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head2fat
11-16-2011, 02:14 PM
"Ohmigod!" I cried, as my engorged cock assaulted the glove-like tightness of the 18 year-old’s bald shaved pussy.

"God fucking damn!" I croaked, as her juicy cunt relaxed just enough to take my entire length.

Uncontrollably excited, my thrusting quickly reached a frantic rhythm.

"Holy shit!" I screamed, as the fuck cream started churning in the depths of my overexcited balls. My lovemaking was rapidly building towards a powerful climax.

"You fucking little slut!" I hissed, as the first angry jets of cum bolted out of my searing cock en route to a body-wracking orgasm.

Yet, throughout this encounter, my lover, the object of my relentless thrusts, stayed strangely silent. Had I not pleased her? Had she not orgasmed? Had I upset or disappointed her in some way? Sadly, I would never know, since I was the sole person present during this sordid little encounter.

"She" was simply the latest of a long line of glossy paper lovers. This time it was a barely-legal brunette rudely exposing her pussy while on her back with her legs spread wide open. Such a pretty pussy it was, too. Smooth plump labia opening like tender petals around a tight pink slit with a fully-erect pea-sized clit.

It didn't help that her gray micro miniskirt was pulled up tightly over her ass or that her white cotton panties were pulled over to one side to expose the tender treasure lying just beneath her lightly furred mound. It didn't at all help that she was still wearing her white crew socks and tennis shoes, as she rudely spread her long gently-muscled legs. But it was her sweet innocent face with baby blue eyes, pert nose, and full flushed lips framed by sparse reddish bangs that finally pushed me over the edge into the shuddering intensity of a stage-6 ejaculation.

I'd only gotten to the second page of her 7-page spread (in one of those men’s magazines dedicated to the wonder of 18-year-old girls) before so unceremoniously blasting my load - she was that hot!

Fifteen minutes later, an unadvised revisit to this young slut's photo spread (in subsequent shots she is bent completely over sans panties but with the skirt still pulled up over her ass, her cute face staring right at me) ripped another brain-numbing eruption from my balls. This was particularly unwise, since I am well past the age where multiple ejaculations are healthy or usually even possible.

"What I wouldn't do to be able to regularly ream a juicy young cunt like that!" I fantasized. Alas, I sighed, because it would never come to pass. Although I encounter plenty of gorgeous young girls almost every day, an out-of-shape geezer like me would never get a chance to pick any of them up. Even my inner voice berates me, telling me that the most I can ever hope for is to admire them from afar - delectable carnal treasures far beyond my reach or means.

So admire them I do. All types, all ages - just as long as they retain a bit of innocence. Clothed simply in tee-shirts and jeans, blonde, brunette, or raven hair flowing freely, the young cuties in town constantly turn my head. Their tight tops and short shorts light fires in my groin. Bare-legged, in their short denim skirts or sport micro-mini's slit naughtily up the side, they stiffen me beyond any point of decency. I can only imagine how delicious it would feel to caress their smooth skin and slowly peel their clothes off in prelude to some rabid fucking in a warm secluded place.

Yes, I worship them - the tender young beauties graced with perky features and slender bodies, the plump young sweet-faced sluts spilling out of tops and shorts way too tiny for comfort, the stone-gorgeous foxes with flawless faces, hard bodies, and the radiant confidence to publicly bare as much ass as possible in full awareness of their powerful allure.

To me every cute young girl is a budding goddess. I'd lavish praises and purchases galore upon them all. I'd place them on pedestals and worship at their sacred altars. I'd be ecstatic to simply be arm-in-arm with any of them, while my rivals look on enviously. Forgiving their every tantrum and outburst, I'd bend over backwards to appease their every whim. And for those very reasons, I would never ever earn their love or respect.

Such an irony! The more desperately I crave intense physical love, the less likely it is that I will ever experience it!

"Nice" guys like me finish last primarily because we zealously suppress our darker more animal selves, choosing instead to present a “sensitive” and “caring” façade. While us “nice” guys clumsily execute our “caring” yet cautious assault upon the object of our lust, you can easily guess what she sees - a creepy, conniving, castrated wimp from whom she cannot recoil quickly enough!

