you did next but not exactly how."
Traci thought she was so funny. "Evidently someone knows how to do it, right Danielle?"

"Stop it, Traci. You know I'm a nice girl. I don't know how it happened. I was fooling around and I think I just gave it one little kiss Jason went wild when I did that. He was so turned on. He started moaning and begging me to kiss it again. I guess I got a little caught up in his excitement so I kissed it again. He was pushing it in my mouth so I just kind of let it slide in and out a few times. I didn't really feel too excited or anything doing it but he sure liked it. And because of the way I was laying he could keep his hands on my head. I guess if I really wanted him to move them he would have but I just let him keep holding me. So, anyway, he just kept moving it up and down for a few minutes. He was moaning so loud he sounded like a sick cow or something. I thought maybe he was sick."
"Oh, gross."
"It wasn't really gross. It's kind of hard to explain. I mean it was just there. And the whole thing only took a few minutes."
"What do you mean the whole thing?" Anna questioned.
"You know. The whole thing! Until he was finished, duh.."
"Oh my God, you mean he came with it in your mouth? Yuk!"
"It wasn't that bad. It didn't taste bad or anything. It just felt a little funny, kind of gooey. I'd rather have an ice cream any day." I said jokingly.
"Maybe we'll make you a banana split and you can show us your technique. Gloria, does your mom have any bananas upstairs?"
"I'm sure we do. Do you guys really want to have some ice cream?"
All the girls yelled out a resounding yes and so we all headed upstairs to get a dish of ice cream. And much to my dismay, there was a large bunch of bananas sitting on the counter. We all scooped out our ice cream and syrup and peeled our bananas but no one cut them.
Once we got downstairs, we all finished our ice cream and then sat around giggling and staring at the peeled bananas. Knowing they weren't going to give in I finally relented and took the banana, holding it in both my hands.
"Okay, I was holding his thing like this and then I just leaned over and kissed it right on the top. Like this. I guess I did that a few times and then started letting it go in and out of my mouth. I breathed through my nose so I didn't gag too much. I started out slowly and didn't put too much of it in my mouth until I got used to it a little bit. Then I started going further. I kept my lips on it too. Watch."
Amid much giggling I was now sitting on the couch shoving a banana all the way into my mouth. At this point all the girls decided they wanted to try it too so before you knew it we were all shoving bananas into our mouth. We were laughing so hard we almost chocked to death a few times.
"The only things different were it pulsed when he was coming. You could feel it moving in your hand and then out it comes."
Mary Beth said, "I know. That feels so funny when it moves and stuff. I felt it in my hand too when I had my hands down Ron's pants that time. It's weird."
For the remainder of the night we continued talking about boys and music and school and all kinds of stuff. We didn't stop talking until about 2 a.m. when we finally got tired. Gloria had a pull out sofa so her and I slept there. The other girls slept on mats on the floor. As I lay there trying to drift off to sleep I couldn't believe I was in bed with Gloria with her only wearing a little nightie and thin little panties. It was almost more than I could bear. As I was lying there next to Gloria my mind was racing. I was tired but I was having difficulty falling asleep in a roomful of teenage girls. Just as I was drifting off to sleep I thought I heard Gloria whisper something.
"I'm really glad you're my friend Danielle and I was so happy that you agreed to come to my party."
"I'm glad I came to." I whispered back. "And I'm glad we're friends. You're fun to hang around with."
"You know I found it really exciting when you were talking about what you and that guy, Jason did. I never really did too many things like that with a boy. I mean I kissed a boy a little but we never really made out and stuff. It was just a kiss, if you know what I mean. I'm embarrassed to even say this but I'm not sure how to make out. Would you show me how to do that?"
Oh my God! Gloria was now asking me to show her how to make out with a guy. What did she mean by that? Does she want me to kiss her?
"Show you?" I whispered back to her in a quizzical tone.
"Yeah. You know. Show me how you kissed Jason. Was it like this?"
With that she quietly moved over closer to me and put her lips on mine. I almost died at the softness of her lips as they gently brushed against mine. I was petrified as she moved in to kiss me again.
"Come on, Danielle. I know you can kiss better than that. I mean you're experienced. Please show me."
"Gloria, what are you doing?"
"Shhhhhh. You'll wake the other girls. I just want you to show me how you kiss. It's no big deal. So, come on and kiss me."
As she moved her lips closer to mine I could no longer resist her. I just opened my mouth and kissed her like Jason kissed me. Like before it was so nice. Her lips were soft but not mushy. I could still taste a little bit of her lip-gloss, which I found exciting. I eagerly moved my tongue towards her open mouth and French kissed her passionately. She moved closer and pressed her body against mine. I could feel our breasts touching as we held each other tightly. I could also feel a slight pulsating movement in my panties as my excitement grew.
"Wow. I guess you really do know how to kiss. Is it any different kissing a boy like this than kissing me." Gloria whispered.
"Sure it's different. Boys' lips are not as soft and you have to watch where they put their hands all the time. You know. They're always trying to feel you up and stuff."
"That's why they're boys."
And that was how I drifted off to sleep.
The next morning when I woke up Gloria was still there beside me. I remembered a little of what happened last night but I wasn't really sure if it did happen or if I just dreamed it.
I got up, grabbed my overnight bag and ran into the bathroom. After I peed I took a quick shower, threw on the skirt outfit mom and I bought and fixed my hair a little. As I was doing my hair, the bathroom door opened and Anna came running in. She rushed by me and pulled down her panties and sat on the toilet.
