(oldkingclancy) Somebody I used to know ch 1

[kaidman]

this story is about cousins who fall in love and deals with lifes trials and tribulations it really gets my blood pumping this series has three parts and is long but unfinished the author is one of the only three people from literotica that I know for a fact is a nice person for we have chatted back and forth before he's really respectful and goes by the name oldkingclancy


This is a story about a relationship so it makes sense to have the start of the story at the relationship. It was April 1970 when two year old Adam McAllister was taken down the hospital hallway; he recognized the place as where the men in the white coats made him feel better but why was he here today, he wasn't ill.

Adam looked up at his mother, she had a smile on her face so she was happy, but she was also crying, so she sad. As they approached the white door Adam began to panic, what was behind there, was it good or bad, why wasn't his mother telling him anything?

His mother slowly pushed the white door, Adam let out a sigh of relief, it was only her sister, his aunt, sitting in a bed. She too had a smile and tears in her eyes, what was going on between these people? And what was his aunt holding?

His aunt looked up from what she holding. "Hey Claire, you made it."

"How you holding up Jane?"

"I'm exhausted; Susan's just downstairs getting a coffee."

"No Craig?"

Jane looked away, ashamed at the mention of her husband.

"Thought not, you'd think that for once that son of a bitch would get off his ass for his own daughter's birth."

"Claire. Leave Craig alone I'm sure he has his reasons. He'll be here later today, I know it."

Claire rolled her eyes at her little sister's painfully dependent nature. She looked down at her son he was confused by everything.

"Sorry you had to hear that honey, come up here, there's someone that wants to meet you."

Meet him? There were only three people in the room and they all knew each other. Before he knew it Adam was lifted up and onto the same bed as his aunt, she removed the blanket covering the bundle in her arms.

Underneath Adam saw the most beautiful sight he'd ever seen, a tiny little person, eyes half open, mouth agape in a yawn, specks of blonde hair covering their round red face.

His aunt smiled at his expression. "Adam, meet Alexandra, this is your cousin."

Adam felt a massive smile on his face as he looked down at this teeny tiny little baby girl. He stroked her chin making her giggle, the two of the caught eyes with each other.

In those few seconds a friendship was formed between Adam McAllister and Alexandra Buchannan, a friendship that over the years would take them to the best and worst moments of their lives.

But in those first few, innocent seconds neither of them knew this future, they were just happy to meet each other.

1975

Over the next few years Adam and Alexandra formed an unbreakable bond, living so close to each other they saw each other almost every day, they told each other secrets, they helped each other. They were just happy to be around each other.

Adam could never understand why their parents didn't feel the same way when they met, as he got older and began to become aware of sibling bonds he wondered why his mother and his aunt were sometimes sad to see each other and at other times angry. From overhearing their arguments he heard Uncle Craig's name pop up a lot, mum didn't seem to like Uncle Craig and called him horrible names.

One Saturday afternoon he and Alexandra were in Adam's back garden playing while Auntie Jane was talking to mummy inside.

"You excited for school on Monday?" He asked his cousin, she was starting school in a few days and was a little nervous.

"A bit."

"It's ok no-one will do anything bad. If you need anyone just come find me."

Adam heard his mother shouting from inside. "Call the police on that bastard."

He looked and saw his mum and auntie arguing, Auntie Jane had a bag of frozen peas to her eye.

"How'd Auntie Jane hurt her eye?"

"Mummy was making a lot of noise so daddy made her stop. Daddy doesn't like loud noises."

"Does your dad ever make you stop making loud noises?"

"No, my daddy loves me and he always makes me feel special. He's always kissing me and stroking me and tickling me on my bum."

Alexandra giggled but Adam didn't join her, he couldn't explain it but he didn't like the sound of what her father was doing to her. He knew from experience of walking in on his own mother when he was younger that bums and things between people's legs were private and not meant to be shown to other people, so why was Uncle Craig tickling Alexandra's bum.

Auntie Jane came out the house and picked Alexandra up. "Come on honey, we have to leave."

"Yeah cause going back to the problem is going to help."

"Claire just leave me alone ok. Say goodbye to Adam honey."

"Bye Adam."

"Bye Lexi."

Auntie Jane and Alexandra left after that, Claire followed them still arguing with her sister. Adam went inside to find his mum crying on the sofa.

"What's wrong mum?"

"Oh it's nothing dear; you'll understand when you're older."

Sensing something, Adam sat next to his mother and hugged her, she seemed to appreciate it.

1978

It was a few days before Christmas and Adam and Alexandra were taken out to play in the snow by Auntie Jane. Adam had brought along his new sled which he and Alexandra were having endless amounts of fun with, sliding down the hills, feeling every bump in the ground. Even Auntie Jane was smiling. They were walking though a snow covered field when Alexandra spotted a large hill, she tugged on Adam's jacket.

"Adam Adam Adam. Can we please go down the big hill? Please can we? Please please please."

"Only if your mum says it's ok."

"Can we mum, please?"

"Alright, but be careful."

Alexandra let out a little squeal as she grabbed Adam's hand and dragged him to the hill. Jane stood back as she watched her daughter and her nephew climb the cold white hill, a rare smile on her face.

At the top of the hill Adam looked around, it was a lot bigger than he expected, he could see miles into the distance, he felt Alexandra tugging on his arm.

"Come on Adam I want to go sledging."

"Ok Ok."

Adam laid the sledge on the edge of the hill, he sat down in the back then helped Alexandra into the front, holding her tight around her waist. The two of them scooted forward, pushing the sledge forward until they finally tipped the balance and flew down the hill.

Adam could feel himself laughing but he couldn't hear it, the only noise was the music of Alexandra giggling, the air whooshed past them, they were going to take off at any moment, take off and fly through the air.

But they weren't about to fly. When they reached the bottom of the hill Adam came back to reality as they were still speeding and weren't slowing down. Adam looked in front of them and saw a large patch of branches and thistles getting closer and closer, instinctively Adam bent over and covered his cousin. His whole body protected her as they crashed through the bushes, Adam felt a sharp, whip-like pain across his left eye.

Then they were flying.

**

Adam didn't know how long he was out, must not have been long because he could hear Auntie Jane's voice yelling to him and Alexandra in the distance. He blinked and tried to get his bearings; he was on his back looking up at the sky, although he was blind through his left eye, it was just a dark red blur, there was a pain on his right side and his left leg felt wet for some reason. He sat himself, a painful act as his right arm felt the beginnings of a nasty bruise and his shoulder felt stiff, possibly dislocated. Somehow he managed to sit up and looked around where he was.

He was in a reclusive place, the whole area was blocked off by the bushes that he and Alexandra had crashed through, there was a small pond in the middle surrounded by a dirt and bark walkway only separated by a river flowing in and out of the pond, there was even an upside down shopping trolley in the middle of the pond. The place had an otherworldly feel to it, it was completely silent not even birds or bugs made noise here.

Suddenly the silence was broken and for the first time he heard Alexandra crying. He looked for her and saw her across the pond, somehow he had flown across while she fell out soon after they crashed, she was sitting by the sledge. Adam stood up and limped his way round the pond, he picked her up and the two of them left the pond, they never returned for the sledge.

Jane was in a state having just watched the two children hurt themselves. She took the two of them back to her house, bursting through the front door and finding her husband Craig in the living room.

"Craig I need your help."

He ignored her.

"Craig please you need to help us."

Again he ignored her, he picked up the TV remote and turned the channel. Jane let out a sigh.

"Sir can you please help me as I cannot do anything without you."

Craig turned, smiling at his wife. "Yes dear how can I help you?"

"Adam and Alexandra were in an accident with the sledge, Adam needs to be taken to hospital. I need you to... need your help in driving him there."

"How's my daughter?"

"She's fine just a few bruises and a cut."

"You let my daughter get harmed."

"No, no it was an accident."

"Bullshit you're just useless. You're a terrible mother you let your own child get hurt while you whored yourself out to strangers."

"No, Craig I never took my eyes off them."

Suddenly Craig grabbed his wife's chin, he snarled at her. "No. Sir. Understand."

Jane nodded quickly, trying hard not to burst into tears. Craig smiled and let her go, he walked outside to where Adam and Alexandra were sitting on a wall.

"Come on then, into the car. We better have someone take a look at that before you lose your eye."

Craig smiled and opened the car door. He couldn't tell because of his injury but Adam was staring at his uncle with a look of hate and anger. He'd always suspected his uncle of being violent but now having watched him attack his own wife he knew it.

At the hospital the doctors fixed up Adam's eye, it wasn't a bad as they thought it would be but Adam was now left with a scar across his face that he would have for the rest of his life. His own parents arrived a few hours after his operation to take him home, their arrival meant that Jane, Craig and Alexandra could leave. Walking away Adam swore he saw Craig stroke his daughter's leg just a little too close to her privates. He would've said something but he didn't want to base his accusation on the ridiculous imagination of a ten year old.

1982

Adam's fear of his uncle's dark nature never fell from his mind but he could never find any proof of it, he didn't want to just ask Alexandra if her father was molesting her, she seemed to idolise him and may take offence if he brought it up, if she did she may tell her father and if she did that there would be no end of shit that he would face from her parents and his.

Of course that didn't mean he couldn't try to keep her from Craig. One day when she was 12 he went round to her house, knocking on the door he was answered by Jane, he was shocked but unsurprised to see yet another black eye on her.

"Oh hello Adam."

