Epicurean
09-13-2007, 08:00 PM
Part 1
I went through a remarkable transformation as I grew up, so remarkable that I still found it hard to explain even with the benefit of hindsight. At school I was a timid, hesitant, work-focused little girl, trying to get by without being noticed and being harassed by girls and boys alike. I’d thought I was going to make a lot of friends, take part in activities like everyone else, but it didn’t take me long to withdraw into my shell where I was most comfortable. I stayed like that for a long time, until I reached my final year and realised that I’d become isolated from school life. I had almost nothing in common with the people around me, and on the last day when everyone was huddled in groups and making plans and taking photos, I cried to myself when I had the chance to be alone. There were plenty of chances that day.
I was full of nerves about what lay ahead, but I managed to change something about myself in the years that followed. I told myself that I had to develop a slightly thicker skin, I had to persevere and not get put off by early failures, and it was a long process but it paid off. At college I acquired a circle of friends whom I could trust, and I grew confident - a lot more confident, in a lot more areas of life than I would have expected. You’ve probably guessed by now that one of them was sex. My initial forays into it were as clumsy and naïve as just about everyone else’s, but it honestly didn’t take me long to realise what I wanted from my partners and to demand it in bed as well. I didn’t want to fall into the trap so many girls of my age did, trying hard to appear desirable and being unable to back it up in the bedroom through guilt, self-doubt, inexperience etc. If guys were going to be with me then they would know what to expect from me.
I was very clear in expressing my wants and needs, firm while always remaining on the right side of bossy. And then there came that one time, when I was with a man and we were both horny as hell, when I - at his request, I must admit, not mine - crossed the line from firm, to bossy, right the way through to domineering. I told him exactly what to do and how to do it, I controlled the pace and rhythm, and I controlled precisely when he came, too. We both climaxed hard, and as I lay across his pumping chest afterwards with my own heart beating nineteen to the dozen, a thought formed in my devious little brain: You know, there could be a great future in this. I smiled briefly to myself, and filed it away for future reference.
When I did come back to the idea, I had my worries and reservations, for sure. I knew it had huge potential to be a disaster that would embarrass me hugely and send me right back to square one in terms of my new-found confidence. So I was taking a risk when I decided to embrace it. But the fact was, I took to being dominant so naturally that I couldn’t possibly be embarrassed at any stage. The more controlling I became, the more confident I became, and vice versa. I soon decided that it would be such a waste to save this persona for relationships alone when I could be employing it to great effect in my professional life as well. I asked the right people at college, because there was room for just about every niche there if you looked hard enough, answered a few advertisements, and before long I was working for a phone domination service making a decent living, and more importantly thoroughly enjoying myself as I did so.
I knew it was a stepping stone to bigger things, because as fun as it was to use my voice in such an authoritative manner, what I really wanted was eye contact. I wanted the men I talked to, to become visibly weak when they saw me in the flesh, to see in their eyes the certainty that they couldn’t resist me. With this attitude I now realised that all the physical characteristics of mine I’d seen as drawbacks were strengths instead. I was short, around 5’6”, with dark brown hair that I sometimes wore up, sometimes at shoulder length, but never allowed to flow down my back. I had a small, quite pinched face, mischievous brown eyes, and a slightly protruding chin which meant my lower lip curled over my upper one. In the past I’d thought it made me look unintentionally cruel, and awkward to boot. Now that I was being intentionally cruel, oh, how it worked wonders. And it had been a mistake of mine to assume that submissive men were all attracted to Amazonian goddesses; at times, yes, but they also wanted the little lady to be in charge of them, and I did a wonderful job of that.
I finished my degree while I started moving up in the domination business, making sure I had another feather in my bow. Apart from the obvious benefits for my future, it never hurt to let men know they were dealing with an educated woman when I met them outside working hours. I must have been doing something right, because without me trying too hard, without ever adopting the kind of extreme techniques I used in my phone sessions, suddenly all the men in my life were very attentive towards me, friends as well as lovers. I revelled in the attention I received, certain that the one thing I was never going to do was turn back from the path I had taken. It was too electrifying, too empowering, too much fun for me to give up.