Okay, so maybe I'm not so nice anymore. Though I may be old, I still have enough charm to engage young cuties in conversation. Once in a while I even persuade one to join me for dinner or a movie. If I were to ever get lucky I might even be able to bed one. But all too soon I'd disgust her with my sick obsession. You see, it's not the intimacy, the sex, or even the girl herself that I crave - it's the fantasy of her exposing herself for me that so arouses my lust. She doesn’t even need to be present for me to have a blazing orgasm. In fact, my eventual sexual climax is far more satisfying if she isn’t there.

As you can probably tell, I'm one sick puppy. Cosmo magazine says that my type isn't capable of genuine love. In my long tragic life, I've been in love only once, if that. That was almost 30 years ago. And I only realized how much I truly missed her long after I had sabotaged the relationship beyond any hope of repair.

For years, I’d pined to be reunited with Julia, my first and only love. Finally, though, I had to simply let go of my yearning for the past. In my pitiful condition, I could never win her back; and it was fruitless to look for another girl anything like her, for there could not possibly be such a one.

Nowadays I languish in misery and remorse. The last three decades have not been very good to me. Both career and social success have been elusive. I have no valuable possessions to speak of and no accomplishments about which to relate. My fat bloated physique is clearly not what it used to be. And my graying, balding hair has receded far past any point of attractiveness.

My sole pacifier and reason to live over the years has been an insatiable addiction to spanking the monkey.

After years of practice, it doesn't take much to make my cum fly. Miniskirted models in fashion magazines routinely launch my rocket. [Thank you Vogue, Bazaar, and Elle!] Memorized images of scantily clad women I've seen on the street frequently pop my pork. Televised pulchritude is a prime catalyst for spilling my seed. So much solo time to view so many gorgeous women with so little clothes on! Soap operas, sitcoms, movies, music videos, cartoons [Sailor Moon, yeah!]! I even regularly beat off over Bob Barker's winking beauties on the "Price Is Right" with their hard bodies on display in those short dresses and skimpy bikinis.

What most viciously busts my nut, though, are the X-rated men's magazine spreads of genetically-blessed models with huge tits and tight bubble butts rudely exposing their juicy bits in particularly nasty poses. Graphic pussy shots of gorgeous bent-over sluts in tight miniskirts without panties power-clean my cum-pipes every single time. I've been known to cum so hard imagining being teased by these nasty cunts, that my entire mind-body spasms in intense orgasm for up to five full minutes. Full coital recovery from my messiest climaxes may take several days.

My impulse to masturbate has grown to the point where my rare encounters with real women invariably fail to get me off. I don't even bother to pursue the occasional female who flirts with me anymore, because I'm afraid that I'll not be able to properly satisfy her.

Sometimes, I delude myself into believing that very young girls might be more forgiving of my inexperience. Then I realize that if I can't even offer these fresh-faced cuties an initial good roll in the hay, why in the world would they want to try a second time?! So, it seems that I am truly forsaken. What now?

Do I resign myself to eventual blindness and physical debilitation from excessive masturbation? Do I go cold turkey for a few months and try to restore some natural sexual response? Do I terminally sentence myself to a lonely miserable existence for having failed so miserably to mature into a sexually competent and confident adult?

I don't have any ready answers. Neither do I have any close friends to advise me. The most I can do is to try to survive yet another day.

These days my sole consolation has been convincing myself that this is as good as it’s going to get. I’ve tried to stop feeling guilty about jerking off over porn, especially the young stuff, but the fact that I can only indulge it in secret only reinforces my sense that my obsession is an affront to public decency.

So, as much as those critical questions beg to be answered, at the moment I have a more pressing issue at hand. Namely, the latest edition of "Purely 18"!

After that, another rough day in front of the classroom, imparting "morals" and "values" to my community’s comeliest school-aged daughters - the little sluts torturing me to distraction by constantly crossing their legs and bending over in their naughty little miniskirts and skin-tight low-rise jeans.

Well, somebody has to do it!

Landy
11-16-2011, 04:35 PM
Thanks for sharing this story with us.

davesmistress
11-17-2011, 06:36 PM
Thanks for the new addition

head2fat
11-17-2011, 11:00 PM
Actually, it's less of a story and more of a personal introduction. As f*cked up as the sordid details are, this really is about my life. As for an actual story, stay tuned.