"Hello Aunt Jane, what was it this time, door or fall down the stairs."

"Adam..."

"Leave it Aunt Jane. Where's Lexi?"

"She's upstairs with Crai..."

Adam pushed forward and barged his way upstairs, he could see his uncle and cousin on her bed, Craig was tickling Alexandra's chin but his free hand was creeping slowly up her thigh.

Adam cleared his throat loudly so they would know he was there, Alexandra was happy to see him while Craig looked disappointed.

"Hey Adam." Alexandra squealed out.

"Hey Lexi, you want to head out."

Craig immediately grabbed his daughter's arm. "I'm sorry Adam but Alexandra and I were spending the day together, perhaps next time."

"Well my dad says it was ok for Lexi to play with me, I can ask him again if you want."

The look on Craig's face could not have been worse, he let go of his daughter and shoed the two of them away, Adam quickly left with his cousin, much to the surprise of Jane.

Outside they headed towards the play park, Adam battled with asking Alexandra the question.

"How can you let him do that to you?"

"Do what?"

"All that touching, you know it's not right."

"Yes it is, daddy's just showing me how much he loves me. I'm his special girl."

"Trust me Lexi that's not love. It's wrong and he shouldn't be doing it, if he tries to do it again tell him no."

"Why?"

"Just believe me ok, you must feel strange when he's doing it."

"Dad, daddy says that's normal."

The colour was draining from Alexandra's face as she began to realise the lie her father had been telling her her whole life.

"Just tell him no Lexi and he won't hurt you."

The two cousins stayed close together for the rest of the day, when it was time to return home Alexandra didn't want to, for the first time in twelve years she was afraid of her father.

1985

Adam immediately regretted telling Alexandra the truth about her father. For the next three years her life was a misery, she was a usually happy girl but after finding out the truth she become quiet and depressed, what was worse was that Adam had played his cards too early and now Craig was getting better at hiding his dark ways, the only way Adam knew he'd done something was when Alexandra told him.

Adam knew his parents were aware of the abuse Jane got from her husband, they'd even witnessed firsthand the psychological damage Craig deals out, but they were only suspicious of his actions against Alexandra, he hated the fact that they did nothing but neither did he, why was his fear that great that he couldn't save his best friend.

Everything finally came to a head in July 1985. It was Craig and Jane's anniversary and Adam and his parents went round for a dinner. Adam could tell by Craig's eyes that he didn't want that.

But despite his underlying disapproval he stayed quiet and the six of them had a good talk, that was until halfway through the main course. The adults were talking about work when Adam's mother made a simple compliment.

"Mmm, Jane this food is great, I forgot how great you're cooking was."

"Thanks. I've never managed to get the mash potatoes right before but today it just worked."

The adults laughed but Craig stayed silent, he simple stared at his wife until the laughter died down.

"What was that honey?" He spoke with an oily subtext.

"Nothing sir."

"No, no. You said something about the potatoes. What was it again?"

"I, I, I said I've never managed to get the mash potatoes right before."

"But we've ate mash potatoes hundreds of times. Are you telling me that all those other times you served me rubbish?"

"No I was just saying..."

"No you said it yourself, the other hundred times you cooked mash potatoes they were rubbish. Why are you serving me rubbish Jane?"

The tension in the room was building fast, Adam was getting angrier and angrier by the second while his parents were in stunned silence.

Jane was noticeably shaking with fear. "I haven't served you rubbish."

"Yes you have Jane. You've served me rubbish and admitted it in front of our family. Does that make you feel big Jane, telling you family that I've ate rubbish?"

"I haven't..."

"Do you like eating rubbish Jane?"

"No."

"I think you do otherwise why would you serve it to the family?"

Craig stood up and stepped around the table to his wife's chair, he stood to her side, towering over her. "Come here."

There was only a second's hesitation from Jane but it was enough for Craig, he grabbed his wife's hair and dragged her into the kitchen. He knocked over a bin, spilling the rubbish inside and threw his wife into it all.

"There, you love rubbish so that can be your dinner."

"Craig will you leave her alone." Adam's father spoke up finally.

"Leave it Kieran this is my wife and I'll deal with her my way. Eat up honey."

"I don't want to."

At this Craig near enough kicked his wife's head into the mess. The sound of her crying set off Adam. "Will you just leave her alone goddamn it she's done nothing wrong."

"Sit down boy or I'll give you a scar to rival that one."

Claire was furious at the threat to her son and the treatment her sister was getting but she couldn't say anything.

Not wanting anymore violence Jane picked out a semi-rotten apple core and started biting into it, trying not to gag as she chewed.

Craig smiled evilly. "That's good honey, you can eat that for the rest of your life now because I'm not buying you anymore food for you to turn into rubbish." He turned back into the dining room and picked up his coat.

"Come on Alexandra honey we're leaving."

Alexandra stayed where she was.

"Alexandra we're leaving. Get your coat."

"No."

That surprised even Adam, Craig stood over his daughter. "What did you say?"

"I said I'm not going with you, I'm not going so you can touch me without anyone watching."

Kieran shot up. "What did you say Alexandra? Does your father molest you?"

"Fuck off Kieran she's my daughter I can raise her how I feel."

"She's not your daughter."

Everyone turned round to Jane who was still on the floor, her face a mess and her hair dishevelled. Craig's eyes grew wide with fury.

"What?"

"I said she's not your daughter. You're not her father Craig."

"That's impossible."

"How, how is it impossible for me to go out and find someone who loves me, who wants to fuck me and who doesn't treat me like shit?"

Everyone was silent except Alexandra who was getting close to bursting into tears. "Mum?"

"I'm sorry you had to find out this way honey."

"Who is my father?"

"An old work friend, Ray Henderson, he was promoted years ago and now works in Berlin, he doesn't know about you."

Craig's face was getting ready to blow. "How can you be sure that it's his and not mine."

"Oh fuck you Craig, we hadn't fucked in months because you didn't believe I was worthy of your tiny dick. I fucked Ray and only fucked you after I found out I was pregnant."

"I don't believe you."

"Jesus you've been so fucking dense all these years. Look at her eyes, mine are brown, so are yours, hers are green. She takes after her father."

Craig stared at Alexandra's eyes and suddenly the realisation hit him, she wasn't his daughter. That's when he snapped and lunged at Jane. "I'll fucking kill you you whore cunt."

It was only the saving grace of Kieran who managed to tackle Craig and hold him to the ground while Jane got out the way that saved her life. Kieran kept Craig there while Claire phoned the police. Alexandra ran upstairs to her room followed closely by Adam, they shut the door and sat down on the bed.

"How you feeling?"

"I don't know, I've just found out the man who's been abusing me my whole life isn't my father, I'm a bastard Adam."

"Come here Lexi."

Alexandra burst into tears and she hugged her cousin, the two of them lay on her bed as she cried out years of abuse and lies. They could hear the commotion downstairs but they didn't pay attention to it, right then it was just the two of them. They fell asleep and stayed like that together until the next morning.

The next week Jane and Alexandra sold their house, divorced Craig, packed up and left. Adam was left a note from Alexandra telling him she didn't say good bye because if she did she wouldn't want to leave.

1989

It had been four years since Adam saw his cousin, he was now 21 and in university studying law. He kept in touch with Alexandra through letters and postcards but he hadn't actually seen her since she left town. Adam was so focussed on his schoolwork that he never had time to go down to Wales where Alexandra was living now and with her mother refusing to set foot in Scotland again she didn't have enough money or even a car to head up herself.

This of course changed that a few months ago when Adam was told Alexandra had been saving up and was planning on taking her next summer holiday with him, she's be taking a train up and living at his house for a week. Adam practically jumped at the idea. As the days got closer he found it harder and harder to sleep, he was a kid at Christmas waiting for his presents to arrive, he missed his cousin dearly and wanted to see her again as soon as possible. His best friend and previous flat-mate Liam Nelson picked up on his anticipation.

"Will you sit down Adam, you're making me nauseous."

"Sorry."

Adam sat down on his desk chair, Liam offered him a joint but Adam turned it down. Liam lit his own and the two of them returned to their game of Street Fighter.

"I don't know why you're so nervous about this girl."

"You don't understand, Lexi's been through a lot, she was my best friend when I was a kid but we haven't seen each other in a long time. I've missed her."

"You girl."

"Oh sorry I have emotions unlike you fucking robot."

Liam only laughed, this was a usual occurrence for the two of them, Liam was a shell and Adam wore his heart on his sleeve. They played for a couple of hours more before Liam was called back to his girlfriend's house. For the rest of the day Adam was on edge waiting for Alexandra to arrive, every time he heard something outside his door he jumped up to open it.

It was around 8 in the evening when he finally got that knock he'd been waiting for all day, he nearly rushed to open the door but he managed to compose himself before doing so.

On the other side was Alexandra, Adam was not ready for how great she looked, she was dressed simple yet still so great, a simple white t-shirt that did very little to hide her impressive breasts, riding up just high enough to show her belly button, jeans that hugged every smooth curve of her ass and legs. Her long, curly, dirty blonde hair framed her soft, innocent face brilliantly. Looking at her Adam was finding it hard to believe she was 19, or that she was his cousin.

"Hello Adam."

"... Sorry, wow Lexi, is that really you. You look amazing."

"Thanks, can I come in."

"Sure, sure. Let me get your bags for you."

"Cheers."