I didn’t pretend that I knew it all though, and was always willing to listen and take advice from other women I encountered in the profession, while absorbing as much information as I could from literature on the subject. It was because I listened that I ended up working in a proper establishment alongside a group of the most fascinating women I’d ever met, in the same town where I’d gone to school all those years ago. They all laughed when I told them stories about what I’d been like as a girl, because it was so completely unlike the person I’d become. But I suspected that a few of them had come from similarly shy backgrounds; some were more assured than others, and there was no way that someone could just magically possess the skills we did without having to hone and refine them as we grew up.
I was 24, having settled into my role as a true dominatrix quite comfortably over the last couple of years, when I stumbled on something that brought my past back to me instantly. I was going through emails to our website, which was in the name of Lady Teresa, the owner of the place, and sifting out the usual spam and joke inquiries that people always insisted on throwing at businesses like ours. I finally came across a proper, serious application, and it intrigued me a lot. The little bio sounded interesting and rather cute, the words of someone who wasn’t sure of himself but was still very eager to serve. Those sorts of clients were always welcome. I scanned my eye over his list of interests and nodded, seeing nothing there that was too off-the-wall for me to handle. I was all ready to type a response personally, when I was brought up short by the name at the bottom: Robert Greene.
If there was one name that would make me stop and take notice, it was that one. All sorts of long-buried thoughts flashed through my mind; memories of taunting, name-calling, being shoved quite brutally against a wall, having valuable things stolen from me, of constant, never-ending harassment…. It had been just over ten years now, and I thought I’d forgotten, but with that trigger it returned to me clear as day. I wouldn’t go so far as to call them traumatic memories, but I certainly wasn’t grateful to be reminded of them. I placed my elbows on my lap and rested my chin against my knuckles, shaking slightly as I felt a trace of tears starting to form in my eyes. I managed to pull myself together in time, and reminded myself that it was just a name. A pretty common name too, in a large town. But then I took the time to check his form again, and saw he’d written his age down at the beginning: 24. It couldn’t be anyone else.
My mind churning, I sat back in my chair and started to think about what would happen if I accepted his application and let him come here to be dominated. Then I finally managed to stop going round in mental circles and concentrate on a large fact that was staring me in the face: he wants to come here to be dominated. I let that statement sink in for a little while, and I started to smile. After that, I started to laugh, a subdued little giggle which turned into an outright chuckle. And I thought I’d undergone a miraculous change over the past decade? This was something else. This was extraordinary, this was unbelievable, this was… such an opportunity.
My breathing increased as the possibilities came to me thick and fast. I knew the sensible option, I knew what I should do: turn it over to one of the other girls. They were all pros, all more experienced than me, they’d do a very good job. But as I said, this was the kind of opportunity that didn’t come along very often. This was what made all the time-wasters, the repetitive tame schoolboy fantasises, truly worthwhile: a chance to do something real, something intense. And boy, I was going to make it intense… I knew that these sessions nominally catered to the desires of the client, but any domme worth her salt made sure she applied her own personal touch to proceedings. I looked at his list of fetishes again and saw that I could incorporate them perfectly well into my own little scenario. I only hoped that he would have the guts to see it through, because it would certainly be worth his while.
It would be worth my while, too. I knew I could let someone else take over, or even turn down his application, and go on my way perfectly happy thereafter. I wasn’t going to let one man dictate my actions. But it was telling that even seeing his name again had almost reduced me to tears, had temporarily made me doubt myself and what I was doing. What if I ever encountered him again in a different setting and he was still just as horrible as an adult as he had been when we were kids? What if he still had the ability to make me shake in fear as he had done all those years ago? If I wanted to be a truly dominant woman, that just wouldn’t do; and in this context, he wasn’t going to be doing anything except what I told him to do.