"Oh my God, did I have to pee. I couldn't wait for you any longer. I thought you died in here or something." As she was talking I could hear the sound of her urine stream and I knew she wasn't kidding.
"I can hear that." I laughingly replied.
Anna stood up and cleaned herself with the toilet tissue as I stood there in stunned disbelief trying to act like this was an every day kind of occurrence. As I absently stared at her bush I could see why mom made me shave my area. Anna's hair was very sparse and hardly noticeable. Even though no one would see mine I felt good that it at least looked similar to hers. Well at least the hair part looked similar. There were a few other things that didn't look quite the same.
I turned away and tried to finish my hair as Anna pulled her panties back up and pulled down her nightshirt. This was the closest I ever was to a somewhat naked girl. I knew now that I could never reveal my true self to Anna, Gloria or any of the girls since I have now shared some very private moments with them. I could imagine the screaming and yelling if they ever found out I was a boy. No matter how I felt about dressing as a girl, I realized I had no real choice now not only to continue my charade but also to do it better and more convincingly. Getting exposed as a boy would be too horrible for me.
As we were finishing up in the bathroom, Gloria announced that her mom was going to take us all to the mall for a late breakfast and then we could all do some shopping. Since I was already dressed I just had to do my makeup. Traci had a large mirror in her bag so I was able to sit on the floor and apply my makeup right there as the girls all scurried around to get ready.
It was another one of those strange feelings as I sat there on the floor applying some eye makeup. Although I tried to keep my focus on the task at hand, I found myself frequently looking up from the mirror to watch one of the girls getting dressed. I couldn't believe my good fortune. Here I was in a roomful of young teenage girls all running around in various stages of undress. But my good fortune was also my misfortune. Sure I was able to sit here and see Traci, Anna or Mary Beth topless in their panties but I could never reveal myself to them. They could never know I was not 100% girl so it was almost useless that I could see them like this. It was like you can see, but you can never touch any of them or date them. The only people I would be dating would be boys and that wasn't a thought that made me very happy.
Finally about an hour later we all had our clothes on, our hair styled and our faces made up. We sure looked like five young hotties, or at least we thought we did. Gloria's mom gave her one of her charge cards to pay for our breakfast at the Pancake House.
After we all ate we split up and went to a few different stores in the mall. Most of the girls wanted to go to the music store but Gloria and I decided to go look at some clothes and jewelry. We looked at some cute skirts and tops in one of the trendy stores and then we went into Claire's to look at some jewelry and necklaces. Gloria found a cute pair of earrings that she held up for me to see.
"Danielle, look at these earrings. They say Best Friends on one side and we can get our names on the other side. And they have both of our names in stock. Come on; let's get them... Please."
Without thinking too much I agreed. As we were getting ready to pay, Gloria realized my ears were not pierced.
"Danielle, these are pierced earrings. Come on, they do piercing right here. You might as well just do it now and then you can wear them today. Come on. It's even free with a purchase."
Not knowing how to say no, I agreed and in a few minutes I was the proud owner of two holes in my ears and a pair of new earrings filling the void. I was surprised that it didn't really even hurt but I wasn't all that sure of getting it done.
"Those look so cool, Danielle. How do mine look?"
"Sure. And now we're really best friends."
We met up with the other girls at one of the clothing stores and then we just hung out for a few hours checking out all the cute boys, of course. I thought boys were bad in checking out the girls but I found out that girls are much worse. Some of their comments about bananas even made me blush but I guess I only had myself to blame for that.
Gloria's mom came back a little later and drove us back home. Shortly after we returned my mom called to say she was on her way to pick me up. I was surprised when I heard the doorbell ring and Gloria's mom called to tell me my mom was here. When Gloria and I got to the door, Gloria's mom was telling my mom what a sweet girl I was.
"Danielle is a pleasure. She's such a really sweet girl and I know Gloria and her get along so well." Turning to me, she continued. "Danielle, you're welcome here any time." She then gave me a big hug.
"Thanks, Mrs. Bracco. I had a really nice time. Bye, Gloria. I guess I'll see you in class tomorrow."
"Sure. And thanks for my present. You're the best."
I was surprised to see my dumb brother sitting in the car when mom and I walked out of the house together. And he had that stupid grin on his face.
As soon as I got situated in the back seat of the car, he turned to look at me.
"Where did you get those dumb earrings?"
Mom turned too. "Honey, those are so cute. Oh my God, you got your ears pierced, too."
"You pierced your ears? You really are turning more and more like a girl every day. You'll probably be wearing a bikini this summer."
Ignoring him, I looked at mom. "Gloria wanted to buy these best friend earrings for us to wear. At first I didn't realize they were for pierced ears and when I did, it was too late to back out. So now my ears are pierced."
"Well, honey, they look very nice and I'm sure you'll enjoy having your ears pierced. You'll be able to buy lots of cute earrings now. So, tell me all about your first sleepover party. Did you have fun?"
"Actually it was fun. We talked a lot, listened to music and danced a little bit, ate all kinds of junk and watched some movies on cable. Oh, and we all polished our nails. Gloria even gave us each our own bottle of polish to keep."
"And did you and all your little girlfriends put on your cute little night gowns?" Mikey asked.
"No stupid. We slept nude. Of course we put on our pajamas."