Adam let Alexandra past then he picked up her suitcase and took it inside. Alexandra was looking around his apartment.

"I'm impressed Adam, how can you afford a place this big."

"The university helps with most of the cost but I was living with my mate Liam for a couple years before you came. He moved out a couple months ago to live with his girlfriend."

"Sounds serious."

"Should be, she's 4 months pregnant."

"Really? Wow that's a good first impression of this place."

Adam laughed. "You're room's right through there, if you find any of Liam's stuff just chuck it out he won't miss it."

Alexandra took her hand and gently stroked the scar covering Adam's left eye, remembering how he got it.

"Thank you."

She kissed the scar and smiled sweetly at her cousin. As Adam watched her, still dumbstruck, Alexandra took her bag through to her room, leaving her other two outside to deal with later. Exhausted from her long trip she fell back onto the bed, she would've fallen asleep but somehow she was too tired to sleep, instead she just lay there as the memories about her childhood came back to her, everything from the good with Adam to the bad with Craig. When she wiped away her tear she couldn't tell if it was happy or sad.

Adam opened himself a beer from the fridge and sat on the arm of his sofa, his mind still running with the thought that this gorgeous woman was his baby cousin. Four years is a long time but she had changed so much in that time. He found himself nursing his beer just as Alexandra walked out her room.

"So what do you think of the place?"

"I think it's brilliant. It's good to see you again Adam."

"It's great to see you Lexi."

The two of them hugged, the warmth between them not going unnoticed by either, Adam kissed the side of her head just as Liam opened the door.

"Hey Adam I just wanted to drop off..."

Liam stopped when he spotted Adam and this new girl breaking off a hug. "Not interrupting anything am I Adam?"

"No Adam, me and Lexi were just getting reacquainted."

"Yeah well remember to use protection if you decide to 'acquaint' yourselves further."

Alexandra quickly shot her cousin a puzzled look but was looking back at Liam before he noticed. "I'm just here to drop off my spare key I'll be out of your hair in a minute."

"Come on Liam, you were never a good liar."

"Alright you got me, I saw you outside and with the suitcases I guessed you were here for Adam so I followed you in and saw you go up to his room. I waited a few minutes hoping to catch the two of you at it."

Again Alexandra looked at her cousin confused. Liam stuck out his hand for her to shake. "Admiral Nelson my dear lady, Liam to my friends."

Alexandra giggled and took Liam's hand. "Alexandra Buchannan, Alex to my friends and Lexi to my best one."

Liam kissed Alexandra's hand. "My dear, I hope that you will use your wily charms on my celibate accomplice here and get him rightfully and royally laid."

"Ok that's it 'Admiral' time for you to return to the high seas and tend to your maiden and her cargo."

Adam pretended to push Liam away. "Aar matey, it's a cruel mistress's fate that forces me to return home but me house booty awaits my arrival. Avast ye scurvy dogs."

Liam left and Adam shut the door, making sure to lock it. He turned back to a laughing Alexandra.

"Sorry about that Lexi, Liam's a bit of a sea nut; loves boats and marine life and all that. Studying marine biology at the college."

"I liked him, he's funny. Why did he think you and I were a couple."

"Ah, I em, sorta forgot to mention that you were my cousin. I told people that my best friend Lexi was coming to visit."

"And why did that slip your mind?"

"I don't know. Most likely I was trying to get Liam off my back about the whole girlfriend thing and the lack of it I'm having."

"Is that why he called you celibate? Because you're a virgin?"

Adam sat down next to Alexandra. "Well I don't like to shout it out but yeah. Liam's been trying to get me laid for months but I haven't got round to it yet."

"Round to it yet? You make it sound like a chore."

"With what I've gone through with Liam it feels like it."

"Why haven't you popped your cherry yet?"

"I would say I'm looking for the right girl but even hearing that now it sounds stupid. It's my excuse anyway, hopefully with us being old friends people will think you're the right girl."

"So you're going to tell people we fucked just to get them off your back?"

"You make it sound so terrible but yeah. Is that ok with you?"

"Adam, you've done so much for me it's the least I can do. It's a little strange but if that's what you want."

"Thank you Lexi, I know this is a big ask. Do you want a drink?"

"Please."

Adam got another two beers out the fridge, opened them and gave one to Alexandra as he sat down next to her again.

"So what about you Lexi, you popped the Big V yet."

"I feel bad for saying this but yeah I did, a couple years ago."

"Who was the lucky guy?"

"Adam, I love you but can we please not talk about my sex life."

"Why not?"

"Because I always feel like such a slut when I'm reminded of who and how many people I've slept with. Take my first time for example. That ended up being a drunken fuck with some guy I barely knew."

"Damn."

"I know, just, just don't talk about ok."

Sensing his cousins' sadness, Adam put down his beer and cuddled her, letting her head rest on his chest.

"Damn you Adam, why do you have to always be so fuckin smart?"

"I'm not smart I'm just nice."

"Nice guy like you, you should have the girls clawing at you."

"The girls aren't into nice guys Lexi, they want the studded jocks with the foot long cocks and the muscles."

"Trust me Adam, I've been around enough to know that I want a nice guy more than anything."

"Shh your mouth Lexi, you're too young to have regrets. Listen, you finish that beer then we'll order something to eat, my treat."

**

That night as Adam lay in his bed, thinking about his cousin and trying desperately not to get an erection, he heard a strange noise coming from next door. Concerned he got up and slowly walked out his bedroom and round the corner to Alexandra's bedroom. He put his ear up to the door and sure enough there was a strange noise coming from within, short, quick breaths, loud sniffing. Was Alexandra crying?

He knocked on her door. "Lexi, you alright?"

Silence. He was about to knock again when he heard her. "Yeah Adam I'm good, I'll see you in the morning."

Even if he wasn't a lawyer in training he would've been suspecting of her voice, she wasn't fine but it was too late to talk to her now, tomorrow was another day.

In the morning, Adam was up long before Alexandra, wanting to spoil her he brought out some pans and a grill and cooked some a full English Breakfast, and this was truly full, bacon, sausages, eggs, black pudding, mushrooms, toast. He'd even found a couple tomatoes in his fridge.

The warm smell of meat and grease wafted through the hallway causing Alexandra to float out of bed and into the kitchen.

"Smells delicious Adam, I didn't know you could cook."

"Well Liam couldn't so I had to learn, after a few years I've gotten pretty good."

Adam placed to full plates on the table and fetched the condiments as Alexandra sat down, Adam sneaked a look at her night-time attire, a purple basketball vest that hung loosely off her shoulder and gave him a good look at her barely covered breasts, the vest came to about somewhere in-between her stomach and her groin so he could see her thin, baby-blue panties and her long, thin legs as she stretched out in front of him.

"Um, you want ketchup or brown sauce?" He asked her, desperate to take his mind elsewhere.

"Brown please."

Adam handed her the brown sauce and sat down beside her, they both dug into their breakfasts, Alexandra wolfed hers down like she hadn't ate in months.

"That was fantastic Adam, if you're going to cook like that everyday I'm going to gain about 10 pounds."

"Every day? Lexi that was everything in my fridge, you want to eat you better buy the food."

"Excuse me? I'm your guest, why am I buying your food?"

"You're buying our food because I'm cooking the damn stuff."

Alexandra laughed. "Look at us, bickering like an old married couple."

"I can only dream Lexi."

She laughed again, Adam loved hearing her laugh. They caught eyes with each other, both smiling, Adam wiped a hair away from her eyes.

"I love hearing you laugh Lexi, it's so much better than the noise you made last night."

Alexandra rolled her eyes. "God you're on that. For a clever guy Adam that wasn't very smart ruining this moment."

"I'm sorry Lexi I'm just concerned y'know. I'm supposed to look after you."

"Look it was nothing, it's just something that's been going on a few years now."

"A few years, Jesus Lexi what is it?"

"It's nothing Adam. It's just that sometimes I have nightmares, mostly about Craig and what he did. It's really nothing I swear, I've gotten over it but sometimes I'm reminded of him and seeing you for the first time in years yesterday brought back so many memories."

"My god Lexi I'm so sorry."

"Don't be, you weren't the sick bastard that felt up a kid."

Adam could sense this conversation turning sour so he placed his hand on Alexandra's knee.

He swore he could feel the electricity pass between them as he touched her bare skin, she was warm, incredibly warm and Adam could almost feel her pulse, he could definitely feel the short hairs on her thigh stand up suddenly.

Alexandra cleared her throat. "Thanks Adam, for everything. I'm going to get showered."

More quickly than she'd have liked to have done Alexandra ran through to the bathroom, shutting the door and locking it quickly behind her. With her back against the door she slid to the floor. What the hell was that that just happened between her and Adam? Why were her nipples poking out her vest and why was there a wet patch on her underwear.

She ignored the obvious signs of arousal and jumped in the shower, she fought hard against her urge to get herself off. Although the feeling of hot water and soap on her body made the temptation almost too great.

When she got out the shower she heard voices from the living room, hiding behind the wall she listened as Adam talked to Liam, surprised that she never even heard the door open.

"So have you two done the horizontal dance yet?"

"Jesus Liam, why are you so obsessed with this?"

"That's a no. I'm just worried about you Adam, this isn't healthy."

"What? It isn't healthy to wait to find the right girl."

"No. Christ Adam it's almost the 90s, things are changing, people aren't bothered with relationships anymore."

"Says the man in one."