Swallowing, I wrote back a reply to him using my domme name, Mistress Rebecca. I made sure I didn’t provide any photo; that was a surprise I was going to unveil to him on the day itself. We developed a correspondence, and I found it so strange typing messages to him and then receiving them, knowing who was at the other end. But I kept my cool and made everything highly professional. We fixed a date for him to visit and I persuaded him to be led down into the chambers by one of the other women, ready for me to arrive. I had a much harder time convincing Teresa to let me do it that way, because normal procedure was to have face-to-face contact before the session started, but I won her over eventually, saying that I needed it for the scenario I was playing out. I didn’t tell her, or anyone else, what exactly it was.
On the day itself, I prepared for the session in my room upstairs, making sure I looked the part. Then I was told that he’d arrived and been led down to the chambers, and that he was exactly how I’d requested: naked, chained to the wall and blindfolded. Perfect. I surveyed my appearance before I headed downstairs. The one thing I was determined not to do was act out some teacher/student roleplay, so I was not dressed as a headmistress. Nor was I going to be a schoolgirl with a dominant side to her, handing out punishment to a schoolboy. There was some rich material there, but I had decided it was going to be all mental. I was dressed quite simply in a black bra, a short black skirt and long black leather boots, with sharp heels that emphasised the curve of my ankles. I didn’t take any whips, canes or crops down with me either; all I had on me was my tongue, and that was going to be more than enough to dominate him.
As I stopped at the door to the dungeon, I took a deep breath, then held my head up high and strode confidently through. The first thing on my mind was the fleeting suspicion that it was a different man of the same name and the same age, in which case all I could do was play the session and take the money as I should, but as I walked carefully down the steps to the floor, I took a long look at the man who stood tied to the far wall, his arms pinned back, his legs apart, his vision cut off. I couldn’t see the eyes, but I recognised that sneering mouth, the one that had given me so much unwarranted abuse. He’d also been quite a lean, wiry kid at school, and he’d put on a little weight since. Nothing huge, but there was some fat there that I could make fun of when the time was right.
The actual dungeon itself was a small, intimate space, which didn’t give me that much room to work with. Once I reached floor level it took me only a few short steps to reach him, my body trembling as I did so. I was comforted by the fact that he was trembling twice as much at my approach, his chest rising and falling fast and his mouth dropped open slightly. I stopped in front of him, knowing that this was the moment that would decide whether the whole enterprise would work, and said calmly, “Hello, Robert.”
I watched intently as his mouth turned at the corners, as if there was just a faint trace of recognition. But it had been eight years since we’d seen each other, and he had started picking on other people once I’d stopped being such a fun target, so it was closer to a decade since we’d had regular contact. This would take a little more effort on my part. “Are you ready to see your Mistress, Robert?” I asked in equally measured tones.
“Yes, Mistress,” he replied quickly, and I could see he wasn’t a faker, he was mentally prepared for the session. He was receptive to my voice; whether he would be receptive to seeing me was another matter.
“Very well. But be warned, you may be a little surprised at what you see.” I reached forward and undid his blindfold, watching his eyes blink furiously once they were exposed to the light. As they adjusted and focused on me I stayed still, my face set in an expression of grim resolve. I took in his dark, lean features, the meanness of them lessened by age but the lines of his face still so familiar to me. His eyes widened as he saw me, then started to dart around, clearly searching for a name to fit my face. “Look familiar?” I queried scornfully, arching my eyebrows.
An expression of dawning realisation passed over him, then of disbelief, and as my heart skipped a beat he looked straight at me and said in an astounded voice, “Jennifer??!!”
I returned his gaze for a moment, letting him think he had figured me out, then shook my head. “No. Somewhere else, maybe. At school, for sure. But not in here. In here, I’m Mistress Rebecca. Memorise it, because that’s what you’re going to call me from now on.”