"I bet all the girls just loved yours the best. I can't believe you were able to stay there all night with a bunch of girls and doing all that stupid girly stuff. Now you're polishing your nails and getting your ears pierced. You're turning into the biggest girly girl I know."
"Oh shut up. You're such an idiot and a royal pain in the ass."
"Danielle, is that any way for a young lady to speak? I don't ever want to hear that type of language out of your mouth again. It's very unbecoming of a young lady to ever use that word. I know your brother was teasing you but that is still no excuse for you to act so un-lady like. Now, be a good girl and apologize to your brother right now."
"Mom, he started it. Why should I have to apologize."
"I don't care who started it. He was only teasing you anyway. I will not have my daughter using that kind of language for any reason. Proper young ladies don't talk like that, do they? Now tell your brother you're sorry for such unfeminine language and that you promise to be a good girl from now on."
"Yeah, tell me you're sorry for being so un-lady like." Mikey chimed in.
I wanted to belt him right in the face, sitting there with that ever-present stupid grin on his face but I knew this was one of those defining moments. Here he was sitting in the front where I really belonged. And me, I was sitting demurely in the back seat with my knees pressed together and my hands neatly folded on my lap. My eyes caught sight of my cleanly shaven thighs and my polished nails. Meanwhile my brother was in his jeans with dirt under his fingernails and I was the one being forced to apologize. I looked up and could see my brother staring at me, waiting for me to utter those horrible words of sorrow and remorse. How I wished he were the one wearing panties and bras but I knew that was not to be. Being a girl was my cross and I knew it. And gradually, very gradually I was beginning to accept it. It all kind of hit me in that instant. And I knew saying that apology would seal my fate further. Up until that time I always felt like the big brother, the alpha male. But now sitting there with my clean-shaven legs wearing a mini skirt and cute top, I was in no way an alpha male. In fact I wasn't even a male. I lifted my eyes slightly to glance at my brother. Looking at him I fully realized he had assumed my rightful position. Even though I was technically older he was the big brother now and I was his little sister. I knew it. And what's worse, he knew it, too. I never felt more like a girl than I did right at this instance.
I could sense that mom was getting impatient with me so I grudgingly managed to squeak out an apology to my stupid brother.
"Mikey, I'm sorry that you got under my skin and made me call you that name."
"Go on, Danielle." Mom reminded me that I still had to utter those embarrassing words.
I could see mom looking at me in the rear view mirror as I looked up and said what she wanted to hear. Uttering those words would be the most feminine statement I have made. It was more feminine than attending ballet school and performing in that dance recital. It would be more feminine than attending my last birthday dinner in my pretty dress and high heels. And yes it would make me feel even more girly than when I enrolled in Mount Saint Mary's.
But despite all the issues running through my mind I managed to say it. "And yes, I promise to be a good girl from now on."
I could see mom smiling happily as I lowered my eyes to my lap just like any good girl would.
It seemed things spiraled out of control even faster after that fateful day. Mom reminded me every chance she got of my promise to her to be a good girl. And of course my brother reminded me every day without fail. Not that I needed that many reminders anyway. The more I dressed and interacted as a girl the more like a girl I became. And I really believed that being surrounded by girls all day was having a significant impact on my demeanor, my actions and reactions, my vocabulary and my mind. My femininity was becoming more and more pronounced since I was seeing a lot more of Gloria and the other girls after school and even on some weekends.
Mom seemed a bit more stressed out than usual in the weeks following the slumber party. She explained that finances were getting tight since my father was way behind again on child support payment. This was forcing her to take a part time job to make ends meet. She would be working three to four nights a week and most Saturdays.
"And I expect you two to help out a lot more around the house. I'm going to need a lot more support than you both have been providing. So, you'll have to decide who does what but I need help with the cooking, cleaning, washing clothes, ironing and whatever else needs to be done."
Immediately Mikey started whining. "But mom, I mow the grass every week for you."
"That takes all of about 15 minutes. And you need to clean out your room too, young man. It should be declared a disaster area. And it better be done this week or you can forget about having your friends over Saturday to watch the game like you planned. Is that clear?"
'Mom, this sucks."
"Mikey, watch your mouth, young man. Now you heard me. If that room isn't cleaned up, forget about your weekend. So tomorrow you two can start helping out around here. I'll leave you some food and cooking instructions for your dinner. You can decide who cooks and who cleans up afterwards. And there's a ton of laundry in the basement and some ironing. The ironing is mainly your clothes, Danielle. Mister wrinkle here doesn't seem to need an iron."
The next day after school Mikey and I both arrived back home around the same time. Remembering Mom's request, I asked my brother what chores he preferred to do.
"None of them. Those are all girls' chores. Boys don't do washing, cooking and ironing. And since you're the only girl in the family you should do them all. I'm going to watch television."
"You can't do that. I'm going to tell Mommy that you wouldn't help and you're going to be in big trouble."
"Listen sis, you're not going to tell mommy anything. You're going to do all the chores like a good little girl. And what's more you're going to tell mom that I helped you a lot. And if you don't do that, I'll just have to tell all your little girlfriends about your secret. I'm sure they would all be very interested to find out the truth about Danielle. So, you better just get used to the fact that you'll be doing all the chores for both of us. And you can start by cleaning my room. I told all my friends that they could come over on Saturday and watch the big football game. In fact since mom won't be here, you'll have to help with the food and stuff too."
"Are you nuts? I'm not doing any of that."