"Hey I've played my field, it was just shorter than other peoples. You my friend have yet to enter your field."

"Look. Lexi is the one ok, I've known her for years and I love her. I will sleep with her but I want a relationship with her, not some stupid little one night stand."

"Whatever man, just pop that cherry before she leaves. Bring her to the party."

Adam groaned. "Alright I will, now just get going, I don't want Lexi to see you, you two start talking and no doubt you'll embarrass me."

"Fine, don't forget, Friday at 9 at the warehouse."

"I know I know. I'll see you there."

Liam left the flat, Adam turned round just as Alexandra stepped out from behind the wall.

"So, you want a relationship with me."

"I'm sorry Lexi, you weren't meant to hear that. I was only lying to Liam."

Alexandra gave Adam a look that showed she didn't believe him. Adam on the other hand was looking at her with inappropriate thoughts again, her blonde hair hung wet on her shoulders and chest, the towel around her body stopped high on her thigh, if she sat down he would've been able to see everything easily. The knowledge that she was naked and only a towel separated his eyes from her body was torture to Adam.

"So what's this about a party?"

"Liam's throwing a house party on Friday, he's stole some keys from his uncle and we're heading out to the docks, party at the warehouse."

"That safe?"

"Well we all know to run if the police turn up and if anyone gets caught they aren't going to get arrested, just a telling off and a call to their parents."

"You going?"

"I was planning to but if you don't want to go..."

"No no I want to. We don't have that many parties in Wales, when we do they're wild, but they're few and far between."

"Ok then, I'll phone Liam and tell him you're coming."

Alexandra gave a little giggle and turned back to her room. Adam watched her, lost in a trance he only snapped out of it when the smoke filled his nostrils and he realised his breakfast was burning.

Alexandra joined him after she'd gotten dressed, he apologized for the burns but she didn't mind and sat down with him to eat.

"So what do you want to do today?" He asked her.

"I want to walk around town, see what's changed. Head back to the pond."

Adam felt his scar tingle at the mention of the pond, a good tingle though, he wanted to go back there as well.

"We'll do all that and more, as soon as I'm dressed we'll head out."

Alexandra took a bite out of her toast and smiled.

Around an hour later, at a time closer to 12 than 11, Adam and Alexandra set off. They took a slow walk down the road, pointing out places and saying 'Do you remember where...?" and pointing at shops and asking 'Didn't that use to be...?'. Before long they found themselves by the burn, the sunlight breaking through the thick branches of the trees above them only slightly keeping them cool.

"So how's Aunt Jane these days?"

"She's doing good, I told you she remarried right?"

"Yeah, sorry I missed the wedding, I wanted to go but it was an important exam, assessed so I couldn't reschedule."

"Don't worry Adam, you're mother told us when she arrived."

"How is he, you're step-father?"

"Damien, he's good. He loves my mother, that's completely obvious, and he treats me nice. A lot better than Craig."

Adam took his cousin's hand in his, squeezing it lightly so she knew he was there.

"You have any idea what happened to him?" She asked Adam.

"He got attacked in prison, both legs broken and a pipe to the back of the head. He's fucked up now, can't remember anything past last week. Got let out early because of that but he's now in a home, having someone wipe his arse for him."

"Oh." Alexandra's voice had a hint of sadness to it, she expecting, or wished, him dead by now.

"What about you, what are you doing right now?" Adam quickly changed the subject

"I'm at college right now, didn't get the grades I needed for Uni so I compromised. I'm studying Art."

"I remember you were always painting as a youngster, you got really messy with the paint."

Alexandra smiled. "Yeah well this time there's more paint on the paper than on me."

Adam laughed with her, he was glad that there was no awkwardness between them after so long apart. They kept walking for another 10 minutes before they came across the pond, the trees surrounding it had grown immensely, keeping the whole area shrouded in darkness. Adam pushed his way through the branches, carving a path for Alexandra who followed him in and making sure neither of them got another scar.

Inside they saw that the trolley was still stuck in the pond, though it was now lower and rustier than years before. There was more rubbish than ever and the wet, brown leaves covered the path, years of Autumns obviously sheltered by the thick branches. But despite the detritus that coated the pond it was still a beautiful sight, whether it was the thin rays of sunlight that broke through the trees and danced on the water or the simple memory of this place, Adam smiled contently, he felt Alexandra's hand lock in his and hold it there.

"Who would've thought a little accident could make this place mean so much?"

"Little accident? Speak for yourself Lexi, I'm still carrying the war wounds."

"Ha, you big baby Adam, and here I was thinking you were a big hero."

"When the time calls for it Lexi, when the time calls."

The two of them sat down, Alexandra took out a pack of cigarettes and lit one.

"You smoke?" Asked a confused Adam.

"Sometimes, like a packet a month, sometimes less. Don't tell mum."

"Don't worry I won't."

The two of them sat there for a while, Alexandra with her knees up by her chest as she lingered on her cigarette, Adam lying back, propped up on his elbows and skimming stones across the pond. The sat in silence for a long time before Adam broke it.

"Do you ever think about coming back here, you know to live or to study?"

"Sometimes, I do miss you when I'm at home but this place, for every good memory I have a bad one to go with it. If I came back here I'd just be punishing myself."

"I thought I told you to stop having regrets."

"Easy for you to say, you don't seem to worry about anything, whatever the hell you're smoking give me a hit."

Adam sat up, put his arm around Alexandra and kissed her head.

"I love you Lexi."

"I love you too."

Alexandra felt a tear run down her face, it was one of sad happiness, she was happy to be with her cousin but sad because of the reasons why.

**

The next night Adam was watching TV when Alexandra came through, she had changed for bed so she was wearing that purple basketball vest again with the skimpy pants underneath.

"Hey."

"Hey, mind if I sit with you?"

"Not at all Lexi." Adam scooted over, allowing Alexandra to sit beside him.
"Thanks. What you watching?"

"Just channel flicking, I've got a couple videos if you want to watch one."

"What do you have?"

Adam got up and knelt in front of the TV cabinet. "Well there's Beverly Hills Cop, there's The Untouchables, good but I don't know if you'd like it. And, oh, Dirty Dancing. That must be Maggie's, Liam probably left it here." "Oh put that on, I missed it in cinemas and I've been wanting to watch it."

"Eh. Sure I'm just kidding. Don't tell Liam but the film's a guilty pleasure of mine."

Adam put the video in the machine and sat down with Alexandra, he was surprised when she shifted herself so she was lying across him with her head on his chest. Adam had seen the film and he enjoyed it but watching it with Alexandra for the first time made it all the better. She seemed to really enjoy it, she had a huge smile on her face during the 'Loverboy' sequence, she came close to crying when Johnny said 'Nobody puts baby in the corner' but was back to laughs at the final dance lift.

Neither of them noticed it to begin with but not long after the 'Corner' line Adam found himself and Alexandra had drifted closer together during the course of the film. When they started her head was on his chest but now his head was resting atop of hers, his arm was draped on her, just below her breasts but most importantly, his groin was pressed up against her barely concealed ass. He could feel both her cheeks hugging the outline of his growing erection. He prayed she wouldn't noticed.

At the end of the film Alexandra yawned loudly and got up, her uplifted arms raised her basketball vest giving Adam an even better look at her near bare ass.

"Well I enjoyed that Adam, but it's late I'm heading to bed now."

"Alright, I'll see you in the morning. Goodnight."

"Goodnight. Try not to make too much noise dealing with that thing now."

Before Adam could say anything, Alexandra had turned with a giggle and walked away. She had felt him, but she wasn't mad about it. In any case she was acting slightly flirty about the whole thing.

She definitely wasn't the same girl from years before.

**

The next day was Friday, the day of Liam's party. He had made sure that everyone who said they were coming was coming and being some form of alcohol, the exception being Alexandra who had only arrived a few days ago. Since the party was at a warehouse on the docks and since that wasn't the most legal of places Liam told everyone to not come all at once. He was surprisingly organised for a house party.

Adam and Alexandra took a taxi to a club nearby and walked the rest of the way. Adam couldn't stop himself stealing glances at his cousin, she didn't have anything to dress for a party but what she did have was pretty good, an orange vest top with matching colour bra poking out from the top and a dark green, flared skirt that reached mid-thigh level. It was a new look that Adam liked.

They got to the warehouse just after nine, people were already there and getting drunk, there was even the smell of cannabis in the air and the sound of 'Cult Of Personality' blasting on the stereo system that had been hooked up. Liam spotted the two of them walk in.

"Adam, good to see you."

Liam took the hand of a girl about his age and approached the two cousins.

"Maggie this is Alexandra Buchannan , Adam's friend. Alex this is my girlfriend Maggie Gallagher."

The two girls shook hands. "Liam told me about you, although all I've heard is that you're Adam's girlfriend."

"Well not girlfriend but we go back a long way. He's my best friend."

"Lucky you, I only met my guy after a party like this one. Now I'm stuck with him."

"I'm right here ladies."

"I know."

Maggie and Liam laughed and kissed each other. "So guys just go around, drink what you want, sit where you want. I've got about a hundred condoms in the back room if you guys need any."

"Thanks."

The two couples separated as Liam went to welcome more guests. Adam whispered to Alexandra.

"I'm going to grab a couple condoms, if Liam gets on my back I'll show him I'm prepared. You get us a couple drinks."

"Don't get me too drunk, I want to be awake when you fuck me."