Robert’s face was still full of disbelief, and he regarded me in astonishment as I looked back at him. “I was pretty much the last person you were expecting to see when that blindfold came off, wasn’t it?” I said to him coolly. “Fair enough. But I have to say, yours was the last name I was expecting to see when I read your application. I guess we’ve both done an awful lot of changing over the past ten years, haven’t we?” I turned away from him and walked slowly across to the far side of the room; after a few seconds’ pause, I turned back to look at him over my shoulder. “And I’m going to show you just how much I’ve changed.”
Now that he’d absorbed the situation, his features grew more defensive, and then defiant. “If I’d known it was going to be you…” he began darkly, then broke off, looking away.
“If you’d known, yes. But you had no way of knowing, because I made certain that you didn’t see me beforehand. You had no photo of me, you had no contact with me when you arrived here, but you still let another woman put you in this vulnerable position waiting for me to take over, not even able to set eyes on me until the very last moment. That to me suggests a man who’s desperate, I mean really desperate, to have his submissive urges fulfilled.”
“That’s not what I want,” Robert said through gritted teeth, trying to avoid eye contact with me.
“Yes it is,” I laughed. “Of course it is. You want to be dominated by a woman thoroughly, from top to toe, from beginning to end. Just look at your penis.” I pointed casually towards it. “Whenever I get a reply from a man that strikes me as less than sincere, I tend to look to his penis to get an honest reply. Your penis is already semi-hard, and it’s only going to get harder the longer I go on dominating you. Why not admit it, and let me get on with it?”
“Because I know…” he muttered as he looked at me again, his wrists straining against the chains, “…I know you’re going to bring up what happened years ago. Even though it was so long ago now that it shouldn’t matter anymore.” Says you, I thought bitterly, but kept it to myself. “That’s what you’re going to do, isn’t it?”
“What, me?” I asked in shock, my eyes wide. “Am I going to dredge up something that happened years and years in the past for my own petty satisfaction? A nice, sweet, harmless little girl like me? Oh, Robert. Tsk, tsk.” I shook my head. “For shame.” I walked right up to him, ignoring the way he flinched as I placed my arms around his neck, and craned my head round so that I was right next to his left ear.
“You bet I am,” I breathed into it softly. His body twitched uncontrollably against mine, and I knew that I had him.
I went through a remarkable transformation as I grew up, so remarkable that I still found it hard to explain even with the benefit of hindsight. At school I was a timid, hesitant, work-focused little girl, trying to get by without being noticed and being harassed by girls and boys alike. I’d thought I was going to make a lot of friends, take part in activities like everyone else, but it didn’t take me long to withdraw into my shell where I was most comfortable. I stayed like that for a long time, until I reached my final year and realised that I’d become isolated from school life. I had almost nothing in common with the people around me, and on the last day when everyone was huddled in groups and making plans and taking photos, I cried to myself when I had the chance to be alone. There were plenty of chances that day.
I was full of nerves about what lay ahead, but I managed to change something about myself in the years that followed. I told myself that I had to develop a slightly thicker skin, I had to persevere and not get put off by early failures, and it was a long process but it paid off. At college I acquired a circle of friends whom I could trust, and I grew confident - a lot more confident, in a lot more areas of life than I would have expected. You’ve probably guessed by now that one of them was sex. My initial forays into it were as clumsy and naïve as just about everyone else’s, but it honestly didn’t take me long to realise what I wanted from my partners and to demand it in bed as well. I didn’t want to fall into the trap so many girls of my age did, trying hard to appear desirable and being unable to back it up in the bedroom through guilt, self-doubt, inexperience etc. If guys were going to be with me then they would know what to expect from me.
I was very clear in expressing my wants and needs, firm while always remaining on the right side of bossy. And then there came that one time, when I was with a man and we were both horny as hell, when I - at his request, I must admit, not mine - crossed the line from firm, to bossy, right the way through to domineering. I told him exactly what to do and how to do it, I controlled the pace and rhythm, and I controlled precisely when he came, too. We both climaxed hard, and as I lay across his pumping chest afterwards with my own heart beating nineteen to the dozen, a thought formed in my devious little brain: You know, there could be a great future in this. I smiled briefly to myself, and filed it away for future reference.