"Okay. It's your death wish. I'm sure the girls will be really upset to find out that their girlfriend is really a boy, especially after you saw some of them practically naked. But that's up to you."
"I can't believe you're going to blackmail me. You're such a rat."
"I guess I am. But if I were you, I'd start cleaning my room. Mom's right. It is a big mess."
In a way I wasn't too surprised that Mikey was doing this to me. He knew he had a big advantage over me and that I couldn't really fight him back. Resigned to my fate, I simply turned and walked away. After I changed out of my Mount Saint Mary's uniform, I knew I had to start cleaning out his room before I started dinner for us. As I opened the door to his room I was shocked at the mess. He had clothing all over the floor, dirty dishes and empty soda bottles were strewn about the room and stuff was everywhere.
"Mikey, are all these clothes dirty?" I called to him.
"I guess? But what's the difference? You can just wash them all to be sure, can't you?"
Sure. It was no big deal for him. I'd be washing clothes for days. I got the laundry basket and filled it up three times with all the clothing. There were lots of sweatshirts and pants, dirty, smelly socks, dirty, gross underwear, towels and some jeans and tee shirts. Plus I still had a few loads of my clothing that needed to be washed as well. By the time I had all the laundry picked up and sorted, I only had time to remove some of the dirty dishes and empty bottles and cans before I had to start dinner.
As I walked into the kitchen, I couldn't help but see my stupid brother sitting on the couch watching television.
"Aren't you going to help me with dinner? You heard what mom said yesterday>"
"And you heard what I said. Cooking and cleaning are for girls. None of my friends do any of that stuff. Their cute little sisters do it just like you're going to do it for me. So be a good sister and go make us dinner. I'm sure you're going to look cute in your apron too."
Storming out of the room, I could barely contain my anger. "Oh, you make me sick with your attitude. You're just a spoiled brat."
"Yeah. So what! I may be a brat but you're the one doing the cooking and cleaning."
So it was left to me to prepare the dinner mom had arranged. Fortunately it wasn't too complicated; just some hamburgers, potatoes and a canned vegetable. Even I could prepare that. Once dinner was prepared I called my stupid brother to eat. I was half expecting him to tell me to bring it in but he surprised me and joined me to eat. Naturally as soon as he filled his face he just left me to do the dishes and clean up the dinner mess.
Things were pretty much a repeat of that day for the rest of the week. I worked and he didn't. It took me a few days to get his disgusting room cleaned and another day to do our laundry. As I washed all of the dirty laundry and put the clothing away, I couldn't help but notice the difference in our apparel. His clothing was heavy, coarse and pretty much colorless. Mine was soft, dainty with pastels and lace and just so much cuter. It was almost hard for me to conceive that I used to wear the same things every day. How boring that seemed to me now. Even though I had to wear my school uniforms during the day, I knew I could always change into something different as soon as I got home. And I usually did that as soon as I could each day. He could make all the fun of me he wanted but I knew my clothing was much cooler than his drab wardrobe. And I also have grown to appreciate the soft and silkiness of my panties and camisoles. I mean cotton is okay but nothing could compare to the feeling of silk next to your skin.
By the end of the week I had all of our chores done. Mom told us both that she was very proud of our efforts. She especially praised Mikey for cleaning up his room so nicely.
"I know Danielle had to help you a little since I'm sure you never would have done it so well by yourself but it's even nicer that you two worked so well together. That really makes me happy. And Mikey, since you were so good, you can have your friends over tomorrow like you planned."
"Oh that's great mom. Can you make us some of those homemade pizzas and some of your meatballs and stuff."
"Oh honey, you know I have to work tomorrow so you're on your own. Danielle knows the recipe for both the pizza and the meatballs. Maybe she'll help you out tomorrow since you two have been getting along so well these days. What do you think, Danielle? Do you think you could help your brother tomorrow?"
Help him? I thought. I've practically been his slave all week and now mom wants me to cook for him and his dumb friends.
"I don't know mom? I mean I only made pizza once and I only made the meatballs a few times too. And they're a lot of work."
Mikey couldn't resist getting into the act. "Oh please, Danielle. Will you help me out this one time? All the guys are coming over tomorrow and I kind of promised them some food. Please."
I had the little weasel right where I wanted him now. Now I could be the mean one and let him suffer but somehow when I looked over at his stupid face I knew I couldn't refuse. I was surprised at my reaction but somehow I was powerless to refuse.
"I guess I can help out. I know I really shouldn't be nice to you but I don't want to ruin your day. I'll cook and help you serve everything."
"Oh honey, that's so sweet of you to help out your brother. You really are a very special girl. We can go shopping tonight to pick up all the stuff you'll need for tomorrow. I'll write down the recipes for you tonight too."
I was pretty busy the next morning. The pizza was pretty easy to prepare but the meatballs required a lot more time plus mom suggested I make homemade tomato sauce for both the pizza and the meatballs. However, I pretty much had everything done by noon giving me a few hours to rest and get changed out of my grimy clothes. After taking a shower, I combed my hair and pulled it back and tried to figure out what to wear to serve six young teenage boys. Oh my God, I thought. I can't believe I'm going to be in the house with six boys all very similar to my brother. And they were all at that age when they first started noticing girls.
As I looked through my closet I smiled and started giggling. Maybe I should wear one of my short mini skirts to give them a little more to look at than their silly game on television. I could wear my black mini, with my fishnet stockings and my black boots. I had lots of tops that would look cute with it. As I was still debating, Gloria called and I told her about my brother and what I was planning.