And with a quick kiss on his cheek Alexandra was away. Adam was still confused as to how jokingly her actions were. They weren't helping any of his dirty thoughts.

True to his word, Liam had put a load of condoms in the back room. There so many that he put them in crates. Adam didn't bother questioning the legality of Liam's method of obtaining them, instead he grabbed two or three and pocketed them.

When Adam returned he found Alexandra amongst a large group of people, they were sitting, lying, standing around a circle of broken and ruined sofas. All laughing, drinking, telling jokes, just as he arrived Adam saw one of the girls there pass a joint to Alexandra, she took a long inhale but stopped when she saw Adam causing a long coughing fit. The two cousins looked at each other and laughed.

"Don't tell mum."

"I won't if you won't."

Adam took the joint from Alexandra, took a long inhale and handed it back.

"I thought cocaine was party drug of choice."

"No man, this is the 90s." A guy sitting on one of the sofas spoke up, he had his eyes closed tightly and was moving his head around. "Fuckin cocaine ain't shit anymore. It's all about supply and demand. Coke used to be high demand so they could supply for low prices, now no-one wants the shit so the demands low making the supply needs high, the higher the price the lower the demand it's a vicious fuckin circle. No coke's gone, the new drug coming in, and I can guarantee you this, is ecstasy."

"Ecstasy?" A couple of people were confused by this new drug.

"Yeah man ecstasy or, or, or, and this is my idea, you heard it here first, X. No-one knows what X is, X is mysterious, X is cool. X puts something in your brain that makes you want to fuck everything, you give a girl a couple of X pills and you better be the first guy she sees because she'll be so wet you can fuck her without taking off her trousers."

As the drug guy kept rambling Adam leaned in close to Alexandra and whispered. "I won't tell about the weed but if I see you take anything he's taken I'll tattle."

Alexandra smiled but nodded to show she understood him. After a few minutes of the rambling man Liam and Maggie arrived, Liam used the 'pretend to throw a ball' trick that people use on dogs to get rid of him, the two of them took his place. Over the next hour the group got larger and smaller and larger again but Adam, Alexandra, Liam and Maggie stayed, they had a good talk that only sometimes involved other people.

"So how long have you two known each other?" Maggie asked them.

"All my life. Our mothers were friends, Adam was at my birth."

"It was love at first sight."

Alexandra slapped Adam's arm at that but she laughed to show she wasn't angry.

Liam put down his beer bottle. "Since you two are such good mates' maybe you can tell us where Adam got that scar. He's never told us."

Alexandra looked at Adam's scar, she'd seen it so many times before but she looked again anyway to remind herself of how he did get it.

"It's ok Lexi, you can tell them."

Alexandra's thumb lightly traced the scar. "It's actually quite sweet how he got it. I was eight, he was ten and it was a few days before Christmas. We were sledging on this giant hill, just the two of us, but we couldn't stop in time and we were heading straight for a large hedge. So what Adam does, really kindly, is cover me just as we burst through the hedge. He got the scar but I was safe."

"Aww." Maggie found the whole story really cute. Liam just laughed, keeping his robotic nature intact.

"Where's the fuckin music gone?" Someone shouted out.

Everyone suddenly noticed the music had gone. Liam stood up. "Don't worry people, it's a tape, we just need to switch it round to side B. Actually let's not, Adam, you still know how to play guitar?"

Alexandra looked at her cousin, surprised. "You never told me you played guitar."

"I don't. I just learned a few songs because me and Liam were thinking of starting a band."

"Yeah then I met Maggie."

"So we stopped, I sold my guitar a while ago. Besides we don't even have one."

The grin on Liam's face told them that they did. He yelled across the room. "Roger, red crate, second from the left, look inside."

A boy, Roger, looked inside the crate and pulled out an acoustic guitar. He brought it over to Liam.

"I found this before you arrived, was hoping you could play a song or two."

Begrudgingly Adam took the guitar, Alexandra hopped off him and sat on the other side of the sofa.

"Now I haven't played in a while, so sorry if I miss a few notes."

Adam took a deep breath, and started playing. To his, and a few other people's, surprise he played a good opening to Hotel California by The Eagles. The whole party was frozen, watching Adam play this guitar, Liam simply smiled at his friend's talent, when the tome came he hit his knee in lieu of drums and started singing.

"On a dark desert highway, cool wind in my hair. Warm smell of colitas, raising up through the air. Up ahead in the distance, I saw a shimmering light. My head grew heavy and my sight grew dim, I had to stop for the night."

Adam took over the singing, he stared directly at Alexandra as he sung to her.

"There she stood in the doorway, I heard the mission bell. I was thinking to myself this could be heaven or this could be hell. Then she lit up a candle, and she showed me the way. There were voices down the corridor, I thought I heard them say."

Everyone joined in on the chorus, the whole party was smiling and singing together. "Welcome to the Hotel California, such a lovely place, (such a lovely place), such a lovely face. Ready a room at the Hotel California, any time of year, (any time of year), you can find it here."

Adam didn't play the whole song but he played enough for the crowd, when he was finished he got a loud cheer from everyone, Alexandra leaped across the sofa and hugged him tightly.

"God Adam that was incredible. Why didn't you tell me anything sooner?"

"Just slipped my mind, sorry."

"Encore, encore." A few people called out.

Liam stood up. "No, Adam's done enough for now, if he wants to play again later he can. Right now I'm going to put some fuckin Blondie on before I go nuts."

After that the party got back to normal, Alexandra took Adam's hand and tugged at him.

"I need to go outside for a wee, can you come keep guard?"

"Sure thing."

The two of them slipped out a fire exit and went behind some bushes, Adam kept his back turned to his cousin as he heard her fumbling about behind him. He suppressed a giggle when he heard her pee start.

"This isn't funny Adam."

"I respectfully disagree."

Despite the embarrassing situation, Alexandra managed to finish up, using a napkin she swiped from the warehouse to wipe.

"All done?"

"Yep, let's go back in."

Suddenly bright lights filled the area, Adam looked up and saw three or four police cars arrive at the warehouse, they must've been there for the people inside. Quickly he dropped to the ground, taking Alexandra with him. From there he could just about see what was going on but someone would have to look hard to see him. Adam watched as about seven police officers burst in and started arresting the partygoers. Adam looked at his cousin, he held up three fingers, he looked back up, he held up two fingers, then he held up one finger. And with a sudden jolt on her soldier the two of them got up and ran away, rushing through the tall grass heading toward the city. The adrenaline racing through them was so high that they started laughing like idiots by the time they reached the main road, now free from the police they kept running if only for fun. They ran for about ten minutes before stopping, both still laughing.

"Oh my god Adam that was incredible."

"I know, Christ I can feel my heart bursting out my chest, I'm never felt so terrified, so alive so..."

He never finished his sentence, Alexandra grabbed his head and kissed him, long, deep, hard, passionate. This was a lover's kiss in the heat of the moment. It was a silent night but Adam swore he heard fireworks.

Alexandra broke the kiss with difficulty, they were magnets that needed to be pulled apart with force. "How far are we from the apartment?"

"Far enough, unless we take a different means of transportation."

Alexandra looked behind her, she saw a taxi pulling up outside a restaurant, two people got out. Adam and Alexandra ran to the taxi and jumped in.

"Hey man what the hell is this?" The taxi driver had a mixture of confusion and anger in his voice.

"I will pay you double to get us where we want to go and to not stop what we're doing."

That got the driver's attention, Adam gave his address and grabbed Alexandra as soon as the taxi set off. Time seemed to slow down in the back of that taxi, the two cousins were the only people in the world, each kiss more passionate than the last, each touch more electric than the last. The illegal nature of their coming union never entered their mind, blinded by lust they enveloped each other.

When they got back to the apartment Adam threw a tenner threw the cabbie's window, it was a lot more than double but Adam wasn't waiting for change, still kissing each other wildly as they climbed the stair Adam fumbled for his keys, it became more and more tempting to just kick the door open. Thankfully it never came to that, he found them and opened the door, Alexandra slammed it shut behind her. They raced through to his bedroom, the nearest one to them, stripping as they went, first came off their shoes, then his shirt, then her top, Adam reached behind her and, with some difficulty, took her bra off.

Alexandra let it fall to the floor, letting her cousin take in the sight of her breasts for the first time. They weren't overly large but big enough to make an impression and they still held the perkiness of youth, her nipples were large and puffy, sometimes she didn't like this aspect of her but Adam apparently did as he dived in to lick and kiss her entire breast, both of them.

Adam took one of the condoms out his pocket then dropped his jeans to the ground and fell back onto the bed, Alexandra helped him by kneeling down and pulling them off his feet. From there she was eye-level with his very hard cock straining against his boxers. Suddenly this all became very real, here she was, half naked, about to fuck his cousin.

And damn it all if she wasn't horny enough to go along with it. Alexandra grabbed hold of the sides of his boxers and pulled them off. Adam's dick burst out and swayed in front of her. She was impressed, a good length, not the biggest she'd ever seen but still remarkable, it was definitely one of the thickest she'd seen. The sudden rush of wetness to her panties reminded her she was still wearing her underwear. Thinking fast she ran her tongue over Adam's cock then took him in her mouth.

Adam had only received a couple blowjobs from a previous girlfriend and while she was good she had nothing on Alexandra, the girl was a pro, applying the right amount of pressure, a good mixture of sucking and blowing while continually tickling the head with her tongue. Adam literally bit his lip to stop from coming right away.