When I did come back to the idea, I had my worries and reservations, for sure. I knew it had huge potential to be a disaster that would embarrass me hugely and send me right back to square one in terms of my new-found confidence. So I was taking a risk when I decided to embrace it. But the fact was, I took to being dominant so naturally that I couldn’t possibly be embarrassed at any stage. The more controlling I became, the more confident I became, and vice versa. I soon decided that it would be such a waste to save this persona for relationships alone when I could be employing it to great effect in my professional life as well. I asked the right people at college, because there was room for just about every niche there if you looked hard enough, answered a few advertisements, and before long I was working for a phone domination service making a decent living, and more importantly thoroughly enjoying myself as I did so.
I knew it was a stepping stone to bigger things, because as fun as it was to use my voice in such an authoritative manner, what I really wanted was eye contact. I wanted the men I talked to, to become visibly weak when they saw me in the flesh, to see in their eyes the certainty that they couldn’t resist me. With this attitude I now realised that all the physical characteristics of mine I’d seen as drawbacks were strengths instead. I was short, around 5’6”, with dark brown hair that I sometimes wore up, sometimes at shoulder length, but never allowed to flow down my back. I had a small, quite pinched face, mischievous brown eyes, and a slightly protruding chin which meant my lower lip curled over my upper one. In the past I’d thought it made me look unintentionally cruel, and awkward to boot. Now that I was being intentionally cruel, oh, how it worked wonders. And it had been a mistake of mine to assume that submissive men were all attracted to Amazonian goddesses; at times, yes, but they also wanted the little lady to be in charge of them, and I did a wonderful job of that.
I finished my degree while I started moving up in the domination business, making sure I had another feather in my bow. Apart from the obvious benefits for my future, it never hurt to let men know they were dealing with an educated woman when I met them outside working hours. I must have been doing something right, because without me trying too hard, without ever adopting the kind of extreme techniques I used in my phone sessions, suddenly all the men in my life were very attentive towards me, friends as well as lovers. I revelled in the attention I received, certain that the one thing I was never going to do was turn back from the path I had taken. It was too electrifying, too empowering, too much fun for me to give up.
I didn’t pretend that I knew it all though, and was always willing to listen and take advice from other women I encountered in the profession, while absorbing as much information as I could from literature on the subject. It was because I listened that I ended up working in a proper establishment alongside a group of the most fascinating women I’d ever met, in the same town where I’d gone to school all those years ago. They all laughed when I told them stories about what I’d been like as a girl, because it was so completely unlike the person I’d become. But I suspected that a few of them had come from similarly shy backgrounds; some were more assured than others, and there was no way that someone could just magically possess the skills we did without having to hone and refine them as we grew up.
I was 24, having settled into my role as a true dominatrix quite comfortably over the last couple of years, when I stumbled on something that brought my past back to me instantly. I was going through emails to our website, which was in the name of Lady Teresa, the owner of the place, and sifting out the usual spam and joke inquiries that people always insisted on throwing at businesses like ours. I finally came across a proper, serious application, and it intrigued me a lot. The little bio sounded interesting and rather cute, the words of someone who wasn’t sure of himself but was still very eager to serve. Those sorts of clients were always welcome. I scanned my eye over his list of interests and nodded, seeing nothing there that was too off-the-wall for me to handle. I was all ready to type a response personally, when I was brought up short by the name at the bottom: Robert Greene.
If there was one name that would make me stop and take notice, it was that one. All sorts of long-buried thoughts flashed through my mind; memories of taunting, name-calling, being shoved quite brutally against a wall, having valuable things stolen from me, of constant, never-ending harassment…. It had been just over ten years now, and I thought I’d forgotten, but with that trigger it returned to me clear as day. I wouldn’t go so far as to call them traumatic memories, but I certainly wasn’t grateful to be reminded of them. I placed my elbows on my lap and rested my chin against my knuckles, shaking slightly as I felt a trace of tears starting to form in my eyes. I managed to pull myself together in time, and reminded myself that it was just a name. A pretty common name too, in a large town. But then I took the time to check his form again, and saw he’d written his age down at the beginning: 24. It couldn’t be anyone else.