"That sounds like fun. Why don't you wear that and I'll get dressed up too and come over. We can give the little squirts a treat. What do you think?"
"I think we're both crazy but let's do it. How often do we get the opportunity to drive a bunch of young boys wild? Can you get here soon?"
"Sure. I'll just grab my clothes and have my mom drop me off. I can get dressed over your house. I'll be there in about 45 minutes."
I figured I better get ready before Gloria arrived just to be safe. I hooked my bra into place, stepped into my panties and slipped on my black fishnet stockings. I just put on my robe and sat down at my vanity to do my makeup and hair. Just about the time I was finished Gloria arrived with her bag. Locked away in my room, she told me to open my robe so she could see my sexy fishnets.
"Cool. You'll look hot." She said as she began undressing.
"I brought a hot pink mini skirt with a pink and black top. It's really cute too. Wait til you see it. I wasn't sure what color pantyhose to wear so I brought over two pairs."
Standing there watching her strip brought back many memories from her sleepover and our sewing class. I could feel a slight tingling in my panties as we were both standing there in our lingerie. I decided I better slip on my skirt and top right away to avoid any potential problems, which is exactly what I did.
Danielle, do you like this outfit better with the black or the nude shade? What do you think?"
Turning to look I could see she had one shade on each leg. "Actually they both look good. But why don't you just wear the nude since I'm already wearing black. We can give the boys a choice of legs to stare at. This is going to be so much fun. My brother is going to flip."
By two o'clock we felt like we were two hot chicks. We were both admiring how sexy we thought we looked. And to be sure, we were both showing an awful lot of leg.
"Do you think our skirts are too short?" I asked somewhat nervously.
"Nah. We look hot. Let's just have fun tormenting the little creeps for the afternoon."
When we walked downstairs, I found Mikey in the family room.
"Mikey, Gloria came over to help me with the food and serving you guys. I hope that's okay."
"Oh sure." He said without looking up at first.
"Hi Mikey."
"Oh hi, Gloria." He said as he looked up at both of us. "Wow. You girls look really dressed up."
"Glad you noticed. We thought your friends would enjoy it more this way. It's okay, isn't it?"
"Sure. It's kind of cool, actually. I'm sure the guys won't mind."
And they sure didn't mind. Gloria and I had a ball that afternoon finishing the cooking, baking the pizza and serving the boys their food and soda. Mikey also didn't mind. I'm sure his standing with his friends went way up. And I was even surer that a few other things were way up that afternoon as well based on some of the looks Gloria and I got. I was pretty sure that his silly little friends thought we were two cute girls.
After Gloria and all his friends left, Mikey surprised the heck out of me.
"Danielle, thanks for helping me out today with the guys. I know I've been a pain to you but that was really nice of you. You know, you're actually a pretty good sister after all. My friends all thought you were really nice making all that food and stuff. A few of the guys even told me you were really, really hot. They thought Gloria was cute but they thought you were the hot one. It sounded funny to hear them say that but I guess you do look hot in that get up."
"Wow. They really thought I was hot? That's pretty funny, you know, considering"
I didn't have to add anything else. We both knew what I meant.
"But you know, as funny as it sounds, I think it's kind of cool that your friends thought I was hot. Thanks for telling me that. And, Mikey, I guess you're not such a bad brother either." By this time I was fully immersed in my new life as a sister to my brother, a daughter to my mother, a slightly above average student to the sisters at Mount Saint Mary's and a nice girl friend to Gloria and a few other girls at school. I've spent many, many months totally involved in a girl's life so most of my actions seemed second nature now. I no longer had to concentrate on what to wear or how to coordinate an outfit or what shoes to wear. I no longer had to think about how to apply my makeup properly or how to style my hair. Polishing my nails and toenails was now a fairly common activity and I no longer felt funny shaving my legs during my bath. I was used to applying moisturizers to my skin to keep it smooth and silky. I always sprayed myself with perfume every morning and even learned to put my earrings in most days. I didn't want to have my piercing close up again.
My life seemed fairly routine now. Well, not really routine for a boy but it was fairly routine for a teenage girl. The days went by quickly and I was becoming more and more comfortable in all aspects of my teenage girl's life. It was hard to believe but before I realized it my freshman year was drawing to an end. June was here and there were only a few weeks left before summer vacation.
One day after school, Gloria and I were hanging out and she asked me if I heard about the Sadie Hawkins dance that was being planned..
"The what dance?" I questioned.
"The Sadie Hawkins dance. It's a freshman tradition. Since this is an all girl school we get to invite a boy to take us to the dance. You're coming, aren't you? You have to come. I wouldn't want to go if you're not there. I wouldn't have any fun without you around."
"Wow. I guess I forgot all about it. I wasn't really planning on going. Besides, I don't know any boys that well to ask them to take me to a dance."
"How about Jason? You sure know him well enough." Gloria laughingly said. "And you told me you still see him once in awhile. Can't you see if he can be your date? Please. You have to come."
"Who did you ask?"
"Oh, no one yet. I was planning on asking Billy Jackson. He said he would take me a while ago if I wanted. Please come. Please."
"Okay. I'll call Jason this weekend and see if he can come. I can't promise you anything though. He may be busy."
"If he says no, you let me talk to him. He can't be that big of a jerk to ruin both our nights. I mean it's our first high school dance."