While Adam was occupied, Alexandra slipped her panties off from under her skirt, the heat radiating from her pussy surprised her, she'd never been this turned on before. Still sucking her cousin's cock she began to finger her soaking pussy, two finger slid easily inside her.

"Lexi, god Lexi I'm going to come really fuckin soon."

Alexandra dropped his dick from her mouth. "Not yet Adam, not until you fuck me with this beast."

Alexandra stood up, unzipped her skirt and let it fall to the floor. There she was, fully naked in front of her cousin, letting him drink in the sight of her. She had shaved her pussy not too long ago after hearing a few girlfriends do it back home, so far Adam was the first male to see her bald cunny. She smiled slightly at that thought.

Adam had never seen a bald pussy before, he liked the look though, he wanted to lean forward and kiss her cunt, taste the unspoiled juices. But they were both too far gone for foreplay. Instead Alexandra knelt over Adam, her knees on either side of him, then she slowly lowered herself into his dick, Adam held himself straight, guiding him into her cunt.

The feeling was unbelievable, this tight, wet place was new to him, never before or since felt like his cousin's pussy. He was disappointed that she wasn't lying about her loss of virginity but she was still tight enough to milk his cock.

Alexandra had her eyes closed, never had she been so close to orgasm so soon after a dick entered her. Everything just intensified her lust, the thick cock in her pussy, Adam's hand's groping and holding her ass, her breasts bouncing on her chest. Every so often her clit would reach far down enough to touch Adam's body sending a shock through her. The two of them were so turned on that neither of them could hold off any longer and they came simultaneously, Alexandra came first but it was the sharp grip on his cock that set him off, shooting deep into her. Both sweating and panting, Alexandra lay across Adam's chest, for the longest time neither of them said anything.

"Lexi, I'm sorry I forgot the condom."

"It's ok Adam, I'm on the pill."

"I'll remember next time."

"Next time?"

The two of them laughed quietly. After a few seconds Adam kissed Alexandra on the head.

"I'm glad it was you Lexi."

It only took a little thought on her part to realise she had just taken her cousin's virginity. But she was too tired to say anything so she just fell asleep in his arms.

**

Alexandra woke up alone, but a look around the room and the still warm feel of Adam on the bed reminded her of what happened last night. God what was she thinking, fucking her cousin, that was too much even for her. Alexandra looked around for her clothes but was stopped by Adam opening the door.

"Hey you're up good. Listen I've saved you some eggs if you want breakfast."

"Thanks." She said half-heartedly although this went right over Adam's head. "Look Adam, about last night."

"Look, I'll understand if you have some regrets but I want you to know that I don't. I've been waiting for this for so long."

"What?"

Adam went to his drawers, opened the top drawer and pulled out a scrapbook. He took the scrapbook over the Alexandra and sat down next to her, inside the book were letters and postcards and pictures, all of which she had sent to him over the past four years. Adam had kept every single one of them.

"I didn't just wait for the right girl Lexi, I waited for you. You're the right girl, I've been in love with you for years and last night was me telling to you this."

Alexandra didn't know what to feel, shocked, angry, disgusted, happy? A million emotions rushed through her but she picked the top feeling and went with that.

Fury.

She slapped Adam, shocking them both.

"Don't you dare fall in love with me Adam McAllister. Don't you fucking dare. You don't know me, you don't know the real me, I'm a bitch, I hurt people, I refuse to let people get close to me, I'm just a, I'm just shit Adam."

"What, how can you say that Lexi I know you and you're a wonderful person."

Alexandra shot up and rushed across the room, she couldn't look Adam in the eye. "Fuck off Adam, we haven't seen each other in four years all you know about me is what I put into letters. You don't know what I've done, how I've hurt and used people for my own selfish fuckin needs. Face facts Adam I'm a cunt."

It was Adam's turn to shoot up, he put his hands on her shoulder but she jerked away from his touch. "I will not listen to you say such things Lexi, I don't care what you've done in the past, all I know is that I love you, and nothing you can say will change that. Come on you must feel something too, you were there as well last night."


"Fuck that Adam, that was just me being drunk and horny." "Bullshit Lexi, I've been with Liam long enough to know drunk and horny and what you were last night was something different."

Alexandra tried to argue with him but she couldn't. Something in the back of her mind was convincing her that he was right. Adam lightly stroked her arms.

"Adam, don't."

"You want this as well."

"We can't."

"Why not?"

He kissed her neck.

"Mmm, because once is a mistake but... Ahhh, twice and we're on a slippery road."

"Who's says we're stopping at twice."

"No-one would like it."

Adam nibbled her earlobe and whispered.

"Fuck everyone else."

They had sex for the second time that morning, this time though remembering the condom.

**

For the rest of Alexandra's holiday they spent most of their time in bed together, well not always a bed but that was the general consensus. They kept up the charade of not being related to each other with some difficulty but they made it work -- Liam was ecstatic that his friend finally lost his cherry.

Unfortunately all good things come to an end and just a few days later Alexandra was already going home. They said a tearful goodbye at the train station, promising each other that they'll be together again soon. But with Adam's exams and Alexandra's job-hunting amongst other factors and it was a long time before they saw each other again. Almost a year actually.

1990

When the summer of 1990 came around Adam planned to go down to Wales himself to meet Alexandra but when his parents caught wind of his plans they decided there and then they hadn't seen Jane and her new husband in a long time and were going down with him. Adam was understandably angry at this but he couldn't say anything, instead he just kept quiet.

They drove down to Wales in separate cars, Adam in his own and his parents in theirs. At one point during the trip Adam spotted his parents signalling him they were turning into a rest stop, he pretended not to notice and kept driving. But when his own tiredness caught up with him and he pulled into a rest stop they found him, from there on they drove in front of him.

The three of them pulled up outside Jane's house a few minutes after six in the evening, Jane and her new husband welcomed them in happily.

"I was wondering when you would show up." Jane joked as she hugged her sister.

"Sorry, we had a little trouble on the road down, Adam drove on instead of stopping with us for a rest. Took us a while to find him again."

"Well I'm just glad you're here now." Jane turned to Adam. "God I can't believe it's been so long since we last spoke."

"Five years is a long time. Is Lexi around?"

"She's at work right now, she'll be back in about an hour. Oh Adam, this is Damien."

Jane moved out the way to allow a man to approach Adam, he knew from Alexandra that this was her step-father. He was the exact opposite of Craig, tall, thin with short auburn hair and a five day shadow on his face. His light brown eyes and small smile showed kindness that Craig never could.

"It's good to finally meet you Adam, Alex hasn't stopped talking about you since she came home last year."

"Yeah well she's my best friend, I made sure to remind her of that when she came to visit."

"I'm sure she knows it."

The five of them went inside where Jane had set up dinner for everyone, they all sat around the table and swapped stories, Adam stayed mostly quiet, his mind never leaving the thoughts of Alexandra he'd carried for a year.

"Adam? Adam?"

His trance was broken by Jane calling his name. "Sorry, what?"

"I was just asking you about your school work, your mother told me you're working at a big law firm."

Adam sighed. "I've told you before mum, I'm not working at the firm yet, I still need to finish my last year of uni then and only if I get the right grades, then I'll get an internship. It's not a job yet."

"Well it's great to see you doing so well. I only wish my own daughter could be as forward thinking as you. I swear she's been in that same part-time job for three years."

Claire swallowed her drink. "Where is Alexandra working right now?"

"She's a bar worker, runs the tills for drinks and the like. I don't like the bar she's working at, I know for a fact that they have some of the girls working there get on stage in tight little outfits and dance for all the bug eyed men that go there. But I just know if I say anything to her she'll volunteer to get on that stage."

"I might have to go there at some point." Everyone laughed at Adam's comment, none of them could know the dirty images in his head of a dancing Alexandra.

"Adam, since we're short on rooms do you mind sleeping in Alex's room?"

YES. YES OH GOD YES.

"Sure that's no problem."

"Good, I'll tell her when she gets back."

"Tell me what?"

Everyone turned round to face Alexandra, Adam caught eyes with her and his heart melted, he was so happy to see her. She was wearing a pink tank-top and yellow running shorts that seemed to mould to her hips. She had changed a bit since they last talked; her long curly hair was now short and straight and seemed a much lighter colour. She also appeared thinner than last time, her body was a lot tighter and her stomach flatter. She spotted Adam and smiled at him.

"We were just asking Adam if he minds sharing your room."

Alexandra's eyes locks onto Adam's, she could see the thoughts in his head rush through. She could immediately tell what he was thinking.

"Sure, I'm fine with that. But no funny business mister."

"Alex, that's your cousin."

"It's fine Aunt Jane. She's just continuing a joke from when we last met."

Alexandra sat down next to Adam. "We're only joking mum. Don't fret over it."

Adam placed his hand on Alexandra's knee and slowly brushed it up her thigh. He stopped just as his pinky touched the outline of her pussy. It was so hard for Alexandra not react.

After the longest dinner in history Adam and Alexandra went upstairs to her room. Alexandra had barely shut the door before Adam seized her, pushing her against the door and kissing her with an explosion of passion and lust and love that he had kept repressed for almost a year.

"Oh god Lexi I've missed you."

"Mm, I've, fuck, I've missed you too. What was that at the table? We could've been caught."

"I know Lexi. I know but I had to, you do something to me."

His hand reached down and cupped her pussy though her shorts. She whimpered in approval.