My mind churning, I sat back in my chair and started to think about what would happen if I accepted his application and let him come here to be dominated. Then I finally managed to stop going round in mental circles and concentrate on a large fact that was staring me in the face: he wants to come here to be dominated. I let that statement sink in for a little while, and I started to smile. After that, I started to laugh, a subdued little giggle which turned into an outright chuckle. And I thought I’d undergone a miraculous change over the past decade? This was something else. This was extraordinary, this was unbelievable, this was… such an opportunity.
My breathing increased as the possibilities came to me thick and fast. I knew the sensible option, I knew what I should do: turn it over to one of the other girls. They were all pros, all more experienced than me, they’d do a very good job. But as I said, this was the kind of opportunity that didn’t come along very often. This was what made all the time-wasters, the repetitive tame schoolboy fantasises, truly worthwhile: a chance to do something real, something intense. And boy, I was going to make it intense… I knew that these sessions nominally catered to the desires of the client, but any domme worth her salt made sure she applied her own personal touch to proceedings. I looked at his list of fetishes again and saw that I could incorporate them perfectly well into my own little scenario. I only hoped that he would have the guts to see it through, because it would certainly be worth his while.
It would be worth my while, too. I knew I could let someone else take over, or even turn down his application, and go on my way perfectly happy thereafter. I wasn’t going to let one man dictate my actions. But it was telling that even seeing his name again had almost reduced me to tears, had temporarily made me doubt myself and what I was doing. What if I ever encountered him again in a different setting and he was still just as horrible as an adult as he had been when we were kids? What if he still had the ability to make me shake in fear as he had done all those years ago? If I wanted to be a truly dominant woman, that just wouldn’t do; and in this context, he wasn’t going to be doing anything except what I told him to do.
Swallowing, I wrote back a reply to him using my domme name, Mistress Rebecca. I made sure I didn’t provide any photo; that was a surprise I was going to unveil to him on the day itself. We developed a correspondence, and I found it so strange typing messages to him and then receiving them, knowing who was at the other end. But I kept my cool and made everything highly professional. We fixed a date for him to visit and I persuaded him to be led down into the chambers by one of the other women, ready for me to arrive. I had a much harder time convincing Teresa to let me do it that way, because normal procedure was to have face-to-face contact before the session started, but I won her over eventually, saying that I needed it for the scenario I was playing out. I didn’t tell her, or anyone else, what exactly it was.
On the day itself, I prepared for the session in my room upstairs, making sure I looked the part. Then I was told that he’d arrived and been led down to the chambers, and that he was exactly how I’d requested: naked, chained to the wall and blindfolded. Perfect. I surveyed my appearance before I headed downstairs. The one thing I was determined not to do was act out some teacher/student roleplay, so I was not dressed as a headmistress. Nor was I going to be a schoolgirl with a dominant side to her, handing out punishment to a schoolboy. There was some rich material there, but I had decided it was going to be all mental. I was dressed quite simply in a black bra, a short black skirt and long black leather boots, with sharp heels that emphasised the curve of my ankles. I didn’t take any whips, canes or crops down with me either; all I had on me was my tongue, and that was going to be more than enough to dominate him.
As I stopped at the door to the dungeon, I took a deep breath, then held my head up high and strode confidently through. The first thing on my mind was the fleeting suspicion that it was a different man of the same name and the same age, in which case all I could do was play the session and take the money as I should, but as I walked carefully down the steps to the floor, I took a long look at the man who stood tied to the far wall, his arms pinned back, his legs apart, his vision cut off. I couldn’t see the eyes, but I recognised that sneering mouth, the one that had given me so much unwarranted abuse. He’d also been quite a lean, wiry kid at school, and he’d put on a little weight since. Nothing huge, but there was some fat there that I could make fun of when the time was right.