Later that night when I told mom about my dilemma she said Gloria's idea isn't so bad. I'm pretty sure Jason would do it. He didn't seem to put off by your newfound femininity last year. And it can't hurt to ask. The worst thing that could happen is he says no. I was planning to talk to Alice tonight anyway so I'll just ask her what she thinks. If she thinks it's a dumb idea, we'll just drop it. Okay?"
"I guess. I know it's a dumb idea already but we'll do it your way."
I dreaded the rest of the evening waiting for mom to call her sister. I was hoping that they would all just think it was too goofy and drop it but somehow I knew deep down inside that Jason would end up agreeing. I wanted to tell mom about what he did to me but I was afraid to say anything now since so much time had passed since last summer. I still hated the thought of what he forced me to do to him last summer. I was still humiliated by that entire episode.
"Honey, aunt Alice thinks it's a wonderful idea for Jason to take you to the dance." Mom said as she came into my room. Handing me the phone, she said, "Here, talk to Aunt Alice."
"Hi Aunt Alice."
I talked to her for a few minutes about the dance. She thought it was a great idea and she was certain Jason would do it. "He's talked about you quite a lot this year. I know for sure he thinks you make one heck of a cute girl. Here he is now, Danielle. I'll let you talk to him so you can ask him yourself."
Talking to Jason was a bit strange. We have talked occasionally during the year but about regular stuff. Now I had to ask him to take me to a stupid dance. After a few minutes of idle chatter I finally got up the nerve to ask him.
"Jason, my school is having a dance on Friday night, the 23rd. It's a Sadie Hawkins Dance so the girls get to invite the boys and I was wondering if you would like to come with me."
"You mean like on a date?"
"I guess, kind of."
"Is it a fancy thing? Will you be wearing a fancy dress and high heels?" He asked a little more excitedly.
"Well, sure. I mean I don't' have a dress yet but I guess mom and I will have to go shopping for one. This is my first formal dance and I'm not exactly sure what all the girls will be wearing but I'm pretty sure they'll all be wearing something fancy. I think the boys have to wear jackets though. Is that okay?"
"Sure. I have a few jackets. Okay, it's a date, Danielle. I think we could have some fun that night for sure."
I didn't like the sound of that but I just let it go. "Okay. Oh, my mom wants to talk to your mom. I'll see you. Bye."
Mom took the phone and walked out. As she closed the door I could hear her and Aunt Alice plotting my big night. But I was already getting worried about being with Jason again. I hated the thought of him seeing me wearing such an ultra feminine prom dress and high heels. And I knew it would make me seem even more feminine and appealing to him. But there was nothing I could do now that he agreed to take me to the Sadie Hawkins dance.
Since the dance was only a few weeks away, mom told me we'd have to start looking for my dress right away. I never realized how difficult it could be to buy one stupid dress but believe me it was a chore. We first went to all the big stores, like Macy's and Lord and Taylor but couldn't find anything. I knew I wanted something with spaghetti straps with an uneven hemline in a pastel color. Mom also wanted to make sure it was cut a little low in the front to show off my bosom but not too low to look sluttish. We had no luck at any of the bigger stores so we looked in a few smaller boutiques but still couldn't find the right dress. Finally, mom remembered a fancy store called Oh So Dressy.
"I bought my dress there for Carol's wedding there. They had a pretty big selection and I think they carried prom dresses. We can go there on Sunday."
This was the first time I ever visited such a fancy dress store. They must have had thousands of fancy dresses for parties, wedding, dances and proms. And we actually found a few dresses that we both liked. After I tried on a few of them we settled on our choice. It had the spaghetti straps that I wanted and it was just low cut enough to look sexy but still somewhat innocent. The straps were made from rhinestones, which added a degree of elegance to the gown. It was a very pale blue with some very subtle embroidery on the bodice. It was made of a chiffon material, very delicate and sheer with a silk lining as an under slip. Finally, I thought. Now we could go home and I could relax. Or so I thought.
As soon as we paid for the dress and left the store, mom told me we now had to find the perfect pair of heels, some jewelry to accessorize the dress and the proper lingerie and hose to wear. So off to the mall we headed.
I still felt funny trying on girl's shoes; especially fancy ones like I needed for the dance. Mom suggested I look for silver shoes since they would complement the color of the dress and coordinate with the rhinestone straps. Naturally the shoes had to be open toed with a two-inch heel or so. Once again we tried a few department stores and even some smaller boutiques. We finally found the right pair in our fifth store. By that time we had already bought a few pairs of hosiery too so the only things left were jewelry and lingerie, which proved to be the easiest to find.
So an hour later I was home with all my purchases. I hung my dress up in my closet and dumped all my other bags on the bed.
"Honey, you better try everything on together just to make sure it all looks perfect together. And we need to make sure your bra and panties fit you properly too and that they feel comfortable. Nothing worse than going to a party and feeling uncomfortable with what you have on."
I didn't really feel like trying all this stuff on but I knew mom was right so I just did it. I put on my lingerie in the bathroom and then joined mom to put on the dress, shoes and accessories.
"Oh honey, you look so pretty. You're going to look so beautiful that night when we get your hair styled and your nails done. You're going to be the belle of the ball. I'm sure Jason will be quite happy that he got to accompany such a beautiful young lady to her first dance."
Oh goody, I thought. Jason will be happy. I just hoped I would be happy too and that he behaved himself in front of my friends, especially Gloria. I would die if he did anything to embarrass me in front of them. That would be horrible.