"It's you Lexi, it's all for you. Everything I do for you."

She said nothing, her breathing only got sharper and deeper.

Adam kissed her neck "I couldn't stop thinking about you. I haven't looked at anyone else. I love you."

Alexandra pushed him away. "Fuck you Adam. What did I tell you? What did I fucking tell you about being in love with me? I told you not to be. I'm a horrible, horrible person and I only hurt people. I can't love anything, I'm just..."

Adam cut her off with another kiss; this one softer than the last. When he broke he felt her push forward, trying not to let his lips leave hers.

"Stop talking like that Lexi. I don't want to hear any of this."

"What's wrong with you Adam? Why must you have this fuckin romanticized view of me?"

"Because I love you."

Alexandra felt tears welling in her eyes, her cousin was in love with her and nothing she could say or do would change that. It was the only true love she had ever known and it made her hate herself even more because she just knew one day she would hurt him.

Later that night, Adam was waiting in Alexandra's room, she was in the shower and he was waiting to get in after her. He had spent the whole day ogling her, just waiting for the right time when they would be alone together without fear of interruption.

Alexandra stood in the bathroom looking into the mirror. She finished her shower ten minutes ago but kept it running. Was she really going to do this? Was she really going to fuck her cousin in her room with her parents mere feet from them? God why couldn't he have gotten a girlfriend in their time apart? She cursed him as her pussy got wetter at the risky thought of sex with him.

Alexandra turned off the shower and wrapped a towel around her body before heading out and back to her room. She opened the door to find Adam doing the Burt Reynolds' pose; completely naked with only his arm covering his crotch. She giggled slightly from shock but she had to admit he looked good.

Their eyes doing all the talking, Alexandra dropped her towel. This was the first time Adam had seen her body since last summer. She was definitely thinner, a lot thinner than last time. Her hair on her head had been cut but the hair on her pussy had grown, not too much, just so much that she had a landing strip now. She also had a small tattoo of a welsh dragon on her left hip, she looked so different and yet every bit as gorgeous as last time.

Adam got off the bed, took Alexandra in his arms and flung her on the bed. He was taking charge and she liked it. He knelt down between her legs and softly, slowly he kissed up her thighs, stopping just short of her pussy. His lips were just touching her lips and no more.

Alexandra had had people go down on her before but none of them showed the care and attention to detail that Adam did. Maybe he did love her.

Fucking idiot. She thought.

Satisfied that she was wet enough, Adam took a very long lick of her, from the top of her ass to the bottom of her clit. He tasted her musky, tangy juices. He'd never gone down on a girl before and missed his chance with her last summer, the taste surprised him and at first he didn't like it but he persevered for her and after a few seconds he loved it.

Adam took some tips he learnt from Liam and other guys and Uni, his thumb reached up and rubbed madly on Alexandra's clit while he moved his head backwards and forwards, sticking his tongue in and out of her pussy. He was fucking her with his tongue.

Alexandra covered her mouth with her hand, gripping her face tightly as she felt a flurry of orgasms overtaking her. She screamed in her hand, no-one else could hear her but it was loud enough for Adam to know what he was doing to her. When she had calmed down Adam climbed across her so that he was on top of her, he kissed her gently as he lowered his very hard cock into her. She had a sharp intake of breath as he entered her, she forgot how thick he was.

Adam felt ecstatic, he felt whole again knowing he was with the love of his life once more. He never wanted to leave her, he wanted to shout with joy, he wanted to tell everyone he was in love, the hell with laws or society.

As they slowly fucked each other, Adam looked down at his cousin, his smile was wiped on his face when he saw the sadness in her eyes.

"Hit me."

"What?"

"Hit me Adam. Slap me in the face."

"No Lexi I'm not going to do that."

Alexandra pulled Adam's head closer to her, so close their noses were smashed into each other. "Hit me Adam. Slap me, treat me like the bitch I am. Don't bother with kindness I don't deserve it. Come on hit. Hit me. Fuckin hit me."

Adam suddenly slapped Alexandra on the face. They were both surprised by his actions but she quickly got over it.

"God, again."

With less hesitation than before Adam slapped Alexandra. For some reason she enjoyed it, in fact she was getting pleasure out of the whole thing.

"Again."

He slapped her again, and again. He slapped her three more times, each time her moans of pleasure got louder and more intense until finally she came. Not as powerful as when he was going down on her but a far more satisfying cum.

"Jesus Lexi what the fuck was that?"

Alexandra lightly pushed Adam off her and sat up. "That, that was the real me Adam. That was a side of me I've not shown to many people."

"I hit you and you fuckin get off on it. Fuck Lexi what's wrong with you?"

"Where do I begin? Look Adam I told you before I'm not right, I'm a bad person and..."

Adam went to kiss her again but she stopped him. "No, you are not silencing me this time. Now you will listen to me. You remember when I told you I didn't want to talk about how I lost my virginity? It wasn't because of some drunken fuck with some guy I barely know, it was some guys I barely know. I got really drunk and five guys just had their way with me, taking every hole they could find. They didn't care I was just a cunt for them to fuck. And you know what? When I found out about what happened to me I didn't care either. I was sad, I wasn't angry I felt nothing. Hell the closest feeling I had to anything was joy. I enjoyed being used, I enjoyed being abused. I'm a bitch, I was their bitch."

Adam was moved visibly to tears by his cousin's confession. "Why are you telling me this Lexi, this is torture."

"Because you made me like this. You say you're in love with me, because of you I don't know how to love. Because you told me that the man I thought was my father had been abusing me my whole life. If I had just kept in the dark I would've been fine but no you had to play the hero and try to save me when all you did was fuck me up."

Adam covered his ears "Shut up Lexi, I don't want to hear it anymore."

"You getting angry?"

He nodded.

"Good, I want you to get angry, I want you to feel pain and misery and hate. I want you to want me to feel that pain. I want you to be vengeful. I want you to sadistic."

Something washed over Adam. He couldn't control himself. He grabbed Alexandra by the neck and threw her down on the bed, he stood up behind her and with no warning or foreplay, he rammed his dick into her surprised pussy. He pummelled her cunt viciously, all pretence of silence had been lost as they both grunted with each other, their flesh smacking together, sweat pouring down their bodies, the bed moving back and forth with their movements.

This was easily the best sex Alexandra had ever had, it was the hard stuff she wanted, to be treated like a whore and because it was her cousin doing it the taboo aspect was bringing her closer and closer to her third cum of the night.

When Adam's free hand -- the one not holding her neck to the bed -- slapped the bare cheek of her exposes ass she felt the vibrations travel to her clit. He kept slapping her, he growled something at her but she could only make out bits and pieces.

"....come on... fuck you c.... you little cunt fuck you.... cum bitch cum...."

He was an animal, animal in speech, animal in behaviour, animal in sexual prowess. Alexandra swore she heard him growl at her.

With one final slap on her ass and a massive ram into her Alexandra came on Adam's cock, the sudden squeeze sent him over the edge and his spunk shot deep into his cousin. This surge of release washed away what he was feeling, the fires of lust in him had died out and he was left the young man he was a few minutes ago. He looked down at Alexandra, still holding her to the bed, he quickly let go and immediately he came close to tears.

"Oh god Lexi what have I done?"

"You haven't done anything." She stayed seated, too tired to move.

"What are you talking about, I forced myself on you, I treated you like you were nothing."

It was her turn to kiss him to shut him up. "Adam, you did nothing I didn't want you to. I'll admit I was surprised at what you did but I enjoyed it. You have nothing to worry about. Now come on, let's go to sleep."

Alexandra turned the light off and fell asleep, Adam slipped down on his bed on the floor but he had more difficulty going to sleep. How could he after what he just witnesses?

**

Adam woke up the next morning to the sound of Alexandra getting out of bed. He got a quick but welcome glance at her naked ass just as she was putting on a pair of underpants. Adam groaned as he stretched awake. She turned and smiled at him

"Morning."

"Morning, you ain't getting showered."

"No need, I showered last night. Though I think you should probably get washed, especially after last night."

Alexandra knelt down and quickly kissed Adam before turning and leaving the room. Adam was surprised by her cheery attitude, she seemed so tortured last night but now it was like last night never happened.

Adam took a quick shower and got dressed in time for breakfast. When he joined everyone else he found them all helping themselves to bacon and sausages and eggs and the like. His father Kieran was the first to see him.

"Adam, good to see you're up."

Adam sat down next to Kieran who handed him a bacon sandwich. Where he was sitting Adam was directly opposite Alexandra, she kept catching his eye and smiling.

"So uh Lexi, Liam wanted me to tell you that he and Maggie had a daughter, they called her Katie."

"That's nice."

"It's not right having a baby at the age." Kieran spoke up, answering a question no-one asked. "I remember when we had you you were up all night crying. I've no idea how your friend Liam's going to cope with a crying baby and school."

"Speaking of which, did any of you hear a noise last night?" Adam's mother asked the table.

Adam and Alexandra eyes shot up at each other. How could they have been so stupid making so much noise last night? Just when things were about to get awkward they heard giggling. Jane and Damien were struggling not to burst out laughing and everyone knew why. The secret lovers were safe for now.

After a quick breakfast Adam followed Alexandra back to her room. He shut the door quickly.

"What the hell's going on Lexi?" He whispered at her angrily.

"What do you mean?" Her mood was still too cheerful for his liking.