The actual dungeon itself was a small, intimate space, which didn’t give me that much room to work with. Once I reached floor level it took me only a few short steps to reach him, my body trembling as I did so. I was comforted by the fact that he was trembling twice as much at my approach, his chest rising and falling fast and his mouth dropped open slightly. I stopped in front of him, knowing that this was the moment that would decide whether the whole enterprise would work, and said calmly, “Hello, Robert.”
I watched intently as his mouth turned at the corners, as if there was just a faint trace of recognition. But it had been eight years since we’d seen each other, and he had started picking on other people once I’d stopped being such a fun target, so it was closer to a decade since we’d had regular contact. This would take a little more effort on my part. “Are you ready to see your Mistress, Robert?” I asked in equally measured tones.
“Yes, Mistress,” he replied quickly, and I could see he wasn’t a faker, he was mentally prepared for the session. He was receptive to my voice; whether he would be receptive to seeing me was another matter.
“Very well. But be warned, you may be a little surprised at what you see.” I reached forward and undid his blindfold, watching his eyes blink furiously once they were exposed to the light. As they adjusted and focused on me I stayed still, my face set in an expression of grim resolve. I took in his dark, lean features, the meanness of them lessened by age but the lines of his face still so familiar to me. His eyes widened as he saw me, then started to dart around, clearly searching for a name to fit my face. “Look familiar?” I queried scornfully, arching my eyebrows.
An expression of dawning realisation passed over him, then of disbelief, and as my heart skipped a beat he looked straight at me and said in an astounded voice, “Jennifer??!!”
I returned his gaze for a moment, letting him think he had figured me out, then shook my head. “No. Somewhere else, maybe. At school, for sure. But not in here. In here, I’m Mistress Rebecca. Memorise it, because that’s what you’re going to call me from now on.”
Robert’s face was still full of disbelief, and he regarded me in astonishment as I looked back at him. “I was pretty much the last person you were expecting to see when that blindfold came off, wasn’t it?” I said to him coolly. “Fair enough. But I have to say, yours was the last name I was expecting to see when I read your application. I guess we’ve both done an awful lot of changing over the past ten years, haven’t we?” I turned away from him and walked slowly across to the far side of the room; after a few seconds’ pause, I turned back to look at him over my shoulder. “And I’m going to show you just how much I’ve changed.”
Now that he’d absorbed the situation, his features grew more defensive, and then defiant. “If I’d known it was going to be you…” he began darkly, then broke off, looking away.
“If you’d known, yes. But you had no way of knowing, because I made certain that you didn’t see me beforehand. You had no photo of me, you had no contact with me when you arrived here, but you still let another woman put you in this vulnerable position waiting for me to take over, not even able to set eyes on me until the very last moment. That to me suggests a man who’s desperate, I mean really desperate, to have his submissive urges fulfilled.”
“That’s not what I want,” Robert said through gritted teeth, trying to avoid eye contact with me.
“Yes it is,” I laughed. “Of course it is. You want to be dominated by a woman thoroughly, from top to toe, from beginning to end. Just look at your penis.” I pointed casually towards it. “Whenever I get a reply from a man that strikes me as less than sincere, I tend to look to his penis to get an honest reply. Your penis is already semi-hard, and it’s only going to get harder the longer I go on dominating you. Why not admit it, and let me get on with it?”
“Because I know…” he muttered as he looked at me again, his wrists straining against the chains, “…I know you’re going to bring up what happened years ago. Even though it was so long ago now that it shouldn’t matter anymore.” Says you, I thought bitterly, but kept it to myself. “That’s what you’re going to do, isn’t it?”
“What, me?” I asked in shock, my eyes wide. “Am I going to dredge up something that happened years and years in the past for my own petty satisfaction? A nice, sweet, harmless little girl like me? Oh, Robert. Tsk, tsk.” I shook my head. “For shame.” I walked right up to him, ignoring the way he flinched as I placed my arms around his neck, and craned my head round so that I was right next to his left ear.
“You bet I am,” I breathed into it softly. His body twitched uncontrollably against mine, and I knew that I had him.