I'll make your appointment at the salon tomorrow for your hair and nails. Oh and you should wear your shoes around the house a little bit to break them in before the dance. That way your feet won't be killing you halfway through the night since I'm sure you will be dancing quite a bit."
After mom left I took a few minutes and looked at myself in the full-length mirror. I did look very pretty and more grown up than I thought. God, I was maturing into a woman already. Before I realized it the day of the dance arrived. I had a busy day and night in store for me based on all the preparations mom had planned. After eating a light breakfast and taking a quick shower, I threw on some jeans and a casual top. I had a nail salon appointment first and then we were off to the hairdressers for my hair appointment. Naturally, I didn't wear any socks or hosiery on my legs since mom made arrangements for both a manicure and a pedicure. Mom told me to wear flip-flops so I wouldn't ruin my toenails after they were polished. I usually did my nails myself so this would be a new experience for me.
The shop was right around the corner from the hair salon so Mom only had to drop me off there and then I could walk over for my hair appointment. She came in with me to the nail salon to give the girl her credit card number so they could charge the service. The manicurist took me over to a large chair that I had to step up to sit into. There was a large basin at my feet, which I soon discovered was there for me to soak my feet to soften my nails and calluses. It felt funny soaking my feet but it was kind of relaxing. I must have had them soaking for about 15 minutes or so and then the girl started working on them with various brushes and tools. After she finished filing my nails and buffing my rough spots, she smoothed some very nice lotion on my entire foot being careful not to get any on my toenails since they would be polished.
I wasn't sure what color I wanted even though Mom and I had briefly discussed some options. We wanted something that would complement my dress and shoes but still be very soft and feminine. The girl suggested we do a French manicure on both my toenails and fingernails. She said it was the most popular choice now with all the young girls. She did one toe just to let me decide. I loved the way it looked so she proceeded to do all ten toenails after she placed some cotton between each toe to keep them separated until they had time to dry. As they were drying she moved me over to another table so they could start on my nails. I didn't realize it but Mom arranged for them to do acrylic tips. I usually kept my nails a little on the short side so this new length would be quite a change for me. I was kind of mesmerized at the transition as my nail length grew by a good inch or so. And the French manicure added to the illusion of my ultra feminine hands. By the time all my polish had dried I felt prettier than I had in a long time. I never realized how much femininity a manicure and pedicure can add to a person's image.
As I walked the short distance to the hair salon I couldn't help but notice what a beautiful day it was. The sun was shining brightly with just a slightly warm breeze gently blowing. The air was filled with the aromas of spring and I felt very light and airy. I was so pleased with my manicure and pedicure and was getting excited about my hair. Mom told me she arranged for some highlights to be applied and my stylist and I could decide on the final style when the highlighting was done. I never had much done to my hair before so I wasn't totally sure what to expect. I knew that they would put some chemicals in my hair and wrap me up in some silly looking aluminum stuff. I always thought girls looked so silly sitting in those places with all that junk in their hair and now I would be that silly looking girl but somehow I didn't seem to mind. I was looking forward to a new style and color to complement my new dress. I was tired of my mousy looking hair.
Three hours later I emerged from the hair salon with a totally new look. My hair had some blondish red highlights and a new cut. The stylist actually was able to give me almost a French braid style with some long tendrils hanging down the side in the front. It looked really, really cute but with an air of sophistication. It was exactly the style I dreamt of having done.
When mom saw me she let out a shriek. "Danielle, you look so cute. I love that cut and the highlights are perfect with your complexion. You look so grown up already. I can't wait to see how beautiful you're going to be tonight when you're all dressed up with your make up on."
As mom gave me a big hug, I told her I really liked the way it came out too. "Thanks mom. I feel really pretty. I wasn't sure if I was going to like it but I do. I can't wait to try on my dress later."
By the time we got home, I didn't have all that much time left before we had to leave for the dance. Jason and my aunt were still out somewhere so I just had a little snack before taking a quick bath. I couldn't shower since my hair was all styled and I didn't want to risk getting it wet. As I soaked in the tub, I shaved my legs and underarms so my body would be nice and smooth for my big night.
Alone in my room, I began my preparations for my first big formal dance. After smoothing some lotion on my body, I slipped on my robe and sat down at my vanity to apply my makeup. Although I've done this hundreds of times already, tonight felt different. I took extra time to make sure my makeup looked flawless. I carefully blended my foundation to cover my one pimple near my chin. I applied three different shades of eye shadow to make my eyes appear larger and more dramatic. I applied three coats of black mascara to really bring out my lashes. I applied some blush to my cheekbone to give my face a rosy glow and outlined my lips with a lip pencil before filling it in with a rose color lipstick. As I sat at my vanity I was mesmerized by the transition occurring right before my eyes.
I removed my robe and slipped on my bra and panties. I heard a knock at the door so I slipped my robe back on. Mom came in to my room to see how I was doing and if I needed any help.
"I will soon. I just need to put on my pantyhose and then you can help me with my dress. How does my make-up look? It's not too much, is it?"
"No, honey. It looks perfect. You look lovely."
As I sat down at the bed and slipped on my pantyhose, mom continued talking and talking. "I can't believe how pretty you look. My little girl is all grown up and going to her first dance. I'm so excited for you."
As I stood up and pulled my pantyhose up to my waist I removed my robe. Mom already had my dress off the hanger. She held it down for me to step into since we didn't want to put it over my head due to my hair and makeup. I certainly didn't want to smudge the dress or myself either.