"I mean this, I mean you. Why are you so happy, after what you told me last night?"

The smile never vanished from her face but her eyes told him she wasn't as happy as she was mere moments ago. "What would you have me do Adam? You want me to mope and groan and piss of my parents with my depression? No I put on a brave face and deal with this shit on my own, the less they know about my life the better."

"You don't have to be alone anymore Lexi."

"Piss off Adam. Don't come here all high and mighty thinking you can save me. You're only here two more days then you're fucking off back home. Don't give me hope that you can't fulfil."

Adam's voice went low, he wasn't angry anymore, he was disappointed. "What happened to you Lexi? What happened to the little girl I knew back home? When did you become so sarcastic, so cynical? So mean? This is not you Alexandra."

The use of her full name surprised Alexandra, all her life Adam had called her Lexi. As he turned and left her she felt like falling to the floor and weeping.

That night the two cousins went to bed separately. Adam didn't even bother trying to get into her bed, he just went right from the door to his mattress on the floor. Alexandra waited about 15 minutes for him to make a move but when she realised he wasn't she knew she had to fix it. She couldn't explain why but she didn't want Adam to be mad at her, she actually cared what he thought of her.

Alexandra slid down silently to Adam's bed, sliding under the covers and placing her arm over him.

"Lexi, what are you doing?"

"Shh. Let's not say anything Adam."

She gently kissed his head, just behind his ear. Adam was powerless against her, he melted in her arms. Alexandra climbed on top of Adam, the wet feeling on his legs told him she was already naked. Together they pulled his trousers down, from there Alexandra stroked his cock to full hardness, the softness of her hands sped the process along. Once he was completely hard Alexandra lifted herself onto his cock, letting his thick member squeeze its way into her. She could feel every ridge and bump and vein on his dick, she kept having to lift herself and lower a little more then lift, then lower, slowly working her way down him. When she felt his hand hands glide over her hips she went weak at the knees and slid down until he was fully in her. The two of them weren't taking any chances this time, they didn't fuck like animals they made love like a couple. Slow grinding against each other, building that feeling of contented ecstasy, letting it intensify. Alexandra bent over to allow Adam's cock to hit a whole new area of her pussy and in the process her breasts were within his grasp. He was gentle with her breasts, he sucked the nipples softly as a baby would, his licked the aureoles, he kissed the entire breast. He treated them with the same care and respect he would the rest of her body. The jagged panting and soft moaning in his ear told him he was doing right.


Adam wrapped his arms around Alexandra, pulled her ear close to his mouth and whispered.

"Come for me Lexi."

The thrill of being told what to do sent Alexandra over the edge, she buried her face in Adam's shoulder to keep from crying out but the twitches in her body and the convulsions in her cunt made it very clear she had came. Alexandra lay on top of Adam for a few minutes, a solitary tear ran down her face.

"I love you Lexi." He whispered at her.

"I know."

They stayed like that until morning. That evening Adam packed up and left for home with his parents. He hated having to say goodbye to Alexandra again but he had to. He was glad that he and his parents had different cars as that allowed him to cry without having to explain anything. He would forever have the final image stuck in his head; him kissing Alexandra then promising her they would meet up in less than a year the next time.

It very nearly was over a year before they met each other again..

1991

In the summer of 1991 Adam drove back down to Wales, on his own this time. The past year had been busy, Liam and Maggie were trying to function as a dysfunctional family, Adam had finished Uni and was now interning at a law firm and from what he was told Alexandra had moved out of her parents house and was now renting an apartment. When Adam was told this he told her to save her money on rent, he'd drive down to meet her.

The drive was long but time flew by for Adam, the chance to have the love of his life all on his own with no-one around to stop him was the motivation he needed to keep him going through the trip. When he finally arrived in Wales it was early afternoon and Alexandra would still be a college so Adam went to visit his Aunt Jane first, she was happy to see him.

"Adam, god you've gotten taller. How's your parent?"

"They're good. Dad got in a fender-bender a couple months back but he's fine."

"Your mum told me about that. I take it you're here for Alex."

"Yeah, I figured I'd come here until she got home."

"From where? She's in the kitchen right now. It's Saturday."

"Of course, sorry it's been a long trip, I thought it was still Friday. I'll go say hi."

Adam left quickly, true to his aunt's word Alexandra was in the kitchen making herself a sandwich.

"Hey." He spoke up, scaring her only slightly.

"Adam. What, what are you doing here?"

"I thought you were still at college. No matter we'll just head back to yours together then we'll..."

"Babe have you seen my wallet?"

A voice from the side caught their attention. A boy, not much older than Alexandra walked in, he was obviously ripped with ridiculously dyed blonde hair. Blondie walked across the room to Alexandra.

"Hey there. I'm Jesse." Blondie stuck out his hand for Adam to shake.

Adam shook his hand hesitantly. "Adam."

"I know, Alex told me about you. Babe have you seen wallet?"

"No I haven't."

"Well if you see tell me." Jesse kissed Alexandra, right in front of Adam who was trying so hard to hide his anger. When Jesses left Adam grabbed Alexandra and pulled her away from the kitchen counter.

"What the fuck was that?" He asked her in an angry whisper.

"What?"

"That, who is that guy?"

"That's Jesse. He's my boyfriend."

"Boyfriend? What about me, what about us?"

"Us? Adam there is no us, we're not in a relationship."

Adam could feel his heart breaking by the second. "I thought we were. After everything we did together."

"That was nothing Adam."

There it was, the knife wound right to his chest. "Nothing? Lexi we're cousins, cousins don't sleep together."

"Just put that down to me being drunk and horny."

"You weren't drunk last time I was here."

"You're a good fuck what can I say? Really Adam what made you think we had a chance of being an item."

"Well excuse me for being in love with a bitch like you. I can't believe you did this."

"Did what?" Jane's voice alerted the two of them to the fact they weren't alone. The venom in Adam's brain poisoned his mind and he did something he should never have done.

"You're daughter cheated on someone."

"Alex. How could you do such a thing?"

"Like you're one to talk mum, I'm still a bastard."

"You should learn from my mistakes. Who did you cheat on?"

Alexandra's eyes pleaded with Adam but he was too angry for mercy.

"Me. Lexi and I are lovers, or at least I thought we were but she neglected to tell me that she didn't love me like I loved her and just went off on her own."

Jane was stunned by what she heard, her brain ran marathons trying to make sense of it all. "You two, you've... have you?"

"I fucked her Aunt Jane. I've fucked your daughter, my cousin because I was in love with her. We fucked when she visited me and we fucked when I came here. But the heartless bitch just strung me along."

"We never said we were in a relationship."

"We never said we weren't. I've spent two years of my life devoted to you Lexi, every declaration of love I gave you was real. I know you can't feel love but surely you must've known that what I had was genuine."

Lexi couldn't say anything, how could she after hearing that. A fuming Adam turned round and stormed out the house, the calls from Jane and Alexandra fell on deaf ears as he got in his car and drove off. He'd been driving for most of the day and yesterday but he was so angry he didn't feel tired, he just drove home, his head and his heart enraged by Alexandra's betrayal. How could she just toy with his love like that? After everything they've done together, after everything she told him. Was it really his fault, was he so blinded by his love for her that he never saw her true nature.

No. No even if he was blinded she should have made it clear this wasn't going to work. She shouldn't have dragged him along like that.

She was right. She didn't know how to love.

**

It was night when Adam arrived back at his apartment. Quickly he went inside, packed up his belongings -- he had fewer than he expected -- into two suitcases and a backpack and took them down to his car. He was about to drive off when he saw Liam walking towards him.

"What the fuck are you doing Adam?"

"What do you think? I'm leaving. Why are you even here?"

"You're mother called me, after you ran out no-one knew where you'd go so I came here. She told me about you and Alex, I know about you two."

"So what you here to stop me?"

"No, I mean... I don't know Adam. I didn't even expect to find you here. I'm still not sure what to do here, I'm tired, I've got Maggie on my back about Katie."

Looking at his friend Adam felt pity for his friend.

"Hey Liam." Adam threw the keys to his apartment to Liam who caught it before it hit him in the face. "Move in if you want or get back the deposit and sell whatever I left. It's all yours now."

Liam was confused, and a little upset, but he simply nodded and let Adam get back in his car and drive away.

Adam didn't have a destination in mind but he knew where he wanted to go first, the airport. The place was nearly empty when he arrived but still open and accepting passengers. Adam parked his car near the entrance of the airport, leaving the keys inside and calling Liam's house to tell him to pick up the car, it was his along with everything else.

In the Airport Adam went straight for the tired looking women behind the desk, the late time meant there was no queue.

"Hi there. When's the next departure and where's it going?"

The travel women looked at Adam confused but she did a check. "The earliest one is California, 2, 2 and a ½ hours from now."

"I'll buy a ticket for that then. One way."

this was a good story and made tear up I truely hope when its finished that it has a happy ending

[Marlene38EE]

Wow....just....wow!!
REALLY good story, I was just skimming it as a Moderator, but...REALLY good writing!!

[kaidman]

Wow....just....wow!!
REALLY good story, I was just skimming it as a Moderator, but...REALLY good writing!!

yeah it always gives me moist eyes I will post the other two later

[NightShadow89]

Thanks for sharing!

[kaidman]

here is a link to chapter 2

http://www.sexstoriespost.com/forums/showthread.php/33123-Somebody-That-I-Used-To-Know-2