I felt like a total girl as I wiggled my butt to get the dress up into the proper position so mom could zipper me up. As soon as she zipped me in, she handed me my high heels.
"Be careful that you don't snag your hose or chip your nails. In fact, let me buckle them for you so you don't have to worry. Just sit down on the bed and I'll help you."
"Oh, thanks mom." I said as I sat on my bed. It felt funny to see my mom kneeling at my feet helping me to put on my high-heeled sandals but I was glad for her help. I had a hard time earlier just putting on my earrings and necklace with my longer nails. As soon as she finished with the straps she had me stand up in front of the mirror. By now looking at myself dressed and made up as a girl was second nature but tonight seemed so much different.
"So what do you think, mom?"
"Think? There's nothing to think about. You're beautiful. You look simply exquisite in that dress. You're the picture of femininity and I'm sure you will drive all the boys crazy tonight. Good thing you have an escort or you may have been in trouble."
Little did mom know that I might be in more trouble with the escort I have. I still never told her anything about last summer with Jason. I'm sure if I did tell her, Jason would not be my date for the dance for sure.
"Do you have your purse ready?"
"Yes. It's on my vanity. I just have some tissues, some perfume and my lipstick and powder. I guess that's all I need."
"That should be fine. You should bring your cell phone too. It will fit okay, won't it?"
"Yes. It will."
"Its funny. When I was a young girl going out on dates, my mother always told me to wear clean underwear and she always told us girls to bring change with us in case we had to make an emergency phone call. I know you have on clean underwear since I bought it with you and now all you kid have cell phones so I know you don't need change."
"Well, I guess my little girl is all ready for her big night. I saw Jason in his suit and he looks quite handsome as well. You two will make a very nice couple and I know you'll both have fun."
When I walked downstairs, Jason, Mikey and my aunt were all standing there looking at me as I made my way down the stairs. I had to navigate my way down slowly since I was not accustomed to wearing high-heeled sandals. I felt very much like I was on stage, almost like my dancing debut when I felt every eye was on me. Step by step, I carefully went down each step aware of the sound of my heels on the wood. I kept my eyes on my feet and how pretty my feet looked with my pedicure and my sexy high heels struck me.
"Danielle, you look lovely. That dress fits you perfectly. My God, you're such a pretty little thing."
"Thanks, Aunt Alice."
As I stood there I coyly looked over at Jason. He seemed almost in a state of shock. I'm sure he thought I would look good but I don't think even he expected me to look this cute. As I looked over at him I could see he was holding a small box in his hands.
"Jason, show Danielle what you bought her."
"Oh sure mom. I ah got you some flowers. They go on your wrist. You want to see them?"
Flowers. How sweet, I thought. I never had a boy buy me anything before so I was more than a little surprised and embarrassed.
"Oh yes. I would love to see them. That was really so nice of you to do that for me. Thank you so much, Jason." I said with a great deal of sincerity. Meanwhile Jason opened the box and took out the corsage and held it out to me.
"Hold out your wrist dear. Jason will put it on you."
"Which wrist, Aunt Alice?" I questioned.
"Your left one, sweetie."
As Jason held my hand I couldn't help but notice the difference in our hands. His were strong with dark hair while mine were soft, my fingers looked long and feminine with my nails. Jason took the corsage and slipped it over my hand and positioned it on my wrist. He continued to hold my hand as our eyes met.
"Danielle, you look really pretty tonight. I can't believe how beautiful you look in your dress." Jason said very sincerely.
"Yeah, Danielle looks like a fairy princess tonight. You look so sweet in your dumb dress. Too bad you got a giant run in your pantyhose, though.." Mikey yelled out with a real emphasis on the words fairy and sweet.
"Oh no." I cried out. "I was so careful too. Where is the run?" I said as I looked down at my legs.
Mikey just laughed. "Gotcha. You may look all grown up but you're still just a big dummie."
"Mikey, I've just about had it with you and your attitude towards your sister. You're walking on very thin ice, young man."
"Yeah, leave her alone. I think she looks really pretty." Jason said coming to my rescue.
"Mom, she's not my sister. She's not even a girl in case you forgot. She's just some freak and you're all oohing and ahhing over her like she really is some princess or something. Give me a break."
"Mikey, that's enough. Get upstairs to your room this instant. Danielle, honey, don't you listen to him. You're a beautiful young lady with a charming date and you're going to be the belle of the ball tonight."
"Thanks, mom." I said in a chocking voice fighting back the tears that were welling up in my eyes.
I took a few minutes to compose myself. The support of my mother and aunt helped a great deal but the real key was Jason. He was just so sweet and kind to me. He even put his arm around me and told me not to worry my pretty little head. "Don't let your stupid brother spoil your evening. You spent so much time preparing for tonight. Besides, you're going to be the prettiest girl there tonight for sure. I'm really happy you asked me to come tonight."
I actually felt chills run down my legs as Jason said those words to me and I could feel my eyes moisten up again but this time with happy tears. I felt protected in a way. It was a foreign feeling for me and it felt strange but nice too. I imagined this was a feeling that only a girl could experience. I felt like my Prince Charming had just rode into my living room on his white steed and rescued the fair maiden Danielle from the clutches of the fire-breathing dragon. In my joy, I just turned to him, looked him in the eye and then kissed him on the cheek.

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[ironeagle2]

good start whats next

[baapji]

a huge story but good